I made this profile to find someone to be with. I'm tired of this zombie-like state I'm living in. I need something new. I want to feel something for once. I highly doubt anything will ever come from this website, but I have a slight hope that something will.
Last year was pretty rough. There are still some days/nights that I would just rather not live. I'm stuck in a rut. I'm not looking for someone to cure that. I still need to feel that pain. I just want someone to help me through it. I realize that I cannot do it alone anymore.
Pain has an element of blank;
It cannot recollect
When it began, or if there were
A day when it was not.
It has no future but itself,
Its infinite realms contain
Its past, enlightened to perceive
New periods of pain.
- Emily Dickinson
It seems like every single guy I try to message on here just completely ignores me. I get it. I understand. Most of the guys I message I never even expect a reply. - I'm tired of this. If you're serious about not wanting a relationship, and you only are down to fuck. Please, please, just fuck off. Most of my time is already taken up, and I don't want to waste it on the hopes of finding someone and ending up left alone.
I have my issues but who doesn't? I'm not perfect. If you're expecting anything more from me. I'm sorry.
This feels all too dark to be on a dating website, but it isn't like anyone is going to actually read this anyway.