All is stripped away.
We make our own music.
Flipping through the sheets, finding the right beat.
A night of hitting the notes just right.
Brings about many an encore.
Nothing is ambient about it.
And we simply come.
I am a little shy.
Not overtly, I know how to express myself and mix well in good company. I just wait for the moment to be one of reciprocity before I feel its worth the exhibition. A conversation should be of mutual interest if its healthy.
Yet, I am a real guy, and I would love to find someone in which I can be "their" real guy.
Context: the humor of intelligence
Over the course of my life, the many things I've read and observed boil down to this basic knowledge:
1. People are rash, thinking superficially
2. People have a hard time expressing themselves [i.e. communicating], sometimes it is because of #1 above,
3. People lack honesty and/or sincerity, sometimes because of #1 and #2.
4. People deny Darwin [i.e. evolution], to frame life as a scenario where " I don't think people change. It's one of those things I've had to find out the hard way." is a paradox, coincidentally often attributed to a flawed mentality that exhibits traits #1, #2, and #3.
Stagnation lacks growth, to add a cliché to the mix "Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results", it is one of those rare ideological paradigms that's totally valid.
If the model we have on anything (especially sociological interactions [i.e. relationships]) has resulted in us being less than successful, is it a working model that we should continue to use? I am single, so I've tried to evaluate my contribution to this, and thus comprehend that my model is a work in progress.
I try not to live in such a downward cycle and hope to find someone that similarly desires to escape that mold. I don't want someone that makes me who I am, but instead someone that helps me be a better me.
I am not perfect, none of us are perfect, and if none of us have reached this Heaven/Nirvana/Utopia [i.e. this positive energy], isn't wisdom thus gain by figuring out why?
I feel too many of us construct profiles purely to impress, but in reality fiction creates friction.
I understand some of you might be thinking WTF, so please let me elaborate.
I am not looking for a one night stand. Likewise I would prefer to avoid a perpetual cycle of first dates. I would rather toss it out there; my hope is to show you who I am.
As I continue this "self-summary", please humor me by letting me ask you one underlining question...
What do you want from life?
No seriously, what do you want?
If you are genuine and sincere, please continue to read my profile.
I honestly may or may not be the guy you are looking for, but neither of us will know until you know how I would fit into what you want.
So, who am I?
Trying to be a decent man, with the hopes of at least being a better father.
I am a direction... forward...
Good company is the only other thing I seek.
It is a strange world where it does seem that "Most of the people one meets, [especially dating,] are nice at first and turning into a monster as time goes by".
I think the problem is simpler than the resolve to address it. Being moral means being sane enough to make clear choices and to be accountable for them. We all have the power to kill and hurt each other. Being moral doesn't mean never hurting someone.
What bullshit is that?
It means following through and being accountable for your promises. And it means knowing yourself enough to know what you want and what you're willing to do for it, so that you make promises you can keep, not just promise stuff to make other people happy that you won't be able to actually fulfill.
People are assholes cause they are unable to communicate. When they do they lack the accountability it entails. It's short-sighted, even insane, but it's not evil. Just dumb.
Still interested? Please continue reading.
I am someone that knows how to communicate my feelings, which is surprisingly easy to do when you are with someone that is willing to do the same.
I've realized that being honest with someone is much easier than trusting someone, and that if I feel this way my mate possibly feels the same. Men and Women really aren't "that" different.
Strength comes from perseverance. Yet being stubborn and tenacious are two different traits. Stubborn is generally acted upon selfishly. Whereas tenacious is often more selfless.
I am an endearing guy.
A basic ideological understanding of my life since adolescence: "you are living a life that was a dangerous dream when I was growing up". I've had trials and tribulations, to some degree most of us have. My goal, in relation to mine, is to make it through life without bitterness or resentment; this ideology makes me quixotic: >http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/quixotic.
I think the best way to experience life: "Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better." [Samuel Beckett].
If we can be friends, I am willing to entertain additional possibilities.
According to the Personality tab above, I am More Passion-Driven, More Giving, More Creative.
Although the More Kinky one... perhaps it is just stereotyping my creativity :P
It's a good indicator of attributes I offer in a relationship.
I achieved a few college degrees in pursuit of wisdom, I feel some people showcase their degree[s] and it comes off as arrogance. If you want to have a discussion about them some time, that's great, until then all one needs to know is I am capable of having diverse conversations.
I am fully transparent, I'm too mature to play games.
Secrets only protect those who are afraid of being caught.