And there's not much to see but there's still beauty there, and it's something I know we could share."
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I'm an unusual person. I'm usually a very calm and quiet person, while always open and reachable. But once I loosen up I might not be that quiet anymore.
Generally I'm a laid-back focused person with strong but carefully thought-out opinions. I like and dislike many different things. One of the things I hate most, in daily life, is trends and people's mindsets. But I'm not a hateful person.
I like to keep clean, inside and out. Hence no smoking and drinking and all. I'm not even big on snacks and sugary drinks, but then I enjoy them more when I do have them.
I'm not a very social person in terms of hanging out with people. I don't care much for going out for the sake of going out, drinking and getting drunk. It's a waste of time and money, and there are better things to do.
I do like to go out to actually DO something, whether it's a museum or a concert, or anything in between.
I'm a dangerous source of concentrated creative energy, so there's no way around that I'm an artist.
I mostly keep busy with listening/playing/creating music, filmmaking, photography, videogames, and the studying of these things. Otherwise I'm probably just doing or creating whatever else I like.
Some things are "hobby", but most things I do is to gain more knowledge and experience for a future career in whatever.
So I really like entertainment-media, but mostly that with substance and artistic value. However, it's not limited to electronic entertainment.
As I also like many other forms of art and creativity, such as drawing, painting, sculpting, mechanics, physicality (martial arts etc.), name it...
I'm not into any typical sports, but I do like to exercise. I've very recently taken on Yoga, not only for my body but also my mind. On top of that I also do some light bodybuilding. With the emphasis on "light", because I'm not a big muscular guy, and also don't intend to become huge.
I do intend to get into Martial Arts at some point, in which big muscles also wouldn't always really help matters.
I'm also not very tall, kind of average-sized I guess, and I have always felt kind of small, but so be it.
So if you're taller than me, and especially when you're a girl, I tend to feel puny... in a shitty depressing way...
I have a very wide sense of humor, from the dryest and silliest things, to the dumbest over the top nonsense and everything in between. Say, from the subtle humor in Tarantino-films, to the crazy childish fun from the Jackass-crew.
But again, anything in between as well. Simple lighthearted jokes, very dark humor, whole stand-up-shows (like Jim Carrey, Eddie Murphy, Louis C.K., Hans Teeuwen...), etc.
For the rest, I'm lonely, invisible, unhappy, a recluse by lack of choice...
There's a lot inside of me, but I feel hollow.
I have many desires, none get fulfilled.
Apparently I'm very forgettable and uninteresting.
"You all stare, but you'll never see, there's something inside me."