Then wrestle disaster to the ground and make her your bitch.
I'm crazy, in that I like to get to know people before letting them into my bed. I've had more than enough easy one-night-stands and meaningless sex. I don't mind sex without commitment, I just want there to be connection. I'm involved with people already, you might be also. That is ok.
I also enjoy the tension you get when you have sexual chemistry but choose not to act on it.
I'm down with NSPP
Skip this section, it's too serious:
I'm often off-putting to folks who first meet me, but you will never find someone more loyal than I if I call you friend. I love conversation that has meaning or purpose.
I'm hardened, tough, soft, sensitive, non-crying (although, strangely I will cry at some movies), empathic, intelligent and wise, lazy sometimes, unsmotherable, stoic and hard to affect, cheerful 92% of the time, observing instead of interacting at parties, interacting over observing in deep conversation or debate, overreaching attempts at balance, but finding balance just the same.
I should warn you that while I care about grammar and spelling I'm prone to verbizing words and sometimes the occasional malapropism.
I have a pretty different outlook on life than most. I feel like an observer in a way. I feel metacognitive, so to speak, and that makes it hard for me to get wrapped up in life. Which is both positive and negative, but I definitely seek people who can get me wrapped up, even for a short period of time. Because of this stuff that is usually crazy, extreme, horrible, amazing, wonderful, fantastic, etc. all have less of an effect on me than one might expect. This means I can handle a lot of shit, negativity, and so forth. But also means I seek ways to feel deeply and because of that I seek out people who can help me feel deeply.
Which is probably why I am at a point where I get to know people so that I can get them to drop their guard enough to tell me about the real them. The facade everyone puts on (including my own facade) is really boring to me. But almost every time I get to know someone inside and out I find myself rapt with fascination at who they really are. I find people's true selves interesting most of the time.
As for the poly thing I actually find most people in polyamorous relationships kind of dysfunctional. Polyamory itself is not bad, but of the myriad reasons folks do it only a handful are good ones. I am polyamorous by default, I don't arbitrarily limit natural/organic connections with people. But I do make agreements with people and always follow them.
I'm vigilant for and embrace change.
I used to love debate, but these days I see that, in fact, it's just some folks arguing as if their lives would be threatened if they admitted they were wrong in some small way or gave way to another idea. I'm talking about myself there too, used to be every time I trounced someone in a debate it would be a personal victory, now I like to go easy on people so that they have a chance to make a good point. I do love a debate where those disagreeing are open to changing their minds. Well would you look at that? I've run on and on about debate as if it were really important to me or something.
I am ambivalent about shibboleths
What you can expect from me here is honesty, integrity, and an unpredictable schedule of logging on. My work and play life are pure chaos.