So the newest twist in the plot is that we've gone polyamorous. As I see it, it's a very specific form of an open relationship. It's totally new to us, and yet somehow it makes so much sense to me. Like a piece of the puzzle that just clicked into place naturally.
So I'm not looking for new dates at the moment, I like focusing when I feel like it, but that might change in the future.
If you have any questions about any of this, I'll try to answer. :)
As always, purposeless "hi"s will be ignored.
I'm still looking for interesting people to talk to and possibly make friends with, and photography subjects (I specialize in portraits of people who are considered "not photogenic").
Lately I'm trying to focus things. What I'm doing, where I'm going, the right people to surround myself with, the right words for, um, things. Well, that's a work in progress... Today that also meant cutting away at this very profile, which is why the following "entries" are rather dated.
I found this in my LJ. Back in the days, I wanted to be that. Now, I know that I am.
Naked, she is feminine and soft. Her smile is mysterious, but she is a bit shy at first. Only after a while she will get all wild and wanting, her laughter breathless...
In light summer-wear she is fun and carefree. Her smile mischievous and child-like, at times ironic and sharp. Her laughter ranges from quiet chuckles to loud outbursts of joy.
In wools and flannels, she is calm and supportive. Her smile sympathetic, her touch comforting. She keeps every secret she's told, but her own experiences are an open book. She's happy to teach and share, listen and aid.
I do not apologize for attempting to explain myself.
This is not a summary, it's a beginning.
Even on days of depression I can enjoy the beauty of the world, find moments of joy in laughter. I take pleasure in my attention to details.
I'm sharp. I understand things quickly and if paying attention, hardly needs to be told things twice. I will probably memorize your name before you memorize mine.
I dance sexy; I dance crazy. It's never boring when I dance.
I should rollerblade more. I should do more art (got a Wacom; got a Konica Minolta Z3; Got 0.5 and 0.1 pens; got watercolors and various pencils; got tons of junk for realife 3D works; got great imagination; got tons of ideas). I should get back to writing (short stories and [less] poems). I should play more computer games (got Geforce 8600 GTS; Intel Duo Core 6600; 1GB RAM). I should learn more thru Wikipedia, Google (everything!) and online dictionaries (language!). I should get back to following at least 5 webcomics. Gah, I should read more, as in, get back to it.
My clothing style is a mixture of boring-and-regular, goth, hippie and punk. No jeans.
Somehow I seem taller than I truly am. I'm working my way from size 40 to 38 pants-wise. Shirts are Small. Bra size is 75B-80B. I've about a meter long dark hair and green-grey-blue eyes with a dark outline.
I'm secure enough about my sexuality. I enjoy touch very much. I'm not looking for casual encounters mostly because I get bored way too quickly when there's nothing emotional to keep me around.
Being mostly agnostic, I don't believe in a Higher Purpose, Ineffable Plan, Destiny or Fate. It can be depressing at times, and very freeing otherwise. You get used to idea and then Life is all about having fun while you're around to experience it. :)
If I remember my dreams they're interesting. Sometimes being weird fantasy-stories, sometimes about a struggle of evil vs. less-evil, sometimes just a great plot (or is it just my imagination?).
I used to say I like Winter, but I should've been more specific: I like the Mediterranean winter. Where the temperatures hardly drop below 0 degrees Celsius, the rains are not too harsh and not too frequent, and you get some perfect cloudy-blue-skied days when the wind is cold and the sun almost-warm, the cats' fur sparkles clean and healthy, black, orange or grey against the green in which flowers begin opening and the insects are all around and lively (but before the annoying flyers or mosquitoes hatched).
Those I considered or had as mates had dark eyes, but ideally my men have pale eyes. Also ideally: long hair and good shoulder-structure (not very muscular, if at all. Freckled ones score higher ;) ).
I will never attempt entering a relationship without trust. I've learned that those who cannot trust are untrustworthy. I do realize that it is a thing earned with time, and yet. When I'm willing to answer any direct question with a direct answer so should my potential mate.
I will never attempt entering a one sided relationship. Initiatives should come from both sides concerning talks, compromises, cuddles, sex, chores, asking for forgiveness, activities, hugs and whatever else I'm forgetting ;)
I am Open Minded, Audacious, and Mostly Amused.