I'm me, which is a rather inanely useless remark while at the same time being totally accurate, and is therefor very fitting.

I should say upfront that I'm a male to female transsexual, which means that I was born male but am mentally female. I've been on hormones for over 7 years now, and aside from not yet having The Operation I think I've made the transition quite nicely. Feel free to ask if you're curious but I'm not going to go into it more here (it's so not a defining feature of who I am).

Everything else I might write about myself is largely subject to change without notice. But that's okay, I'll do it anyway!

I can be pretty arrogant and full of myself at times, but usually I'm a pretty nice person. I love to laugh and have a good time. Sometimes I can be kinda submissive... depends on my mood, and who I'm with. I used to try to figure out which of my many sides is my real personality, but I've come to think they're all me. I refuse to pick!

I'm obsessed with novelty, new ideas, activities, and the likes hold my fascination so long as they're new. Then I get bored, which I do easily enough, and move on to The Next Big Thing.

I am, as a whole, completely over the top in most of the possible ways, but I'm not a drama queen. I dislike strife and conflict, especially of the interpersonal sort. Rather, I exist in the moment, letting my life flow more or less of its own accord, and for whatever reason it likes to flow rather turbulently. This can be a lot of fun, but it can also kinda suck. Planning ahead is both necessary and anathema.

It's probably not too hard to tell, but I'm something of a goth. Not in the lame pretentious way, and I'm not super-goth or anything extreme, it's just the look and community which I fit best with. I think graveyard picnics are romantic, that the world looks better at night, and I know a lot of dead baby jokes. Naturally I rather like goth/industrial music and go out clubbing as often as I can.

Oh, and drugs are fun. If you disagree, that's your problem, but I like to party. Life is about having as much fun as possible, and like I said before, I live in the moment. The past is quickly forgotten, the future is vague and unpredictable, the present is all we have.

I'm not really looking for "just sex" relationships at this time. I'm not totally opposed to the idea, but I'm more interested in friends and long-term relationship prospects. Besides, casual sex is better with friends than strangers... at least, usually. There are exceptions.

Oh, and I'm also a bit of a geek. Shh, it's a secret!

I am Crazy, Brilliant, and Feline

Chaos and madness continue to fill my life, but things are a little less uncertain in the past. I'm currently living in shoreline (it's an hour buss trip to capital hill, ugh!) in a little room. I'm intermittently (when I'm not lazy) working on affiliate marketing and doing a little freelance web design. Yay for never having had a normal job.

Between being broke most of the time and having no car, I haven't been getting out much. As such I'm usually up for going out and hanging out with cool people.

I excel at writing, petting cats, doing goth makeup, meowing, dancing, making messes, buying pretty things, getting lost, and having fun in a wild, crazy sort of way.

As a rule, the fist thing people notice is that I'm hot, that I'm severely goth, and that I'm very vain. Well, that or they notice that I'm intelligent, witty, and more than a bit silly, because lets face it, life is a laughing matter.

Books: I love books, and I'm going to list authors (mostly of sci-fi and fantasy) rather than titles 'cause otherwise this list would be huge. Laurell K. Hamilton (her early work, her newer stuff is lame), Tanya Huff, C.S. Friedman, Anne Rice, H.P. Lovecraft, C.J. Cherryh, Terry Goodkind, Jacqueline Cary, and way more than I could list right now.

Movies: I enjoy a lot of horror, sci-fi, a fair amount of action, and I rather like drug movies... you know, like Requiem for a Dream and Gone Dark. Actually, I tend to enjoy just about anything that's wild and crazy so long as it's not stupid-funny. Eww, I hate stupid-funny! But, like, for good movies... Domino is a favorite, so is Bloody Mallory (it's hard to go wrong with a French B horror movie about a squad of "anti-paranormal commandos" working for the Vatican). Of course The Crow has to go on this list, as does The Prophecy (and both of its sequels). The Invader Zim series is another must-list, though I almost never watch it except when I'm stoned. Actually, I'm realizing I can't really make a good list of favorite movies, there are way too many I like to remember.

Music: I love music, which is weird 'cause I never did when I was little, but go figure. I enjoy a lot of industrial, techno, electronica, and that sort of thing, which sort of goes with being goth, not to mention that I enjoy gothic and gothic rock. I also like a lot of synth-pop, like Ladytron and Freezepop, which doesn't go with the whole goth thing, but go figure. I am more than my stereotype. When it comes to groups I enjoy, my favorites (also hard to categorize and changing monthly) include Technoir, Combichrist, Lords of Acid, Miss Kitten, Clinical Torment (if you've ever heard of Chad Miller you have a moral obligation to message me, 'cause I haven't met anyone who has), Zombie Girl, Bjork, Portishead, Garbage, Suzanne Vega, Iron Maiden (Yeah, I know, very out of place, but go figure), Inkubus Sukkubus, Voltaire, and, as usual, a whole bunch more.

Food: Eww, food! No, like, really, I have some issues with food, but I like it more than I should. Mostly I like pizza and Thai food. Actually, I enjoy most Asian food that I've tried, especially when it's spicy. I love spicy, like, in a totally masochistic it-should-hurt-to-eat-it way, hehe! I enjoy a lot of shellfish, though not actual fish very much... oh, and squid. I positively adore calamari... at least, good calamari. Sucky calamari sucks. I love trying new kinds of foods, too, though I tend to be a very picky eater.

Oxygen, atmospheric pressure, food, water, thermal energy, and my head. I normally like people with things in common with me, but if you find that anything on this list is just not your thing then we have to get together for some hot demon/alien/zombie sex!

Yeah, I'm funny (if you don't think so you're looking at the wrong page), but seriously, six things key to my survival: Cool Music, Recreational Drugs, Sex, My PDA Phone (when the technology comes out I'm having it grafted to my brain!), My Car (never mind that I don't have one right now), and awesome people to hang out with.

Life, the universe, and everything. I'm a bit of a philosopher and I'm always looking at things from strange perspectives and coming up with stranger conclusions... which I summarily discard in favor of the next wave of specious revelation that crosses my mind. I have at least one opinion on almost everything, but there are a lot of things on which I hold two or more conflicting views. Yay for Doublethink!

Out clubbing, getting wasted and maybe getting laid... or camping out in my room watching old Invader Zim episodes, playing computer games, or reading a good book. Oh, and drugs.

If you want to? That would be a good reason, I think.

Being cool helps, being fun helps, being confident enough to admit that you're both cool and fun (and smart, and sexy, and something else too) helps even more.

If you think sound cool and you want to hang out. I love meeting new people... at least, people who are interesting. Boring people I can do without.

If you're a chick. Seriously, 90% of the people who message me are guys, we need some gender equality going here.

Just please, please, use decent English. I'm not a spelling Nazi, but I fervently dislike excessive use of internet shorthand. It drives me nuts.