**ATTENTION: Please read my profile completely before you attempt to contact me. This might prevent you from sounding like a moron, such as bringing up things that aren't even in there and asking me to tell you about them. Really...no offense, but I am utterly astounded at some of the stupidity I have come across on online dating sites. I wonder if any one you actually knows what a book is. I know my profile is rather long, but damn, I know you people had parents that taught you to read! Listen! Pay some attention! Be aware!! Have some patience and you might be rewarded...plus, you might actually not look like a moron who doesn't know what he's talking about!!!! Read the whole thing, trust me, I just might surprise you. Also, PLEASE for the love of GOD send me a message that consists of more than "hey" "what's up" "hey sexy" ect...it's just RETARDED and I WON'T waste my time unless you actually give me room to somewhat get to know what you are about. I can't do that from a 3 word sentence. Take out the dusty dictionary on your shelf, if you have one, please, and SAY SOMETHING, before I die of boredom. Thanks. **
Looking for people who haven't gone to sleep in the snow. Past that I'll let you know. If you catch my interest and I feel immediately drawn to you I will let you know, but my primary interest right now is making new friends and hanging out with people of similar interests...my favorite things of which are dancing my ass off at goth nights, which is theraputic as hell, yoga, which is also theraputic as hell, shows and drinks from time to time with really great conversation, and I mean conversation and not small talk, which I just feel uncomfortable participating in and will soon have to walk away from, reading and good movies, having stronger coffee than everyone else makes it, and generally meandering and wandering about. My favorite alcoholic drinks are beer and whipped cream, wine and rum and diet root beer...but I'm not typically what you'd call a drinker, just from time to time or when I want to let off steam. I hate most people in general but I usually have a strong connection with children and animals, go figure. Probably because they are both smarter than people give them credit for and they don't have a fear of expressing themselves. I appreciate companionship but am still by nature a loner. I'm quite insatiable and always feel as if I am searching for more. Take this as you will, I sometimes think it's a gift, sometimes a curse. I have to feel I have a purpose to be ok with myself and appreciate people who have the same. I respect people who have a strong initiative and call me on things. It's the people that tell you what you don't want to hear that you love the most, I firmly believe this. The world belongs to people with balls, like Buk said. If you have no spine you need not apply, however you have to have some empathy and pathos as well to get my attention. Have passion and express your desires openly but don't come on too strong. I have a life and my own interests. Don't be clingy and don't be an asshole just walk somewhere in between and we'll get along fine. A level of respect still has to be maintained, I'm hard to get to know so don't assume anything about me, and neither will I about you.
My intent from this site is to attempt to get to know people as I tend to be a loner sometimes, but not looking to rush into anything, I'm frankly a little gun shy after my last few relationships. If you really like me you'll attempt to get to know me as a person and that takes time. By the same token I am looking for a relationship, I'm sick of Mr Right Now, and I'm sick of you assholes who TRY to be Mr Right Now. Yes life is about the routes we take and not the destination and all that other artistic bullshit but I've traveled enough routes of the wrong ones and I'd like to actually find the right one...I have no need to put notches in my bedpost for the hell of it...unless it's been awhile since I've been notched...also, if you're still harboring feelings for someone else who's an ex or too far away for you to do anything about...let me save you some time...I'm not the girl for you. I want to be with someone who genuinely wants to be with me and who I in turn, genuinely want to be with. The way I will know this? If no matter where we go I can't see anyone else in the room..and since I can't explain fully what I'm looking for, that pretty much sums it up for the moment. Ok intent rambled...thank you for your time and don't throw popcorn on the floor...
As a side note: if you expect to get a reply from me, "hey sexy how you doing tonight?" will probably be passed by..you can think up more than one line, if not, don't waste time with me in attempting a conversation. No, I'm not into casual sex. I'm tired of ppl asking. Yes I'm an extremely sexual person, but if I can't trust you I sure as hell am not gonna fuck you. If we sleep together you're the ONLY person I'm sleeping with and I expect the same. If you need to go elsewhere tell me I'm not doing my job right and I'll fix it. Simple. Maybe you'd like to risk yourself to a barrage of stds, possible life threatening illness and infertility, have fun with that. I want babies and I want to be around in 20 years. I'll stick to my vibrator if I can't trust you, thanks. Yes I am honest and I expect the same. I'm also the kindest most loyal woman you will meet. I have been loyal even when people didn't deserve it bc once you earn my love I will do anything for you. This doesn't mean I'm a doormat or I won't leave your sorry ass in a heartbeat if you don't deserve me, because I know what I'm worth. I'm by no means perfect but even my imperfections will entertain you highly. Through everything I've been through in my life I've never lost the ability to feel and come back, I'm a phoenix like that. I've been through things that should have killed me and I'm still here. I'm alive for a reason and I plan on doing something great with it even if greatness happens at the last minute. Unlike 80% of the women on this site, I haven't been with 50 or more partners, I'll tell you the truth straight to your face, and I won't fuck around behind your back.
I'm done now, I hate talking about myself.
"The symptoms of hibernating are easily detectable: first, restlessness. The second symptom (when hibernating becomes dangerous and might degenerate into death): absence of pleasure. That is all. It appears like an innocuous illness. Monotony, boredom, death. Millions live like this (or die like this) without knowing it. They work in offices. They drive a car. They picnic with their families. They raise children. And then some shock treatment takes place, a person, a book, a song, and it awakens them from and saves them from death. Some never awaken. They are like the people who go to sleep in the snow and never awaken."
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." - Marianne Williamson
I am Intense, Insatiable, and Otherworldly