i cant stand it when people under estimate me because ive my age. just because i havent had as many life experience as people in their forties, it doesnt mean that i havent found a guy that will really work for me, or even that i cant handle situations im put in. i can understand and comprehend problems and situations as they happen and deal with them effectively! stop telling me i cant do or understand something because im so young! its bull shit and im tired of hearing it!

60 Things You Didn't Know About Me
1) Are you bored? eh kinda
2) What day is today? 7/9/08-wednesday
3) Are you happy? in general yes..at the moment not really
4) Do you have a lot of friends? not tons..but some really goof ones
5) Are you close with them? yes
6) Who do you tell everything to my brother, katie
7) Is that person your best friend? one is
8) Does your best friend call you their best friend ha duh
9) Does your best friend have other best friends? yes
10) Do you ever fight with your best friend? ha not big fights
11) Does your best friend know everything about you? pretty much
12) Do you know everything about your best friend? dunno..i think so~
13) Are your friends jealous of your best friend? nooo
14) Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? i think so? ha
15) Do you have sex with that person? none of your business... =]
16) Are you close with your boyfriend/girlfriend? well..eh
17) Do you want kids? oh yes
18) Do you miss being a kid? mm hmm
19) Who was the last person to call you? momma
20) Who was the last person to text you? brannen
21) Who was the last person to comment on your myspace page? uhh anthony?
22) Do you have facebook? negative
23) Who was the last person to write on your facebook wall? uh no one duh
24) Which do you like better facebook or myspace? myspace fo sho
25) Have you ever cheated? yes
26) Have you ever been cheated on? yes
27) Would you ever cheat? not on the person im with
28) Do you have any tattoos? 3
29) Do you have any piercings? 3
30) Do you have any regrets? si
31) What are you wearing? pj's
32) Do you have plans for the weekend? not yet
33) will you be with your friends this weekend? probably
34) When was the last time you were drunk saturday..only a litle drunk
35) Do you ever lie? try not to
36) Do you enjoy sex? mmmmmm
37) How often do you have sex? ha jeez personal question
38) What was the last movie you watched? uhhh i dont know..
39) Who was the last person to email you? derek..i think..message on myspace =]
40) Is that person a close friend? kinda sorta
41) Would that person do anything to hurt you? i hope not
42) Does that person know a lot about you? kinda sorta lol
43) Who was the last person you talked to? mommy
44) What did you say ok mom
45) Do you wish you were somewhere else? YESSS
46) Are you a nice person? hah no
47) Do people like you? most people
48) Do you have friends from out of state? uhh a cousin
49) Where do they live? alabama
50) Do you have friends from out of the country? nope
51) Have you ever been out of the country? and if yes where? nah
52) Where would you like to go? london,ireland,germany
53) What song are you listening to? the tv
54) Are you getting bored of this survey? sure
55) Are you close with your parents? kinda, mostly my mom
56) What's your favorite thing to eat chocolate mm and bbq..and i loove chicken ha
57) Whats the thing that you hate the most to eat? asparagus..wont touch the shit
58) Do you think anyone will do this survey? probably not
59) Do you think 60 questions is too many to answer? nope

For the past couple of months im been stressed, depressed, anxious, happy, sad, just about every emotional a person could possibly feel. im tired of feeling all that crap..and i kinda feel like i just to to vent and get it all off of my chest.

When me and my boyfriend of 2 years broke up, i didnt know what to do. he was bestfriend, and i put everything i had into that relationship. I catered to his every need and did my best to make sure he was happy. i could talk to him about anything and i felt completely comfortable around him. We were bestfriends. i saw him every weekend, he had his own room at my house, he was my everything.

ive been having such a hard time dealing with the beak up. What do you do when you lose your bestfriend? its hard..soo i jsut started dating this guy i worked with, mostly just as a rebound..he was more serious than i was about the relationship..he was totally opposite of my type....i wasnt attracted to him at all. i used him to get things i wanted..drugs..alcohol...and he will still do whatever i want even though we arent even together anymore..

even though i was with him i still found myself getting depressed often..getting upset easily, just going emotionally crazy.

i just dont know what to do, i just want to feel normal and not be some huge ball of emotion..its ridiculous! i just needed to vent, get all my feelings out..and even as i do this..i still dont feel like i have the answer..

i feel like i may even have found a guy that will make me totally and completely happy, but im afraid my emotions will get in the way..im soo stressed



i have no idea whats going on aymore =[

basically it sucks....its going nowhere! im getting so bored not having anyone...i need to get a fun guy to keep me company....ot atleast a good fuck buddy! haha! the only love i have is my puppy haha im lame!!...anyway..so i joined this site like a day ago..pretty cool i suppose...it would be nice to find some more friends from it, but im not getting my hopes up lol...i could probably go fuck buddy shopping haha...im just rambling i know but i have nothing better to be doing at 1 a.m!