Did all that you could with your heart and its care?
Gave everything you had to share?
To try and save the world on a dare?
Only to end here?
Now wanting it to save you from the despair?
A love hidden from you and it all seems unfair?
Every night on your knees giving a prayer?
To God hoping he will answer and be aware?
Of the heart ache you feel each time you stare?
Into the stars out there in midair?
Covering the night skies everywhere?
Muttering to yourself, "Please find me. I know you are out there somewhere."
I have and now I wait here
Twenty seven years ago, my mother huff and puff
She proved to be quite tough
As the doctor reached in and pulled me out in the buff
Every nurse in that room could see my stuff
Fortunately I was too young for it to be embarrassing
The small penis jokes were probably quite menacing
I didn't care, I just wanted my mothers parenting
Asleep in her arms where the world seemed less threatening
She gave me the name of Jason
At the moment I remain not taken
I am a Christian so I am far from a pagan
On a search for love regardless of the duration
Hopefully to one day find true love sensation
And hold a girl in my arms in adoration
I currently attended Grand Rapids Community College
If we see each other in the hall I might acknowledge
That you are also here for its great knowledge
And hope your personality is kind and not garbage
Otherwise our meeting could be quite the carnage
I am majoring in law enforcement
Hoping one day my teachers will give me an endorsement
By helping me find a job, even if it means being an undercover informant
Or at least some job that feels important
Giving my best to the community even if it leads to my live being shortened
I am a writer
I am a fighter
I am a viper
I am a striker
And I will always prefer to be the outsider
I spend five days at the gym
Packing on the muscles on every limb
Burning many calories so I can stay slim
And look good with my shirt off with a well done trim
I like to shoot guns
I find it to be quite fun
I will even teach it to my son
And hopefully stay a hypocrite when I shout, “Stop or I'll shoot!” While you run
I study foreign languages
From German, to French, to Italian, to Latin, to Spanish, to Portuguese, I try to find balances
And avoid bursting a brain blood vessel causing quite the damages
I think it would take more than a few bandages
To repair the damage caused by these savages
I don't have believe in having kids out of wedlock
It can put me in a deadlock
If the girl interested in me already has kids
As I will not be interested in a relationship, as my creed forbids
It is against my morals to hit a woman or child
Regardless of how annoying the can get and wild
I'll just give them a sedative to keep them mild
I don't believe in having a threesome
In the same league as committing treason
Nor am I interested in a Polyamory relationship, but I support its freedom
I believe in using communication instead of violence
It's a last resort regardless of someones defiance
Words not spoken becomes a deadly silence
I do not believe in a one night stand
Most guys find that to be quite grand
Until she shows up with a piece of paper and a baby, confirming your DNA strand
My parents have been married for thirty two years
I hope to achieve the same, even with my fears
That she will break my heart bringing me to tears
Or free my soul and bring me many cheers
They'll never be good to you
Love was only meant to be of two
I spend my days searching for a clue
Feeling the loneliness and its color of blue
Wishing I had a telescope extending into space to look through
To search every place of the world for your view
Wondering and wishing that I knew
How I can find you?
I don't even know who
I am supposed to be searching for in a world meant for two
Something that seems to be only found by a few
I spend hours and minutes thinking of you
Like a unpaid bill that is due
The recipient threatening to sue
If I don't pay it and bring things back to anew
Much like having a glass shoe
Searching for the princess that it fits, which could only ever be you