I still have a social life. I have some amazing friends that have stuck by me through all this.
I've kept a profile on here for hope & a sense of normalcy;
to show myself hey there's wonderful people out there & maybe one day I can start dating again.
But I've had no intention of dating, meeting,
or even talking to anyone online. So I apologize to those who messaged me when I never replied back. I don't like letting anyone down or to bring anyone into my troubles which makes me literally at a loss of words sometimes.
My early 20s are gone. I was supposed to be enjoying myself, growing up, setting a course for the rest of my life.
I'm writing this partly for myself. Maybe I can deal with it better if my thoughts are on the internet for all to see. Maybe it'll actually get me to make some online friends.
I don't know what people do in my situation. I know how to live from day to day, but that's all I'm really able to do. I’ve learned recently that my life has been stripped apart and I have to build myself up again piece by piece.