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PoetSunrises

32 F Winston-Salem, NC

My Details

Last Online
Yesterday – 7:10pm
Orientation
Straight
Ethnicity
White
Height
5′ 4″ (1.63m)
Body Type
Average
Diet
Mostly anything
Smokes
No
Drinks
Socially
Drugs
Never
Religion
Christianity, and very serious about it
Sign
Aquarius, and it’s fun to think about
Education
Working on university
Job
Art / Music / Writing
Income
Less than $20,000
Relationship Status
Seeing Someone
Relationship Type
Offspring
Doesn’t have kids, but might want them
Pets
Likes dogs and has cats
Speaks
English (Fluently), Spanish (Poorly)

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My self-summary
UPDATE: I think I'm done with you fuckers, you all lie.

**ATTENTION: Please read my profile completely before you attempt to contact me. This might prevent you from sounding like a moron, such as bringing up things that aren't even in there and asking me to tell you about them. Really...no offense, but I am utterly astounded at some of the stupidity I have come across on online dating sites. I wonder if any one you actually knows what a book is. I know my profile is rather long, but damn, I know you people had parents that taught you to read! Listen! Pay some attention! Be aware!! Have some patience and you might be rewarded...plus, you might actually not look like a moron who doesn't know what he's talking about!!!! Read the whole thing, trust me, I just might surprise you. Also, PLEASE for the love of GOD send me a message that consists of more than "hey" "what's up" "hey sexy" ect...it's just RETARDED and I WON'T waste my time unless you actually give me room to somewhat get to know what you are about. I can't do that from a 3 word sentence. Take out the dusty dictionary on your shelf, if you have one, please, and SAY SOMETHING, before I die of boredom. Thanks. **

Looking for people who haven't gone to sleep in the snow. Past that I'll let you know. If you catch my interest and I feel immediately drawn to you I will let you know, but my primary interest right now is making new friends and hanging out with people of similar interests...my favorite things of which are dancing my ass off at goth nights, which is theraputic as hell, yoga, which is also theraputic as hell, shows and drinks from time to time with really great conversation, and I mean conversation and not small talk, which I just feel uncomfortable participating in and will soon have to walk away from, reading and good movies, having stronger coffee than everyone else makes it, and generally meandering and wandering about. My favorite alcoholic drinks are beer and whipped cream, wine and rum and diet root beer...but I'm not typically what you'd call a drinker, just from time to time or when I want to let off steam. I hate most people in general but I usually have a strong connection with children and animals, go figure. Probably because they are both smarter than people give them credit for and they don't have a fear of expressing themselves. I appreciate companionship but am still by nature a loner. I'm quite insatiable and always feel as if I am searching for more. Take this as you will, I sometimes think it's a gift, sometimes a curse. I have to feel I have a purpose to be ok with myself and appreciate people who have the same. I respect people who have a strong initiative and call me on things. It's the people that tell you what you don't want to hear that you love the most, I firmly believe this. The world belongs to people with balls, like Buk said. If you have no spine you need not apply, however you have to have some empathy and pathos as well to get my attention. Have passion and express your desires openly but don't come on too strong. I have a life and my own interests. Don't be clingy and don't be an asshole just walk somewhere in between and we'll get along fine. A level of respect still has to be maintained, I'm hard to get to know so don't assume anything about me, and neither will I about you.

My intent from this site is to attempt to get to know people as I tend to be a loner sometimes, but not looking to rush into anything, I'm frankly a little gun shy after my last few relationships. If you really like me you'll attempt to get to know me as a person and that takes time. By the same token I am looking for a relationship, I'm sick of Mr Right Now, and I'm sick of you assholes who TRY to be Mr Right Now. Yes life is about the routes we take and not the destination and all that other artistic bullshit but I've traveled enough routes of the wrong ones and I'd like to actually find the right one...I have no need to put notches in my bedpost for the hell of it...unless it's been awhile since I've been notched...also, if you're still harboring feelings for someone else who's an ex or too far away for you to do anything about...let me save you some time...I'm not the girl for you. I want to be with someone who genuinely wants to be with me and who I in turn, genuinely want to be with. The way I will know this? If no matter where we go I can't see anyone else in the room..and since I can't explain fully what I'm looking for, that pretty much sums it up for the moment. Ok intent rambled...thank you for your time and don't throw popcorn on the floor...

As a side note: if you expect to get a reply from me, "hey sexy how you doing tonight?" will probably be passed by..you can think up more than one line, if not, don't waste time with me in attempting a conversation. No, I'm not into casual sex. I'm tired of ppl asking. Yes I'm an extremely sexual person, but if I can't trust you I sure as hell am not gonna fuck you. If we sleep together you're the ONLY person I'm sleeping with and I expect the same. If you need to go elsewhere tell me I'm not doing my job right and I'll fix it. Simple. Maybe you'd like to risk yourself to a barrage of stds, possible life threatening illness and infertility, have fun with that. I want babies and I want to be around in 20 years. I'll stick to my vibrator if I can't trust you, thanks. Yes I am honest and I expect the same. I'm also the kindest most loyal woman you will meet. I have been loyal even when people didn't deserve it bc once you earn my love I will do anything for you. This doesn't mean I'm a doormat or I won't leave your sorry ass in a heartbeat if you don't deserve me, because I know what I'm worth. I'm by no means perfect but even my imperfections will entertain you highly. Through everything I've been through in my life I've never lost the ability to feel and come back, I'm a phoenix like that. I've been through things that should have killed me and I'm still here. I'm alive for a reason and I plan on doing something great with it even if greatness happens at the last minute. Unlike 80% of the women on this site, I haven't been with 50 or more partners, I'll tell you the truth straight to your face, and I won't fuck around behind your back.

I'm done now, I hate talking about myself.

"The symptoms of hibernating are easily detectable: first, restlessness. The second symptom (when hibernating becomes dangerous and might degenerate into death): absence of pleasure. That is all. It appears like an innocuous illness. Monotony, boredom, death. Millions live like this (or die like this) without knowing it. They work in offices. They drive a car. They picnic with their families. They raise children. And then some shock treatment takes place, a person, a book, a song, and it awakens them from and saves them from death. Some never awaken. They are like the people who go to sleep in the snow and never awaken."

-Anais Nin

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." - Marianne Williamson

I am Intense, Insatiable, and Otherworldly
What I’m doing with my life
Music, writing and searching.

What I was doing with my time the most was writing with a new guy I'm working with that plays everything. Any other chicks tired of musicians you work with trying to get in your pants??Anyone?? Bueller....Bueller....

unfortunately it didn't work out past a demo so I guess I have to learn an instrument after all...still not giving up, but sometimes I feel like my real life is in hibernation.

I'm a damn good songwriter and I'm tired of not being taken seriously. I'm hoping Ani Difranco had this problem since that gives me a semblance of hope for the future. If you want to check some out you can go here: www.myspace.com/soulstiedtightly and tell me what you think. I'm the vocalist and I write all the lyrics. I used to perform alot with slam poetry and wanting to get back into it recently. I've been through alot in my life the past year that I think really needs to be put down...in a sense.

I spend a good deal of time progressing my yoga practice because it's something I love, mostly because it's both mentally and physically challenging and it's the best thing I've found that controls my focus issues and anxiety. I practice 3-4 days a week when I have the time, and I want to move that up and get really serious when I'm more stable financially. I've been practicing for 5 years and moved up 2 years ago to advanced classes but can't always afford to go as much as I'd like.

Looking for a day job that doesn't involve me wishing to kill people. Thus far I am trying to/thinking of trying to pursue something in media/sound, pursuing more with kids (have a childcare license) or eventually training to be a yoga teacher, but the latter's mostly just an ideal fantasy. The last job I had was doing an in home nursing aide position for my grandfather, who was a dementia patient. It was great because I got to spend alot of time with him before he died, which I'm grateful for. (I often have dreams he appears in with my grandma where no one else in the dream notices him but me.) After that I did a nursing home for awhile...currently looking for something else and was going to school till recently I burned myself out a bit and needed a break... I really want a job I feel excited about, thus far the only things I've ever been very passionate about are yoga and music. *Shrug* Go figure.

Trying to find a natural alternative to ritalin besides yoga class...I guess I feel like if I conquer that demon I can conquer anything..and actually be who I was supposed to be..

what I want: finally a stable life, but on my own terms, not society's terms: my own terms:: A day job I actually enjoy, writing music all night and sharing understanding with another person as solitary but as insatiable as myself, who will love me for who I am despite all the shit I've been through.
I’m really good at
Writing, singing and songwriting, yoga, reading, decent at sound tech, script supervising, empathy, patience with children and kitty personalities...I honestly think I might love animals more than people...but I love older people and one of my favorite jobs was a CNA. I'm planning on getting my med tech too eventually. Anyone hiring..let me know..seriously..I'm a great CNA; it comes naturally to me and I was often asked for by residents over other CNA's that had been there longer. I'm also a damn good editor and my dad used to ask me to edit all his sermons as a teenager bc my vocabulary was better than his was...and in journalism class I was always the first one asked...I am currently thinking very seriously about a journalism degree but taking time off from school. One thing I am NOT good at is math, but I was on a college grade reading level in the 6th grade and used to read practically 2 books a day while I was a kid..so I guess that makes up for it...wish I had as much patience for reading lately..but yeah I really really suck at math..that has held up my associates degree in the past..this ramble brought to you by..

Cooking, I use alot of spices, and it's something I take time with. My favorites are generally Curry, Taragon, Cilantro, Cumin, Tumeric, Saffron, Cloves, ect. Middle Eastern and Indian food is my favorite but I haven't seen any middle eastern places around Winston Salem...I'd kill for a coffee house that serves Turkish coffee.

Massage...I'd get a license if it wasn't so unstable of a job market.

I'm pretty skilled with reading people. Usually.

I've always had the gift of taming wild animals. Cats and I have an unspoken understanding of one another...my mom says when I was little we used to have all the stray cats parading around our general vicinity because they'd run from everyone else but come straight to me lol...I have 6 cats, 3 are fosters but two of those will probably be staying since I've gotten attached...I'm quite aware that I may worry about my animals more than myself, but they've always pulled my heart strings and I could never look away from a suffering animal. The majority of people go "awww that's so heartbreaking" when they hear about a starving child but the same people will walk right past a stray cat with a broken leg in the snow on their way to Starbucks..I just never could and feel that humans HAVE a voice to call out injustice; services to help them etc and animals only have us. Yeah shelters exist, but just so you know, if an animal is an "owner surrender" they can legally euth the first day. So think about that next time you think about taking in your cat or dog bc it keeps peeing everywhere. So while the terms "cat lady" and "shut in" might come to mind, if you call me that I'll just take it as a compliment...it's entirely possible that I get called the cat lady behind my back...or possibly my friends just think I am the humane society...but in my opinion there are worse qualities to have and I take very good care of my cats, so if that's an issue and you give me "that look," you know the one I'm talking about...well guess you aren't the one for me, good luck and be on your way...I also have a borrowed dog posse...when I moved in they just started to protect my yard..*shrug* they growl at the riff raff at the end of the driveway as they walk past...so yes if you aren't an animal lover you should run away now...especially if you hate cats it's just not gonna work out...go..go..run now! On another note Sheetz is open at 3 am and they have 2 dollar lattes so suck it Starbucks...

I'm also interesting in learning more about sewing. My first major project was my own bustle for a ball in Chapel Hill I regularly attend, and I want to learn more about Bellydance as well. My yoga teacher has taught me some in between classes and I've done a bit at home but want to start a 1 day a week class here in a new local studio when I actually have more cash.

I have pretty acute A.D.D and anxiety but thankfully this balances out with my natural adaptivity and the fact that after 30 years I can still always manage to look innocent when I do something wrong. I suppose being 5'4 and petite helps..and pouting the right way, but you use what you can right?

Really in some ways though the only things I've considered myself to excel in are writing and music and always having the right words...at least with a pen in my hand..sometimes in person I'm a bumbling geek...
The first things people usually notice about me
my eyes, my piercings, that the important parts of my personality and interests are overwhelmingly contradictive...I often get told I swear like a sailor for a Christian girl lol. That sometimes I seem like I'm not there...been told this...don't take it personally, I'm very ADHD and my mind is vast and odd..it isn't you..and my meds help alot now...I seem jaded and angry till you get to know me but I've just been fucked over too many times and I'm in truth pretty sensitive...I just don't put all my emotions on the table till I'm sure you're not gonna throw them at me...my cards tho you get all at once so don't be overwhelmed...best to start out with the brutal truth in my opinion...gotten lies thrown at my truth too many times tho, so if I seem jaded...wouldn't you...

I've suffered from chronic depression for half of my life so I'm sure sooner or later you'll notice, but don't worry I take drugs for that...yep I'm no picnic but you'll never be bored at my picnic...just sayin. All I can be is myself, whoever that is. Everyone has demons.

that most of the time unless I'm dressed up I'm wearin a tank top and yoga pants, that my hair is really long, my thrift store chic altered, combined, cut up and suited to fit my needs to never blend in..lol, my fondness for natural jewelery, (diamonds are not this girls best friend: you know how many people die for those fuckin' things??!! Plus I think their kinda ugly just sayin, I would much rather have a nice amber ring...)my blunt but shy nature and my brutal honesty...which I think people hate and love at the same time...also you'll probably notice I don't own a pair of clothing not decorated with cat hair...oh well.. and physically everyone seems to love my ass...*shrug* I dunno I guess you can tell me.
Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food
Notes from the underground: Dostoevsky, Girl Interrupted: Susanna Kaysen, Siddhartha: Herman Hesse, Anything Anais Nin, The Vampire Chronicles and The Witching Hour Series: Anne Rice, Anything Jack Kerouac, especially On the Road, The Dharma Bums, and Big Sur, Windblown World: The Journals of Jack Kerouac, Anything Pablo Neruda, Charles Bukowski, or Rainer Maria Rilke, some Allen Ginsburg, The Vampire Hunter Series: Laurell K. Hamilton, Dracula: Bram Stoker, A room of one's own: Virginia Woolf, The Telling and Changing Planes: Ursula Le Guin, Lost Souls: Poppy Z. Brite, Neverwhere and Stardust: Neil Gaimen, Ariel and The Bell Jar: Sylvia Plath, White Oleander and Paint it Black: Janet Finch, Cat's Cradle: Kurt Vonnegut, Babel and Early Work: Patti Smith, Living at the Movies and The Basketball Diaries: Jim Carroll, Joe Jones and Bird by Bird: Anne Lamont, Catcher in the Rye: J.D. Salinger,Possession: A.S. Byatt, Hairstyles of the Damned: Joe Meno, Vampires among us: Rosemary Ellen Guiley, Of Human Bondage and The Razor's Edge: W. Somerset Maugham, Some J.R.R Tolkien, Wuthering Heights: Emily Bronte, Some Steven King, Jack's Book: an oral biography of Jack Kerouac: Barry Gifford and Lawrence Lee, A whisper of blood: Stories edited by Ellen Datlow, The First Third: Neil Cassady, Baby Driver and Train Song: Jan Kerouac, (Jack's daughter, for those who don't know)Chinese Takeout: Arthur Nersesian, Jane Eyre: Charlotte Bronte, The Electric Kool Aid Acid Test: Tom Wolfe, Some E.E. Cummings, Door Wide Open: A beat love affair in letters: Joyce Johnson and Jack Kerouac; Some Joseph Brodsky. I also like anything fantasy and been getting back into it lately, recently been reading alot of Lynn Flewelling...Jacqueline Carey's Kushiel's Legacy Series also rocks...

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kushiel's_Legacy

I honestly read anything I find interesting and I still see Barnes and Noble as "my safe place"
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Movies:
A Life Less Ordinary, Foxfire, White Oleander, Neverending Story series, Princess Bride, Interview with the vampire, Karate Kid series, Mad Love, Girl Interrupted, Chasing Amy, Dogma, Clerks, Mallrats, Edward Scissorhands, Secret Window, The Virgin Suicides, Breakfast at Tiffany's, Fight Club, American Beauty, V for Vendetta, Waking the Dead, The Good Girl, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Celestial Clockwork, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Empire Records, Amelie, Walk the Line, Boys, Gone in sixty seconds, The Motorcycle Diaries, SLC Punk, The Anarchist's Cookbook, Run Lola Run, Romeo and Juliet, Sin City, The Crow, The Pianist, American History X, Beetlejuice, The Photographer, The Invisible Circus, Bartleby, Down with Love, Office Space, The Craft, Dracula, 9-5, Beat,The Last Time I committed suicide, Cube, Original Sin, Wildflowers, Mr Rice's Secret, Labyrinth, Legend, The Hunger, Lost and Delirious, Deeply, Spice Girls, Sleepy Hollow, Phantom of the Opera, Chronicles of Narnia, (both versions...Narnia geek girl yep! A Series of Unfortunate Events, Corpse Bride, When Harry met Sally, French Kiss, Whatever, Mr and Mrs Smith, Of Human Bondage, (the Bette Davis version) Last Days, Trainspotting, Lost Boys, Vanilla Sky, Tank Girl, Boys don't cry, Hackers, The Basketball Diaries, Heathers, Being John Malkovich, The Learning Curve, Memoirs of a Geisha, Intacto, Maria Full of Grace, Lady in the water.
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Music:

Flogging Molly, Slipknot, Jewel, Patti Smith, Ani DiFranco, The Cranberries, Tori Amos, Rasputina, Nirvana, Counting Crows, Otep, Enya, Peter Gabriel, Sarah Mclachlan, Lacuna Coil, K's Choice, Lorrena McKennit, Breaking Benjamin, Evanescence, Bob Dylan, Janis Joplin, Billy Holiday, Belly, Joni Mitchell, Bif Naked, Hole, Seether, Smashing Pumpkins, Tatu, Veruca Salt, The Cure, The Killers, Lifehouse, Flaw, Marilyn Manson, Heather Nova, The Wallflowers, Ani DiFranco,The Butthole Surfers, Sneaker Pimps, Blue Oyster Cult, Dido, Bauhaus, The Goo Goo Dolls, Morrissey, The Smiths, The Gin Blossoms, Stabbing Westward, Nine Inch Nails, Soul Asylum, Pink Floyd, Death Cab for a cutie, Dead can dance, Black Tape for a Bluegirl, Bjork, Sigur Ros, Elliot Smith, The White Stripes, The Violent Femmes, Johnny Cash, Aphex Twin, DHT, B.B. King, Patsy Cline, The Sex Pistols, The Pogues, Dead Kennedy's, Zydepunks, Belladonna, The Smears, The Doors, James D. Stark, The Eurythmics, The Silence Industry, In the arms of someone new, Cursive, Motorcycle, Azure Ray, The Ramones, The Cramps, David Bowie, Women for Hank, Alex Taylor and Evil Eye, Enigma, Leonard Cohen, Iron and Wine, The Misfits, Damien Rice, The Dubliners, Skinny Puppy, Sarah Brightman, Stevie Nicks, The Sugarcubes, The Talking Heads, The Mars Volta, The Mobtown Hooligans, L'Opera Tragica, Sinch, April Schaile and the judgement, The Bloody Irish Boys, Tin Cup Prophet, Finnegan's Lads, Arminta and Blaq Lily, Invisible States, Katatonia, Droom, Dark Tranquility, Azam Ali, Tom Waits, Paradise Lost, Manchester Orchestra, Imogen Heap, Luna Moth, Sister,Faith and Disease, Virgin Black, Batzz in the Belfry, Autumn's Grey Solace, Unto Ashes, Sopor Aeternus, Bella Morte,The Last Dance, This Ascension; Audra.....lots more as I am a music whore.
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Shows: I love any show that doesn't suck because music is like a drug for me, but I'm always half happy and half jealous the entire evening because I'm not currently in a band anymore and the stage has always been the closest thing to home I've ever felt....but some great shows I've been to were Counting Crows, Jewel..she was my hero in high school, Flogging Molly was a pretty cool experience cause they sold out and I snuck in anyway and got away with it..haha...The Dresden Dolls before they broke up...Bob Dylan and yeah he's still hot at that age...never seen Patti Smith, Ani Difranco or Tori live and those are the 3 I have to before I die...and the White Stripes, I just love them...or at least his new band..anything that man touches is musical gold as far as I'm concerned. In short anything outside the box with depth and truth I appreciate. Best musical highlights were meeting Amanda Palmer and her kissing my hand, Anne Rice personally signing my book..."keep the faith always" and having the ex bassist of Bella Morte telling me my work was "excellent." I hold onto that one to geek over when I'm afraid I might suck...

Food:

Middle Eastern, Indian, Thai, Vegetarian, Japanese, Mexican, hot sauce and whipped cream on anything that they can be used on and probably things you haven't thought of and will thank me for later once I make you try it, (beer and whipped cream!! Don't laugh it's good!) and anything with extra cilantro.
The six things I could never do without
Books, music, yoga, songwriting/singing, poetry, corsets, coffee, chai and lots of it, Argon Oil and a nice perfume, velvet, a good pair of combat boots, kitties, herb cabinet: especially the B Complex and St John's Wort, my shitty little car, and Amtrak! That's more than six and no I don't care.
I spend a lot of time thinking about
Lately I have been thinking about the strange comfort as I grow older about the change of the seasons. This too shall pass...and all that shite. It sounds simple but really, knowing in the spring the flowers will be renewed again even though they experience death in the winter renews my faith in something infallible in the universe, even though you can't always see it before you at the time. This is alot for me, I've never been a fatalist or a believer...all the time at least...I always question people's intentions and I truely believe fate dumps you on your ass 2 miles from the bus stop and then says, "here you go sweetie. Do it your damn self now."

I spend alot of time thinking about my purpose in life, since at this point life hasn't handed me what I expected at all and I'm kind of at a cross roads...I'm the kind of person who tends to get depressed without a purpose of some sort and I guess I have almost too high expectations of people sometimes..and myself.

The past year has taught me I'm strong but I still feel things acutely, that things always happen for a reason, and that nothing is random. So many small things add up to large things. Seemingly small gestures you do for others mean a huge deal, if they didn't I might not be alive right now. I've discovered indefinitely in the past few years that their is in fact a God. A small gesture on the part of an atheist that ended up saving my life proved this to me, ironically..but hey I think God has a sense of humor. I was raised a minister's daughter and I was angry at God a long time...then he kind of showed up and said..."hey there's some sense to all this madness...here you go...*hands sense* You can agree or not and you may think I'm crazy if you ever hear that story but whatever, everybody's a little crazy, I'm just actually upfront about my crazy...if you're upfront about your crazy I might like to meet you...
On a typical Friday night I am
Dancing, reading, listening to music at 2 in the morning, making music at 2 in the morning, (I am a vampire songwriter) staying up online too damn long, last minute yoga class, wandering, shows, traveling, coffee and good conversation, singing opera at karaoke night, gaming sometimes, watching too much netflix, homework while everyone else is out getting drunk, train rides, playing with kitties, or just being a homebody...whatever I want to do at the time.
The most private thing I’m willing to admit
I ask the cats if they've seen my keys. If you get far enough I'll let you know the rest.
I’m looking for
  • Guys who like girls
  • Ages 21–40
  • Near me
  • For new friends
You should message me if
You have intensity, intelligence, passion and something interesting to say. You have positive energy but still know how to walk in the shadows. You are solitary but still insatiable about experiencing things in life. You have an inner and outer strength and urgency but also a sense of stability and you know who you are. You have grace, beauty, elegance and an inner balance. You and I understand one another. If you feel an immediate connection with me. You're into yoga. I am pretty religious about it, 3-4 times a week classes if I have the money that week, and am trying to move up to the time for a daily practice. I'd love it if someone was open to practicing with me but most guys are not interested or too apprehensive. That you can actually be honest with me and not lie to my face. Seriously I don't care if you lie to me about other girls or if you took the trash out, lie once and I'm done. It's the one thing I don't forgive. You actually believe in God...just not willing to get attached to someone who doesn't at least share the same basic belief systems anymore because it never works and I always get hurt in the long run. I also tend to have a weakness for very tall geeky boys, red heads, and artist/writer types, as long as you aren't one of those pretentious artist types because I've met too many of those in my time. I don't really have a type, I just like who I like, and it's not about looks but attitude, intelligence, and how you carry yourself, but I will say I think a man who walks through a room like he doesn't give a fuck what anyone thinks but still turns out to be not an arrogant asshole is always something I notice. Or you can just message me if you're interesting and blessedly weird and you think we would share in our certain kind of mutual weirdness.

Most of all that you choose urgency over apathy and you can actually surprise me.

Kudos if you've read this long...also, please don't email me and ask me to look past that you "just can't read all this" bc it's "a small novel." Unless you're dyslexic or read English as a second language...or something else of an equal excuse..if you can't read an entire profile, I'll just be too much for you in person...sorry. I have alot to say and this profile just scratches the surface of who I am, so...if you can't even read 2 or 3 pages, you certainly can't read me. Past all that and not to sound cliche.. "I'm just a fucked up girl looking for my own peace of mind. Don't assign me yours." You know...unless they match well enough and all..and you like boo cookies.