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ParadoxExistnce

30 M Livermore, CA

My Details

Last Online
Today – 8:30am
Orientation
Bisexual
Ethnicity
Height
5′ 10″ (1.78m)
Body Type
Average
Diet
Strictly anything
Smokes
No
Drinks
Socially
Drugs
Sometimes
Religion
Other, and very serious about it
Sign
Leo, and it’s fun to think about
Education
Working on space camp
Job
Medicine
Income
Rather not say
Relationship Status
Open relationship
Relationship Type
Mostly non-monogamous
Offspring
Doesn’t have kids, but might want them
Pets
Likes dogs and likes cats
Speaks
English (Fluently), Japanese (Poorly), Sign Language (Poorly)

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My self-summary
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Hello out there, my name is Oni... or that's what they call me. I'm either in California, Maine or somewhere between; I'm based in the California bay area, however. Should you seek there; you'll find me somewhere between or in, Livermore or SF.

My interests are in the universe; in all it's meanings and parallels; culture; languages/ linguistics; food; world medicine; permaculture; skill learning; crafting; world/ local community; prehistory and much else. The world is ripe with possibility; all we need do is eat of the fruit of experience. *may yours be sweet and fulfilling. :3*

"You can't take the sky from me!"

I've a strong need to explore and interact with the world *macro and micro. Know the world, know thyself.* around me; taking preference toward first hand experience. I am very animated, highly compassionate and passionate alike for life, and the love I have of others and myself. I prize and take pride in fostering interconnectedness, intimacy and communication.

I'm a lover and a nurture of lovers alike, thus I am responsibly involved and evolving with various lovers, with varying degrees of relationships. If you would like to know more, I encourage you to ask. :)* My personal preference limitless relationships; due to this there is much more potential for mutual and self growth alike. To clarify, you are your own being as much as I am my own, I've no place controlling you or telling you how to live your life; it is your decision what you do with it, go where you want when you want; I expect the same in kind. All I ask is clear, open communication in all regards and self responsibility.

"Thus from out of me cried and laughed my wise desire, which was born on the mountains, a wild wisdom in truth! - my great desire with rushing wings.
And often it tore me forth and up and away and in the midst of laughter: and then indeed I flew, an arrow, quivering with self-intoxicated rapture:
out into the distant future, which no dream has yet seen, into warmer Souths than artists have ever dreamed of, there where gods, dancing, are ashamed of all cloths -
Where all becoming seemed to me the dancing of gods and the wantonness of gods, and the world unrestrained and abandoned and fleeing back to itself.
as many gods eternally fleeing and re-seeking one another, as many gods blissfully self-contradicting communing again and belonging again to one another -
Where all time seemed to me a blissful mockery of moments, where necessity was freedom itself, which blissfully played with the goad of freedom. -
Where i found again my old devil and arch-enemy, the spirit of gravity, and all that he created: compulsion, dogma, need and consequence and purpose and will and good and evil."
- Fredrich Nietzsche
What I’m doing with my life
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I consider myself a philosopher and student of life; my main goals are to learn, and keep learning; putting it to use to benefit who ever, where ever I am in the moment. I'm interested in and pursuing: medicine and health, I want to particularly bolster my abilities in massage, Reiki, and physical/ astral body awareness; permaculture; consciousness; the esoteric; conspiracy theory; ancient history; bridging science and spirituality; qigong; the Tao; understanding of dimensions and possibilities through cause and affect experienced via mindful observation, intuition and trial and error; etc. I like to imagine the various possible outcomes based on the tiniest tweaks of persons or environment... it's surprising how much we miss... and how much we get hung up on.

"The tigers of wrath are wiser than the horses of instruction.
Great things are done when men and mountains meet.
What is grand is necessarily obscure to weak men. That which can be made explicit to the idiot is not worth my care.
Energy is an eternal delight, and he who desires, but acts not, breeds pestilence.
Do what thou Wilt, this world's a fiction and is made up of contradiction.'"
William Blake
I’m really good at
Go on, brag a little (or a lot). We won’t judge.
I am exceptional at networking/ bridging others. Though I suppose that all depends on whom I'm around and their level of openness. I'm a damned good improvisational cook; artist; masseur; being there when needed, but not always when wanted; picking up new skills; being a good friend and all around badass of light being; compassion; patience; applying myself when I wish to; body awareness; working with my hands; working with my mouth. ;)
The first things people usually notice about me
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My hair, thick glasses if I'm wearing them, arms, butt, fashion, swagger *I keep overhearing*. I'm likely at first intimidating; no effort on my part. When they first talk to me, my calm, gentle nature.
Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food
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Books/ Authors: Info\ how to manuals, Ishmael, My Ishmael, The Symposium, Battle Royale, The Help, Freakanomics, Brave New World, Something Wicked this way Comes, The Prophet, The Count of Monte Cristo, Thus Spoke Zarathustra, The Lilith Brood, Kindred, The shamanic path to quantum consciousness, The Ethical Slut, Parable of a sower, Candide/ Daniel Quinn, Lao Tzu, Voltaire, Octavia E. Butler, Fredrick Nietzsche, any recommendations?

Movies: Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, Fifth Element, Hook, Ferngully, Waking Life, Silent Hill, 500 Days of Summer, V for Vendetta, Amelie, Tokyo Eyes, Kiki's Delivery Service, Little Nemo, Beauty and the Beast, Batman Beyond: Return of the Joker, Battle Royale, TMNTIII, Thumbalina, El Superbeasto,

Shows: Heroes, Firefly, The Grim Adventures of Billy and Mandy, Accidentally on Purpose, Star Trek Series, Eden of the East, Gundam Wing, Card Captor Sakura, Mega Man, Sonic SatAM, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, Pirates of Dark Water, Voltron, Thundercats, Great Teacher Onizuka, Golden Boy, The Lil' Bits, Pinky and the Brain, bSmallville, Justice League, X-men, The Legend of Zelda, Samurai Champloo, Fushigi Yuug, Suzumiya Haruhi no Yuuutsu, Married with Children, Code Geass, Black Lagoon, Speed Grapher, El Hazard, Paradise Kiss, Big O, Genshiken, Tenchi Muyo, Outlaw Star, ishiteruze Baby, Tsukuyomi Moon Phase, Densha Otoko, Gatchaman, Blue Submarine No. 6, V the seires, Xena, Exo Squad, Wild Cats, The Super Mario show, Gankutsuou: the Count of Monte Cristo

Music: D'espairsRay, Bjork, Katy Perry, MUCC, Rammstien, 2Bullet, Prince, Deftones, Royksopp, Nobuo Uematsu, Akira Yamaoka, Nujabes, Maaya Sakamoto, Maximum the Hormone, Garbage, NIN, Beastie Boys, Dr. Dre, Shing02, BAAL, Mary Elizabeth McGlynn, Nujabes, Frou Frou, KRS1, Attack Attack, Kittie, John Meyer, Shoji Meguro, Koji Kondo, BoA, Boa, Yoko Kano, Angelspit, Malice Mizer, Dir En Grey, Chemistry, Captain Jack, Aqua, M-flo, Kylie Minogue, Sablime, Mudvayne, Royksopp, Aural Vampire, FLOPPY, Metronome, Kozi, L'arc~En~Ciel, Suicide Ali, Rip Slyme, Unsraw, T.M. Revolution, (Hed)PE, John Meyer, Cobra Starship, Earth, Wind and Fire, Orgy, Julien-K, John Legend, Ludacris, Powerman 5000, Backstreet Boys, New Kids on the Block, Etro Anime, Finntroll, Kid Cudi, Otep, Daedelus, TOKiMONSTA, Veela, Motoi Sakureba, Shpongle, Rameses B, Ephixa, Major Lazer

"Created from inside me.
More than love, I trust.
Wash away your pains, reach out to me

Whichever words you speak of yourself,
which came from the song of a god?
We are children of the same rhythm

To know you, to know a part of you-
the smallest unit in the world.
We knew we'd meet a thousand years ago.

It was in our genes.
We are children of the same rhythm.
We were together for a thousand years."
- Yoko Kano
Macross Plus

Video Games: Persona series, Castlevania series, Chrono series, Silent Hill series, BlazBlue, Guilty Gear, Rockman series, Rockman X series, Tetris Attack, Lumines, Bayonetta, Left4Dead, Zone of the Enders, Samurai Showdown, King of Fighters, Radical Dreamers: Le Tresor Interdit, Donkey Kong Country series, Mario Bros. series, The Legend of Zelda series *especially A Link to the Past*, Resonance of Fate, Demon Souls, Quest 64, Hybrid Heaven, Star Craft: Brood War, Advance Wars *especially Days of Ruin*, Disgaea, DDR, Shin Megami Tensei Series, Jet Set Radio, Kirby series, Lufia II: Rise of the Sinistrals, Oendan, Star Ocean series, Catherine, Pilotwings 64, Smash Brothers, plus so much more. To me; interactive books.

Food: if it's edible and in front of me, I'll likely eat it.
The six things I could never do without
Think outside the box. Sometimes the little things can say a lot.
We are rather resilient species, such that I am sure we could survive with only the basics; which is really all we need... what I'd like to keep around are a differing matter:

1. books
2. Journal/ pen
3. Cellphone *with net access... closest thing we have a star trek style multi tool for now.*
4. Bike/ tools
5. Music
6. Loved ones
*in no particular order*
I spend a lot of time thinking about
Global warming, lunch, or your next vacation… it’s all fair game.
Ways of rectifying the issues plaguing the world; That it's all a distraction... but if so, why am I not thoroughly so? How my actions may be impacting others around me; music;voices rambling, at times intelligibly; sex... a lot; the boundaries of others; how well I'm truly loving and taking care of myself; my lacking clients; leaving it all behind and hitting the road; love.

Asurdity of the Spoken

Abound within
to find depths
of understanding
Peeling the layers
peering through each dimension
Only to find myself yet again
at the start
Learned and remembering
but practice only ever proven folly
Resentment for selves availed
proven better to have stay hidden
Not a lie
but untold truth
Spoken into nothingness
but sung with unrepentant smiles

Better still to continue on
the adventure of souls
Symmetrical Rhythm
Different song
Different dance
Reasons enough for
an in ability to simply be
Lost now in the mists

This compass guideth
through squalls infinitesimal
white cells conquer yet again
That which is so familiar
consuming
growing and assimilating
the dna of experience
Rest in these bones
have been
and yet to be
Rest within, cherished
A challenge yet faced
Staring into thine depths
beckoning thee
overcome thee
Unready to surface
Lost before the cocoons breach
On a typical Friday night I am
Netflix and takeout, or getting your party on — how do you let loose?
Doing as I please, as I do every day. Chaotic/ Neutral. :D
The most private thing I’m willing to admit
I’m an empty essay… fill me out!
Anything so long as you ask the right questions.

However, adding on to this: I think the tests and questions could stand to be less black and white.

I'm far more sensitive than I let on. *empathic by nature.*

I always want to touch people, embrace them, hold them etc; especially strangers that are looking down; I care forevermore. I don't feel safe to anymore for concern my intentions may fall into question... it concerns me that as beings occupying the same space and originating from the "animal kingdom" - same place, the distance and doubt we hold for each other considering our abilities to think our way through it. Made of the same fuckin' star stuffs and this is what we do with ourselves; this lack of trust is killing' me. /end rant
I’m looking for
  • Everybody
  • Ages 20–40
  • Located anywhere
  • For new friends, long-term dating, short-term dating, casual sex
You should message me if
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Whatever reason.