To celebrate my loss (and still losing) of weight, I am getting a few special things done. I bought some new makeup today, tomorrow I am getting my hair cut and colored, and sometime within the next few weeks I am going to get my septum pierced. I am so excited and so proud of my progress so far.

While I was wearing size 15 and 17 jeans back in April, I am now down to size 7 and 9's. I don't want to get too much smaller; maybe just another size or so. ~high fives everyone~

This morning, I weighed myself and I was 68.58 kg. (151.2 lbs.) That isn't bad, seeing as how a few months ago I was somewhere around 72.57kg. (160 lbs.) However, I am not satisfied with being this heavy. My ultimate goal is to get down to somewhere between 54 and 50 kg. (110-119 lbs.) So, I want to ultimately lose between 14.5 and 18.6kg. (32 and 41 lbs.) Well, in all reality, I want to weigh less than that, but back when I weighed 47.17kg (104 lbs.) in high school, my doctor said I was underweight and assigned me a nutritionist who made me gain all this weight. However, I feel disgusted with myself being this size...I hate my body more now than I did before; doing as the doctor said only hurt my self esteem. A lot of American magazines focus on girls who weigh about what I used to, but what makes it harder is that I read mostly Japanese magazines, and the weight loss ads start with girls who weigh 45.2 64.9kg (99.6 to 143 lbs.) to start, and brings them down to between 38.9 and 43.6kg. (85.8 and 96.1 lbs.) Apparently, a girl isn't cute unless her thighs don't touch and are no bigger around than her calves are...but I look at these girls and I want to be this tiny and cute...so..

 

May 22, 2009

 

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UPDATE: Okay, so it's 2 1/2 months later and I am no longer 68.58 kg. (151.2 lbs.) Now I weigh 61.2kg. (135.0 lbs.) It's been a slow going, but I am getting there...If I lose another 7-10kg, I think I can be happy. So far, I like my progress, and I feel more confident about myself. I eat less crap, and I have been exercising more. It really does work wonders to be not lazy. lol. 

 

August 05, 2009

It's total epic fail FTW! Well, for the loss, really...but if you're bored enough to watch it, go ahead.

I voiced the two main characters, Tenma and Yakamo and...the BGM is some TeddyLoid that I looped. (Remix of Miyavi's "Girls, Be Ambitious" actually)

Enjoy?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pqnGuUshSXg

Ok...I made a quiz. Go take it if you want to:

http://helloquizzy.okcupid.com/tests/could-we-get-along-quiz

Secondly...I have the craziest song stuck in my head. It's called "Spiderman" and it's by DJ OZMA. The video is hilarious, so I recommend you watch it....and if you find it with subtitles or can understand what the singer is saying, it's even funnier. Let me see if I can find a link to the live performance of it I saw...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G7bIyh4lOFg

DJ OZMA's poofy wig is amazing. <3

Enough about that though...What was this post supposed to be about? Now I can't remember what my point was. All well.

Alright, my user name is Oblaat_127. A lot of people are probably wondering, "Well, wtf is that?"

127 is the most obvious component to my s/n. It is my birthday, January 27. "Oblaat" is the name of a fairly famous song. If you have ever heard of X (known internationally under the name of X Japan), then you probably have heard of Hide. The pink-haired guitarist known affectionately as the "pink spider" has been dead for almost 11 years, but I still love to rock out to his music. If you want to check it out, go to youtube and search "Hide Oblaat PV" and you will find the music video.

If it irritates you that he is singing in Japanese, you can always check out his band ZILCH, which sang entirely in English. My favorite music video of theirs is Electric Cucumber. As Wikipedia says:

"Zilch was an alternative/industrial rock band formed in 1998 by Hideto "Hide" Matsumoto (formerly in X Japan), Ray McVeigh (formerly in The Professionals), Paul Raven (of Killing Joke), Joey Castillo (of Danzig) and I.N.A. (of hide with Spread Beaver).
Before the release of its first album, 3.2.1., the group already faced a major setback, as frontman Hide died in May 1998. The band did however continue to perform live, with the help of several guest musicians and released a remix album based on their debut and another studio album, along with a single. Zilch disbanded in 2002."

I am going to an anime convention in May, and I will be there cosplaying as Hide, so I will post pictures upon my return. <3

Ah, my first day here and I've already been called deranged. Music to my ears. The sad part is, the guy never even took the chance to actually get to know me. I think he judged me simply on my profile. How one-dimensional of him.

Unfortunately, to be superficial is to have the upper-hand in this society, a society so focused on the visual element that it is completely acceptable to have a wretched, evil, gold-digger of a girlfriend as long as she's tiny and cute. I may not be tiny or cute or sexy or anything...but I still believe I deserve to be loved; I deserve to be respected and given a fair chance.

Seriously, take a few minutes to talk to me and get to know me before throwing me to the wayside...I may just be worth your while in ways that you have never imagined.