For the past couple of months im been stressed, depressed, anxious, happy, sad, just about every emotional a person could possibly feel. im tired of feeling all that crap..and i kinda feel like i just to to vent and get it all off of my chest.

When me and my boyfriend of 2 years broke up, i didnt know what to do. he was bestfriend, and i put everything i had into that relationship. I catered to his every need and did my best to make sure he was happy. i could talk to him about anything and i felt completely comfortable around him. We were bestfriends. i saw him every weekend, he had his own room at my house, he was my everything.

ive been having such a hard time dealing with the beak up. What do you do when you lose your bestfriend? its hard..soo i jsut started dating this guy i worked with, mostly just as a rebound..he was more serious than i was about the relationship..he was totally opposite of my type....i wasnt attracted to him at all. i used him to get things i wanted..drugs..alcohol...and he will still do whatever i want even though we arent even together anymore..

even though i was with him i still found myself getting depressed often..getting upset easily, just going emotionally crazy.

i just dont know what to do, i just want to feel normal and not be some huge ball of emotion..its ridiculous! i just needed to vent, get all my feelings out..and even as i do this..i still dont feel like i have the answer..

i feel like i may even have found a guy that will make me totally and completely happy, but im afraid my emotions will get in the way..im soo stressed



i have no idea whats going on aymore =[