I am a complete and total mess, but I'm also one of the most fantastic people you will ever meet. OH! And I bake. Which is funny because I generally eat healthy but I bake brownies, cookies, cheese cake etc lol Oh and I like to eat at chinese food places. Lets see....I have a dream car. It's a blue pt cruiser. Yea, dream big huh? I really want one and I want to fix it all up spiffy like.

Best way to get my attention is to be honest and straight forward, romantic but not too cute, interested but not too avaliable, and be passionate about SOMETHING.

***I AM LOOKING FOR***
All I want is someone to love me. Someone I can love and support emotionally. Someone who wants kids because they want to make more of the goodness they see in me. Someone who loves dogs. Someone who won't one day hit me, cheat on me, or tell me they just dont want me anymore. Someone like Prince Charming only not quite so "gay"/cheesy.

I just moved back to Texas as of Dec. 2009 and I'm not really sure where I'm going with my life but for now it's couch surfing. Might go live with my sister.

I'm still legally married to my ex husband who has to pay me BAH. He was abusive. I left him. End of story there.

I can be dramatic but generally I'm not, just the movies I watch are full of it to compensate. I love my dog. And I carry around either a diary or a giant book of Jane Austen novels. I can mostly be found making some forlonging face because I think a constant stream of depressing thoughts. I love coffee.

I fell for a guy in Washington just before I left back for Texas. He wasn't ready for a relationship and I don't believe in "wasting time" in this short unguarenteed life. I don't wonder what ifs. Well I do but not generally about things that already happened. They either did happen or they didn't, and there's no changing it. What ifs are for future decisions.

Songs that fit my life.
Eminem- Beautiful(ABOUT ME)
Oasis- Stop crying your heart out(ABOUT HOPING FOR A BETTER FUTURE)
Jason Walker- Down(ABOUT HOW MY LIFE HAS BEEN)

Nothing?
Don't get me wrong there's a million things I want to do with it. I just had a lot of things die or end in my life so I'm just happy to be alive right now.
I guess right now I'm trying to build a life for my dog and I.

Making others happy. I am such a people pleaser.
I'd say it's both a fault and a virtue.
I'm also good at slaughtering zombies in Left 4 Dead on 360.
One day I hope to be good at being a mom, and a wife.
I'm also a pro at the military life. I love it. Deployments don't bother me at all and in fact I think they help us realize the value of one another more. Loyalty isn't an issue with me. But sanity is.

My eyes.
Or my tattoos, since I have (7 total) 4 that are usually visable, they get attention. All my tattoos are done in black and grey. I don't regret them.

Yes, I love the twilight saga. Nora Roberts. Nicolas Sparks. Sandra Brown. Dean Koontz. Jane Austen.

Movies, anything. Gone with the wind, Transformers, Romeo & Juliet. I love movies. Favorite of all time changes but I REALLY like The Nightmare Before Christmas, Donnie Darko, The Emperors New Groove, and Kiss Kiss Bang Bang.

Music... again anything. No rap. Don't like the rap.

Food... healthy? Fruits, Vegitables. Chinese and Mexican on occation.

Veggie Trays
Water
Love
Dogs
Music/Movies
Excersize

Just how "fucked up" my knee is. I never went to the doctor for it and it hurts lol
Sometimes I wonder if I'll end up alone, how my life will turn out, if it's possible for someone to love me with all my flaws. Honestly I have racing thoughts and I worry all the time.

Playing video games/working or playing with my dog. Camping if I have the money.

I run away when things get scary. If I feel in trouble, unwanted, or like a problem I hit the road when it's least expected. In the fight or flight.... I take the first plane out. This is where a reassuring person would come in handy, all it takes is a simple "its okay" or "I still love you" and I'm okay.

I have a lot of issues. My life has been one messed up thing after another and it has crippled me drastically. But I am hopeful. :)

Well it seems like no matter what I put here people will message me anyway. So hey, cardinal rule... if you want to do something.... just do it.