והיום נפתח בוידוי קורע לב (הו, כן, בעברית?!).
בדיוק סיפרתי לבןזוגי, עליו השלום (לא, הוא לא מת, למה מאחלים שלום רק למתים?), שאני מרגישה באתר הזה כמו בחנות בגדים: גם כשאני כבר מוצאת כמה בגדים נאים שמרגישים נחמד (אנשים מעניינים לדבר איתם), אחרי שאעבור בתא המדידה (שיחה של ממש \ מפגש בעולם האמיתי) הסיכוי מאוד גבוה שאצא מהחנות בלי כלום. יאפ, מתסכל. אבל אתם יודעים, צריך לשמור על אופטימיות. אולי במבצעי סוף העונה הבאה.
אגב, בןזוגי חשב שזאת מטאפורה משעשעת. במיוחד בהתחשב בזה שהוא הרבה פעמים עוזר לי למצוא דברים לבישים. יהיה משעשע כפליים אם הוא יעזור לי למצוא דייט מוצלח. לא, זה עוד לא קרה :)
Do you aspire to be, or define yourself as, "normal" or "just a regular guy"? If so, please don't message me, thanks. Otherwise, read on. :)
Be warned: There's a lot to read.
Relax: You don't have to read everything.
Take heed: The less you read about me, the less likely it is you'll find how to connect to me.
So, hi. :)
I practice Polyamory, which means I'm Polyamorous.
Check Wikipedia or This Site for more general information. You might also want to watch This Video (or this one in Hebrew).
As for what I make of it, you can read about it here, here and here (and the Hebrew version of the last one).
You can learn a lot more about me through my blog (about world-travel (soon), life and polyamory). It's updated every Saturday: http://quarkcat.wordpress.com/
You could also like \ follow my writer page on FB: https://www.facebook.com/quarkcatblog
What am I here for? Well, I want to find awesome people who can be a part of my life. What part? That totally depends on our interaction. It can be amazing conversations, it can be random humor, it might be doing sports together, it can be a sharing of music, movies, food or points of view and it can be (or become) good sex.
I don't have a lot of "people space" in my life. I'm not that sort of person. Right now I'm looking for someone who would be:
A. My friend, who will appreciate me as much as I'll appreciate him.
B. Communicative, verbal and direct. And it's not about quantity - quality and connection matter much more.
C. Cuddly & attractive. Physicality matters... What I find attractive can be found near the end of the 2008 "entry".
D. Present. I don't wanna chase anyone, nor be chased. We both need to want to be there for each other.
I will, by default, ignore random "hi's" and empty generic messages that sound like someone's copy\pasting a 100 of them a day. Try to talk to me, instead of hitting on yet another girl online. You might also want to read the very last section of the profile before saying anything.
The following is a pretty old version of my profile here, so some things may have become irrelevant, but it still gives a pretty good impression of the person I am\could become.
I do not apologize for attempting to explain myself.
This is not a summary, it's a beginning.
Even on days of depression I can enjoy the beauty of the world, find moments of joy in laughter. I take pleasure in my attention to details.
I'm sharp. I understand things quickly and if paying attention, hardly needs to be told things twice. I will probably memorize your name before you memorize mine.
I dance sexy; I dance crazy. It's never boring when I dance.
I should rollerblade more. I should do more art (got a Wacom; got a Konica Minolta Z3; Got 0.5 and 0.1 pens; got watercolors and various pencils; got tons of junk for realife 3D works; got great imagination; got tons of ideas). I should get back to writing (short stories and [less] poems). I should play more computer games (got Geforce 8600 GTS; Intel Duo Core 6600; 1GB RAM). I should learn more thru Wikipedia, Google (everything!) and online dictionaries (language!). I should get back to following at least 5 webcomics. Gah, I should read more, as in, get back to it.
My clothing style is a mixture of boring-and-regular, goth, hippie and punk. No jeans.
Somehow I seem taller than I truly am. I'm working my way from size 40 to 38 pants-wise. Shirts are Small. Bra size is 75B-80B. I've about a meter long dark hair and green-grey-blue eyes with a dark outline.
I'm secure enough about my sexuality. I enjoy touch very much. I'm not looking for casual encounters mostly because I get bored way too quickly when there's nothing emotional to keep me around.
Being mostly agnostic, I don't believe in a Higher Purpose, Ineffable Plan, Destiny or Fate. It can be depressing at times, and very freeing otherwise. You get used to idea and then Life is all about having fun while you're around to experience it. :)
If I remember my dreams they're interesting. Sometimes being weird fantasy-stories, sometimes about a struggle of evil vs. less-evil, sometimes just a great plot (or is it just my imagination?).
I used to say I like Winter, but I should've been more specific: I like the Mediterranean winter. Where the temperatures hardly drop below 0 degrees Celsius, the rains are not too harsh and not too frequent, and you get some perfect cloudy-blue-skied days when the wind is cold and the sun almost-warm, the cats' fur sparkles clean and healthy, black, orange or grey against the green in which flowers begin opening and the insects are all around and lively (but before the annoying flyers or mosquitoes hatched).
Those I considered or had as mates had dark eyes, but ideally my men have pale eyes. Also ideally: long hair and good shoulder-structure (not very muscular, if at all. Freckled ones score higher ;) ).
I will never attempt entering a relationship without trust. I've learned that those who cannot trust are untrustworthy. I do realize that it is a thing earned with time, and yet. When I'm willing to answer any direct question with a direct answer so should my potential mate.
I will never attempt entering a one sided relationship. Initiatives should come from both sides concerning talks, compromises, cuddles, sex, chores, asking for forgiveness, activities, hugs and whatever else I'm forgetting ;)
I am Open Minded, Audacious, and Mostly Amused.