[18-Apr-2009]
I found this in my LJ. Back in the days, I wanted to be that. Now, I know that I am.
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Naked, she is feminine and soft. Her smile is mysterious, but she is a bit shy at first. Only after a while she will get all wild and wanting, her laughter breathless...

In light summer-wear she is fun and carefree. Her smile mischievous and child-like, at times ironic and sharp. Her laughter ranges from quiet chuckles to loud outbursts of joy.

In wools and flannels, she is calm and supportive. Her smile sympathetic, her touch comforting. She keeps every secret she's told, but her own experiences are an open book. She's happy to teach and share, listen and aid.

[31-May-2008]

I do not apologize for attempting to explain myself.
This is not a summary, it's a beginning.

Even on days of depression I can enjoy the beauty of the world, find moments of joy in laughter. I take pleasure in my attention to details.
I'm sharp. I understand things quickly and if paying attention, hardly needs to be told things twice. I will probably memorize your name before you memorize mine.

I dance sexy; I dance crazy. It's never boring when I dance.

I should rollerblade more. I should do more art (got a Wacom; got a Konica Minolta Z3; Got 0.5 and 0.1 pens; got watercolors and various pencils; got tons of junk for realife 3D works; got great imagination; got tons of ideas). I should get back to writing (short stories and [less] poems). I should play more computer games (got Geforce 8600 GTS; Intel Duo Core 6600; 1GB RAM). I should learn more thru Wikipedia, Google (everything!) and online dictionaries (language!). I should get back to following at least 5 webcomics. Gah, I should read more, as in, get back to it.

My clothing style is a mixture of boring-and-regular, goth, hippie and punk. No jeans.

Somehow I seem taller than I truly am. I'm working my way from size 40 to 38 pants-wise. Shirts are Small. Bra size is 75B-80B. I've about a meter long dark hair and green-grey-blue eyes with a dark outline.

I'm secure enough about my sexuality. I enjoy touch very much. I'm not looking for casual encounters mostly because I get bored way too quickly when there's nothing emotional to keep me around.

Being mostly agnostic, I don't believe in a Higher Purpose, Ineffable Plan, Destiny or Fate. It can be depressing at times, and very freeing otherwise. You get used to idea and then Life is all about having fun while you're around to experience it. :)

If I remember my dreams they're interesting. Sometimes being weird fantasy-stories, sometimes about a struggle of evil vs. less-evil, sometimes just a great plot (or is it just my imagination?).

I used to say I like Winter, but I should've been more specific: I like the Mediterranean winter. Where the temperatures hardly drop below 0 degrees Celsius, the rains are not too harsh and not too frequent, and you get some perfect cloudy-blue-skied days when the wind is cold and the sun almost-warm, the cats' fur sparkles clean and healthy, black, orange or grey against the green in which flowers begin opening and the insects are all around and lively (but before the annoying flyers or mosquitoes hatched).

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Those I considered or had as mates had dark eyes, but ideally my men have pale eyes. Also ideally: long hair and good shoulder-structure (not very muscular, if at all. Freckled ones score higher ;) ).

I will never attempt entering a relationship without trust. I've learned that those who cannot trust are untrustworthy. I do realize that it is a thing earned with time, and yet. When I'm willing to answer any direct question with a direct answer so should my potential mate.

I will never attempt entering a one sided relationship. Initiatives should come from both sides concerning talks, compromises, cuddles, sex, chores, asking for forgiveness, activities, hugs and whatever else I'm forgetting ;)

Editors

• PeaceAnarchVeg

Update here, for a change... [06dec06]

I moved to Tel Aviv something like 3 months ago. I'm working as a waitress ([29jan08]Weizmann st 32,dear stalkers :P ), trying to pay rent and still to have money left for food, clothes, art-related stuff, and a computer that would run some decent games in a decent res in a decent framerate.

I'm starting to get my artsing into a higher level, thinking... projects, diveresed materails, colors. I might even make some money out of it.

O RLY?

Um..

[Aug2108]
Back in Karmiel, at my mom's place. I need to arrange my stuff in my new room, leave my old room clean and nice as a guest-room, arrange the garage as a studio, prepare a portfolio (attempting to get into Betzalel, graphic design studies), complete my bagruyot (by myself with help from ex-teachers, friends and family), find a local waitering job, start taking driving lessons, get back into shape, find local friends, learn how to ride a bike, possibly take some singing lessons and keep sane while at it.
Phew...

Reading, and listening to ppl. Okay, I'd like to think I'm good at writing, too, (fiction), and I really really wanna be good at drawing, which I'm rather good at right now, but I can be a lot better, I know!

Also: I'm good at playing around with food-stuff, and coming out with more than just 'edible' things.

Also, I can recognize it when I'm singing off tune (but all I can do is stop singing. Cause I've really no control over my voice. I WANT control over my voice, gods dammit :( ).

(added 24dec2007-) Not sure I'm really good at it, so you tell me: Shift-Click Here!

[08Aug08] Hugs. I put everything into my good hugs, and ppl feel it. Ask anyone who got a real hug from me ;)

[07Sep08] Taking people for what they are. I don't try to change anyone, I don't make faces. I tolerate, and if i can't, I'm not gonna suffer for it: not everyone can get along.
And, I admire those who can be themselves in un-supportive environments, and try to do that myself.

The eyes- which are an undefines shade of grey and green and blue, with dark outline. And when loose, my hair. Which is quite long, one may say: over a meter long. That means it can reach my knees when I'm showering.

Also, when among complete strangers, my silent self-confidence.

[20Sep08]
Actually, when among complete strangers I tend to be the life of the party. I can joke with everyone, give orders playfully, share food stuff and drinks and be theatrical and amusing in general. It's really fun! You should try that too!

{Note that if it's not alphabetically arranged, it's just random...}
Sometimes-updated lists can be found here

Books-- Scifantasy, mostly Dark fantasy, but any good-written adventure is fun. Favored ones: Watership Down (Richard Adams); Neverwhere, Stardust, Smoke & Mirrors (Neil Gaiman); Last Call, The Anubis Gates (Tim Powers); To Say Nothing of the Dog (Connie Willis); Fallen Angels (Larry Niven, Jerry Pournelle, Michael Flynn); Songmaster (Orson Scott Card); to be continued...

Games-- Computer: Broken sword 1-2; Monkey Island 1-4; Quest for Glory 1-2 and 4; The Dig; Warcraft 2-3; The Longest Journey; Gabriel Knight - Sins of the Fathers; Startopia; Typing of the Dead ;) Other: Frisbee; Betrayal at House on the Hill; Scrabble; Chez Geek; Munchkin; tbc.

Movies-- Scifantasy here too, and again, any well plotted, nicely played, good adventure is fun. Favored ones: eXistenZ; Matrix; The Fifth Element; Snatch; Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels; Interview With the Vampire; Minority Report; Almost Famous; American Beauty; The Butterfly Effect; Fight Club; American History X; (to be continued) Favored animations/CG: Monsters Inc.; Final Fantasy; Treasure Planet; The Iron Giant; Lilo&Stitch; Shrek (1-2); Mulan; The Incredibles; (tbc..)

Music-- Almost everything, excluding Oriental and Hip-hop/Rap. Rock/Hard rock and most of the Metal sub-genres are favored. Bands that I like at least an album's amount of their songs: Alanis Morissette; Amorphis; A Perfect Circle; Avtipus; Coldplay; Dido; Ivri Lider; Linkin Park; Mashina; Megadeth; Metallica; Monica Sex; Natalie Imbruglia; Nickelback; Nightwish; Nirvana; Paatos; Red Hot Chillie Peppers; The Corrs; The Cranberries; Vinnie Moore; Yizhar Ashdot; (to be continued)

Foods-- I'll probably try anything. Yellow cheese and avocado are crucial. And, lots of onion and garlic.

Books, Cats, Humor, Thinking, Inventing, and Trying out new things.

Okay, who am I trying to fool? I can't live without music either. Count thinking and inventing as one 'thing', so it's still six things. OK? Thanks you. Come again.

Also, being physically active. Being a waitress got me into a kind of shape- don't wanna lose it.

The stuff I do and should do (see self summary). Stuff I read/see/watch/hear/listen to. The meaning of behavior and body language of various beings (mostly human. Also feline and canine. Others too.). Sex (and the ways to make it and keep it interesting).

What to do next. What's the rush, anyway? What's the point, also?

Nothing typical. Sometimes I'm so tired I just go to sleep, other times I might join some friend who wants to go out. Sometimes I wake up early enough (around midnight)to go dancing the night out at one of the Alternative Line parties. :)

If you're nice and can make me laugh I'll probably hug you. I love hugs.

I used to be proud about having exactly l33t questions answered, but since I had to answer more in order to send ppl messages and got lazy about re-answering other questions with "skip", I now answer as many as I find interesting. I want to see how the Personality Awards I'm getting agree with reality.

[April 2009]
I have my own private broom and dustpan held in my room, and I make sure the dustpan remains spotless and dust-free after use. :)

You want me to message you back.

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If you want me to massage your back.

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If you forgot your toothbrush at my place. (yeah right..) {27Jul08: thing is with guys- they might stay over, but they won't bother to bring a toothbrush.}

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If you need a hug.

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If you simply feel like it.

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