Most people say they don't really like to fill out profile pages and make descriptions of themselves, I, on the other hand, actually enjoy doing it. First because I just like filling out blank spaces, I can't stand blank spaces :) And second because trying to define myself with a few words, trying to find what's most important or characteristic about me, very often leads me to finding something new about me, or something I haven't noticed before, somehow it helps me get to know myself better. And I really find this important, because understanding yourself is the only way to understand other people too, and thinking about it, what's more important than really knowing and understanding the people in your life, and, therefore, allowing them to do so with you.
So, what I do know about me...
I consider myself a good person, although I don't really know the definition of a good person, and I'm not sure whether I am one or I just wish to be one. I've done both good and bad, I've done right and wrong, so I guess I can just hope the good has been more and it can make up for the bad.
I tend to be very devoted to the people I care about, I give myself out fully and without asking anything in return, and doing so actually makes me happy. But I know I am secretly selfish too, and sometimes I do wish there would be someone ready to do the same for me, the way I do it for others. But I've learned to hide those desires, it's easier and less disappointing.
I present myself as a realistic and practical person, I pretend that I think things through before I act and people know that they can count on me, but they don't always trust me, especially if they know me well enough to know that I'm also a dreamer and I have an imagination that sometimes hides the actual world from my eyes. So although I am practical I am also impulsive and spontaneous, and I actually too often act before I think, so it makes it hard for me to trust myself sometimes, I never know what would be the next crazy/dumb thing that can pop out of my mind.
I realize it's a bit contradictory, but I actually feel like there are two totally different persons living inside of me, one is really nice, polite, sympathetic, honest, the other is more cynical, cruel, selfish and calculative. They are in a constant conflict, arguing and fighting inside my head.
The problem is, I'm never sure which one is winning.
(I know it sounds like something I might need to get help for, but well, I still don't hear strange voices in my head or see dead people... so there might be hope for me still ^_^)
I am down on earth, high up there, and right in front of u