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My self-summary
Hi. I'm Ben.

Don't message me; I'm a hydra. I ate the horned beefman and co-opted his labyrinth. I have no ill-intent; I just like to be left alone and I'm not a good friend unless you stay away from the heads I don't control.

It's possible my mythological creature metaphors are very tedious.

My internal world(s) are infinitely more important than the outside world(s) and subsequently, I don't like hiking or bars. Blech.

On the plus side, I spend most of my time making those worlds a reality for others, and this brings me profound fulfillment.

Tags: INTJ, Type 7 Wing 6, Pragma, Agon/Paida
What I’m doing with my life
I'm an artist and designer at my own two-man game development company. I'm also a design consultant, which means big ridiculous companies sometimes fly me to their exhausting cities so I can fix their games.

Everyday I get to build strange creatures, exotic gardens, and special effects you can feel in the marrow of your face bones. I am a farmer of joy; an endorphin specialist.
I’m really good at
Barriers. No one makes them faster and stronger than me.

I'm very good at momentary euphoria. Maybe I'll learn to stretch those moments out a bit before I succumb to old age schizophrenia and drive a car (that I think is a plane) off a cliff in 20-30 years.
The first things people usually notice about me
That I'm dressed in all black, and probably critizicing someone for not living up to their potential as human gods.
Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food
Books: 20,000 Leagues Under The Sea, Oryx & Crake, House Of Leaves, and contrived game rule books.

Music: Tool, Air, Brother Ali, The Heavy, Anamanaguchi, Black Moth Super Rainbow, Studio Killers, Tobacco, Calibro 35, Lorn, Odesza, School Of Seven Bells, Tinariwen, TV On The Radio, Zero 7, Morcheeba, Atmosphere, Fela Kuti, Aesop Rock, JJ Grey & Mofro, Ofo The Black Company, Black Rebel Motorcycle Club, Com Truise, etc

Food: Big fat sandwiches and breakfast burritos.

Games: Fallout, DOTA, Devil May Cry, Street Fighter III, Starcraft, Endless Space/Legend, Anno 1404/2070/2205, Bayonetta, Besiege
The six things I could never do without
1. Cigars
2. Bourbon
3. Breakfast
4. Coffee
5. Work
6. Complex problems that trick me into thinking for one fucking second that I'm not bored as shit with the monotonous human consciousness routines.
I spend a lot of time thinking about
A. Why pushing that button doesn't look and feel good and B. How to fix it. But I get paid to think about that, so that's going to happen whether I like it or not (I usually like it).

What is the next most appropriate vector of expression? I can't help it; I have thick, black, inky, art-blood.

What to do about the nightmares. Don't worry, they're not violent or gory. Just horrifying.
On a typical Friday night I am
Playing games with a few people. Sometimes in net space, sometimes in meat space.

The more complicated the game, the better. I like being able to not think about work for a short while.
The most private thing I’m willing to admit
1. I don't have a very deep pool of emotions and it's not really in my nature to fall in romantic love. I honestly don't know why!
2. I am the epitome of Jung's introvert. I have these shitty little social batteries from the 1960's space race era, so I spend very little time hanging out with other humans.
3. I don't do exclusivity. It's just not in my software.

Everything is on my terms and I find it completely understandable if you don't like me because of it. But if you stay behind the yellow line we'll probably be friends forever.
You should message me if
I don't think you should.

If you're a brilliant, hot, warriorbitch of a woman who wants an intellectual and emotional opponent, you're not going to care and message me anyway, and that's cool. I really like your kind!