I am a woman scorned, scarred, weak, and vulnerable. Over the years I’ve grown strong willed, determined, cautious, and maybe even a bit callous. My heart demands a bit of that. Whether I intend to or not, I never do anything halfway. I'm a victim of an abusive relationship, left to raise my kids alone - It hasn't been easy, to say the least, but I've done an excellent job of it. I keep trying to start over, move forward, etc but new and different obstacles keep presenting themselves every day. So after all this time, I'm still Mom, Dad, Extended Family, Breadwinner, Housewife, and Handy Man all rolled into one. It wears me out, but I'm probably the strongest person you'll ever have the good fortune of meeting. Only 9 more years till I have a kidless home! Here's hoping, anyway. :P
After all life's lessons, I have decided that I don't know what will make me happy until it happens. I do have a vague outline of the man I'm looking for: Not prone to anger. Sympathetic and giving. Highly intelligent with a proficiency in grammar. (I was an English major back in the day - just call me Grammar Nazi.) Hardworking to a fault, yet fiercely family oriented. Extremely sensitive while taking life's battles with a grain of salt. Dark hair, blue eyes has always been my favorite. ;) I'm flexible, but I'm not about to uproot life for someone I'm not attracted to in every way.
As to what I am not looking for: someone to split bills with or a houseman. Please, if you are married or separated, do not message me. Cowboys, chest bumping testosterone filled boys - not really gonna have a great chance. Lifetime students or "in the restaurant business" - I'm past that stage and I require job security comparable to my own. I tend to prefer older men, but I'm not ready for 50's bracket, sorry.
As for me, well . . .I've been the good Christian and the black sheep. I've been a musician and an excellent dart player, dabbled in Feng Shui, listened to angry girl and gothic music, played Mozart and written poetry, watched Numbers for as long as they will show it, never had cable TV or an Ipad or an Ipod. (I don't usually do updates, but here's one for you. I'm having cable tv installed this weekend for the first time in about 10 years. The contract makes me cringe, but the kiddos really want it, so we'll see.) I'm outspoken, yet quiet, empathetic, gentle, and am always giving too much of myself. I want someone to finally meet me halfway.
I am passionate about everything, good or bad. More than most, I feel the way everything in life goes hand in hand, and the motion of the journey leaves me in awe.
I am waiting for that moment when a 10 word message leads to a conversation that never ends . . .when every word is a morsel to be devoured, and every thought makes my heart pump. When I am enveloped as a completely human being - nothing less, and nothing more. And I am loved for it.