But changing my gender is only a part of the equation. I can't continue to live like I did as a male and need to start building a new life for myself as a woman. Part of that includes finding new friends who will accept me as I am. But my former (read male) self was a bit of a hermit, and I've fallen into a trap of isolating so much that I just don't get the opportunity to meet people.
I'm open to anything from platonic friendships to more serious relationships. All of my past romantic relationships have been with women. I've never formally dated a man, but have had my share of casual sex. While physically pleasurable, it also served a need... it made me feel attractive and desired. But the truth is that it rarely stimulates me anymore. Plenty of men have no problem being with me sexually, but don't have the confidence or courage to be seen with me in public. I don't want to be anybody's dirty secret any more. I'm not here to satisfy anybody's curiosity. Nor do I wish to be someone's fetish. I've been all these things and it's dehumanizing. Rather, I want to be loved and respected for who I am.
I'm seeking an open minded individual for something more, something ongoing and emotionally meaningful. I got divorced last fall (my ex-wife was also transgender), and I'm enjoying having some fun, dating and discovering myself right now. It's important to know that I'm definitely not wanting a full-time committed monogamous relationship here... just an ongoing experience with a very special person. I suppose I'm polyamorous, although I dislike the many of the connotations associated with the word.
I'm looking for a good conversationalist with a sensitive side. Someone I can go to dinner with or catch a movie, someone who will hold my hand in public and introduce me to their friends, someone who will snuggle next to me, someone who will kiss me gently, and most of all someone who will recognize and treat me as the woman I feel myself to be.
Sure, the sex will be great. Guaranteed. Truth be told, I'm pretty adventurous, even shameless. But that's not my focal point right now, nor should it be yours. Significant connection is what I'm truly after here: romance, friendship and trust.
I don't have all of my shit together, and I don't expect you to either. I'm unemployed and broke. I just got out of rehab for alcohol abuse (but I'm a total pothead). I suffer from chronic depression. But I'm holding it together pretty well, all things considered. I'm not looking for someone to solve my problems, just someone to experience some life and growth with, ups and downs included. I'm hoping that's not too tall of an order.