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30 F Spring Grove, PA

My Details

Last Online
Today – 9:47am
5′ 2″ (1.57m)
Body Type
Mostly anything
Other, and laughing about it
Aries, and it’s fun to think about
Graduated from two-year college
Relationship Status
Relationship Type
Mostly monogamous
Doesn’t have kids
Likes dogs and likes cats
English (Fluently), French (Poorly)

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My self-summary
This profile is long. You don't have to read all of it, but I'd at least take the time to read this part of it. And the end of it. The middle is all muddled. ^.^V

I am great at problem solving, but I don't have the most extensive vocabulary known to mankind and I am horrible at remembering names/dates/facts. Concepts? I'm great at grokking them.

I'm more attracted to ideas than beliefs. To boys than to girls. To books than to movies or tv. To listening than speaking. To intelligence than to physical appearance. To self exploration than denial. To life than to death. To being submissive rather than dominant.

Random shit to throw in before your eyes glaze over:
->I am a smoker, I smoke Newport box 100s and I enjoy them.
->I do not want to date or fool around with someone who is devout in any religion.
->I'm an INFJ (don' t know what this is? google it lol).
->I am overweight; I don't hide that fact. Look at more than just the first couple of pictures.
->If you don't like me because I'm fat, I don't like you because you are shallow. :p

I want more out of life than what I've got; which is to say I'd like to find a passion that I can pursue that doesn't leave me feeling like I'm a drone at the end of the work day.

Will this happen? Stay tuned next week on sick...sad... world...
What I’m doing with my life
Contemplating the mysteries of my universe. Recalibrating myself to exist in the realm of reality while my mind traverses the fictitious and superfluous.

Figuring out what my major is going to be when I hit up a 4 year university. Hoping to figure this out sooner rather than later but so many aspects of life interest me, not all of them profitable/practical. It is rather difficult to pick something practical while at the same time not so dull I will want to take an ice pick to my brain to achieve relief from the awful.

When I'm not doing any of the above, I'm reading as many books as I can get my hands/kindle on, I'm writing poetry or short fiction to amuse myself, I'm gaming on facebook (don't judge me lol), watching random movies (mostly cartoons), as well as figuring out how to get an income source so I can be self sufficient.
I’m really good at
Problem solving, coloring, noticing inconsistencies in behavior, being quiet, small gestures of appreciation, listening to others, making analogies.

Writing dark/erotic poetry, Singing, Sewing, Word Games (Literati, Scrabble, Word Womp, Word Mole, etc), Reading, and diffusing intense situations.

Writing Sample (Skip to next section if you don't like poetry; I'm not trying to make you lol):

Walking in darkness, you and I
I'll hold your hand-- if only you'll hold mine
It's not about next year, this is your fucking life
If you hold onto the darkness, and ignore the light
You may as well be dying tonight.

I'll hold your hand-- if you'll hold mine
It's not about what's wrong, focus on what's right
And not what's right for your days, but also your nights
If you hold onto your failures, you've already died
You may as well keep fighting, keep opening up your eyes

It's not about next year, this is your fucking life
I know this is hard, and this is why you cry
You cry through the needle, the pills, in plain sight
If you hold onto my hand, we'll get better, in time
You may as well keep pushing forward, don't just lie

If you hold onto the darkness, and ignore the light
I want you to know, I wont leave you, I'll be by your side
Reveal your soul to me, and I'll show you mine
We've all got scars and imperfections, you'll find
It's not about beginnings, it's about not quitting, to try

You may as well be dying tonight
I'll hold your hand-- in this final twilight
It's not about yesterday, tomorrow I know you'll be fine
If you hold onto your demons, your angels just hide
But if you let go, they'll be back where they belong, inside

Walking in darkness, you and I
I'll hold your hand-- if you'll hold onto mine
It's not about next year, this is your fucking life
If you hold onto the darkness, and ignore the light
You may as well be dying this night.
The first things people usually notice about me
-->tattoos and/or eyebrow piercing

---> On this site? That I take a lot of tests and have answered tons of questions. No really, go take a look. I'll wait right here. *swirls ice cubes around in glass of iced tea* :)

-->weight; it's unavoidable, I suppose. I am short and 255lbs.

-->blue eyes

-->hair is wicked long and oddly dyed, most of the time. Right now it is some sort of brunette mixed with reds. I am thinking of going back to bright red in the future, but for now this will have to do. :)
Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food
1984, Anthem, The Claiming of Sleeping Beauty, Anita Blake Series, Southern Vampire Series, Stranger in a Strangeland, Lord of the Rings, The Vampire Chronicles, The Hobbit, The Wheel of Time, The Kybalion, the Ender's Game books (even though Mr. Card has beliefs that are different from mine), the Hunger Games trilogy, R.A. Salvatore books revolving around Drizzt Do'Urden. The Giver, Island of the Blue Dolphins, Indian Captive and Sign of the Beaver. Oh and Aliens Ate My Homework by Bruce Coville. :)

Forget Will Ferrell. Yuck. If it is a movie and he is in it, I'm so not down with it! Sci-Fi, Gory Horror films, Action, Comedy, Comic Book, Fantasy... I really don't have a particular favorite genre. Whatever looks interesting and grabs my attention ;)

Specific movies: American Psycho, Mirror Mask,The Labyrinth,Legend,The Sword in The Stone,Natural Borne Killers, The Crow, The Nightmare Before Christmas, Edward Scissorhands, Sweeney Todd, Les Miserables,Rent, So much more.

Family Guy, Futurama, Simpsons, Dexter, American Dad, The Cleveland Show, Weeds, anything interesting on Discover, The History Channel, or Animal Planet (non-"reality" tv, more documentaries), Big Bang Theory, and much much more

Blutengel (Die With You is my favorite song at the moment), Diary of Dreams (Favorite song is She), Hollywood Undead (Outside), Marilyn Manson (Breaking The Same Old Ground), Stabbing Westward (TV), Cradle of Filth (Nymphetamine), NIN (Reptile), KoRN (Alone I Break), Limp Bizkit (Behind Blue Eyes), Depeche Mode (World In My Eyes), REM (Losing My Religion), Eminem (Rap God), 3 6 Mafia (It's Hard Out Here for a Pimp), Ludacris (She Said), Adam and His Package (Punk Rock Academy), Sex Pistols (God Save The Queen), VNV Nation (Illusion), Cruxshadows (Winterborn- Subway to Sally Remix), Behemoth (The Lord is Upon Me), Poets of the Fall (Someone Special), Awolnation Sail, Ladytron, Goldfrapp, London After Midnight (Spider and the Fly), Terminal Choice (Don't Go), Velvet Acid Christ (Slut), Patsy Cline (After Midnight), Jeff Hilliard (Good Life), Lonely Island, Yvlis, A Perfect Circle (Pet), Tool (Parabola), Dear gods am I still adding? I love music, okay?

Food: Nutella, Fresh baked bread, dark chocolate, Peanut Butter anything (practically), peppered beef jerky, pizza--from New England area; the further south you go on the East coast the less desirable it gets. I know this from experience. lol. Sushi. Pho. Turkey, ... I'm not very picky. As long as it doesn't look or smell bad, we're good. Oh and it doesn't have mushrooms in it. ; ; I'm allergic.

Beverages: Tea (Earl G., Chai, and Iced), coffee, chocolate or strawberry milk, Water
The six things I could never do without
my red plush blanket (it's SO soft and comfy!)
friends HeyU83 specifically. <3
my glasses
intelligence with a measure of patience and compassion
I spend a lot of time thinking about
Vampires, Goth, Left Hand Path, Religions and how they compare to one another, what is going to come out with next, navigating existence sans income source, how to be a better person, if anyone actually reads all the shite I've written in my profile, how to survive on a day walker schedule, if I want children or not-- I keep going back and forth. Really thinking I'd rather not have them at all. Personal reasons.

Why 9/10 messages I get from people on this site lead off with the same eye twitching inducing bullshit. How anyone has success on this site. Finally meeting someone who exceeded my intellectual and met my visual aesthetic requirements (no, I was not looking for a supermodel genius either). Looking to see if I can find another kindred soul. :)

TL;DR Version- everything!
On a typical Friday night I am
Dancing with the devil in the pale moonlight. :3

Seriously though: I spend Fridays the same way I spend the other days. How ever the hell I want. There is no routine or set thing. I could be having fun with the fire pit in the back yard or I could be gaming until the wee hours of the morning. I could be out at a bar or visiting with friends in NY. I could be with friends in DE or also MD. I get around a bit. :D Life is too short to stay in one place forever.

I should mention: I have a license but I don't have a car or a job at the moment. I live in the middle of nowhere. I'm not a bad person, just getting through a bad time in life.

If you want to meet me, chances are good you're going to have to go on a road trip. Sorry!
The most private thing I’m willing to admit
If I admit it, it's not private anymore. Though, I will tell you, I'm into BDSM. Don't use this as your opener if you pair it with Fetlife. I'm not interested in sharing profiles on Fetlife unless we connect on other areas of existence, not just kink.
I’m looking for
  • Everybody
  • Ages 20–40
  • Located anywhere
  • For new friends
You should message me if
You feel like it. No, seriously. Do it. I dare you. :p

***If you're self-absorbed, extraordinarily vain, illiterate, and/or judgmental, we are not going to get along.***

You aren't going to ask me immediately about fetlife. There's more to my life than just fet, okay? :p