I've spent most of my life being "happy." Then I learned how to come undone. I had this vision of becoming "whole." Whole, I believe, is something you are to the degree that you are present with what is--to the degree that you engage authentically with life as it happens. However, the notion that I may some day be perfectly whole and forever happy is now an illusion which led me here: Wholeness IS--for everyone whether they know it or not. AND my experience, no matter what it looks like, is an expression of that. What that means is that even the broken-hearted, aching, misery that I have journeyed through (with an openness and courage I am proud of) is also an expression of my wholeness. It's how I meet life that makes me feel whole, not how perfect I appear to be. Because I will never find an end to my opening or deepening. Life's mystery is infinite. Best just to live in it moment to moment.
"As your area of knowledge grows, so too does your perimeter of ignorance", Neil Degrasse Tyson.
That being said, I enjoy most the people who are no longer hiding from all that life brings to them and their true experience of it; It doesn't have to look pretty. They allow that they are Creators, but also allow life to have its way with them and then deal presently with the new currents that are left behind. Life is this beautiful conversation that causes us to change in every moment as we bring it in, allowing ourselves to be "touched" by it all. The real joy comes in knowing the holiness of every moment--the gift of love being born through it all.
Emotions are what move me. Don't hold back. I like people who know how to make self-reflection an amazing experience and are comfortable doing that with their beloved. Please don't hide from me.
I love authentic people who genuinely love themselves, know what they want in life, and offer all of themselves to every situation. That's a tall order, and maybe they don't get this in every moment. Maybe they have fleeting doubts and say, "Fuck it!" sometimes. But that's awesome too. I like the people around me to do whatever pleases them fully without guilt, apology, or excuses. It doesn't matter to me if the action is sleeping or some more productive activity. And I do my best to do the same. It is very sad to me to discover that someone did something for me that they did not want to do or enjoy doing. This builds resentment and co-dependency. For me giving comes without thought or expectation. I love knowing that those around me give with the same genuineness.
I truly admire people who don't easily get their feelings hurt but aren't afraid to share when they do feel hurt. People like that know how to make anything a powerful and positive experience simply because they are living it fully. I like fearless people. Nothing touches me like vulnerability unafraid of itself.
I like to play and find life amusing, vibrant, and beautiful. I love to be with people who do too. I enjoy being in places I'm "not supposed to be" and doing things I'm "not supposed to do.". I am daring and outrageous and complex. I'm not always nice, but everything I do comes from a deep love of humanity. Most of the time I just honor what is; sometimes (rarely) I push. And I love that about me. I know the beauty of my own heart--and because of that, I can see the beauty of another's, no matter what it looks like on the outside.
I LOVE to dance and sing and make friends. My favorite thing with a partner is eye gazing. It's right up there with amazing sex. Please be open for deep and moving intimacy. I want what is still unseen in me to be seen by you. And I am no doubt going to see that deeply into you.
For me an action is only as meaningful as the energy behind it. Please be YOU, feel YOU, speak YOU, and know YOU as best as you can, and then your feelings, thoughts and words will be ONE. To do other than that is to lead yourself and others into confusion, walking a path you don't understand or desire.
Let's be real! Let's play together! Let's explore!