I have a strange combination of buoyant personality and dark humor. I tend to be mostly faithless, yet strong and good and loyal. I like to be fascinated. I like differences. I like new subjects. I have a huge capacity to give and love.

I'm definitely adequate. Of course that might not seem like a highly saleable quality until measured against the sea of fronting bozos covering up deep seated inadequacies. I'm very secure in my adequacy.

Regrouping at the moment.

I've already built a career that I like where I'm very effective, challenged, respected, and well liked. It also keeps the cabbage coming.

I'm recently unengaged which has been challenging. Over the short term, I want to focus on healing from that experience, and building aspects of myself that are most easily addressed when single.

I'm a true believer in existential responsibility. So I guess I do believe in something. I believe we build who we are tomorrow by choosing how we live today.

I'm very happy with my progress in life. I love myself unashamedly and in large quantities. You would too if you were me. ;)

Oh tons of stuff actually. Techy things that might bore you to tears. But also managing a crisis. Taking charge and leading a group of people to a solution when called for. Encouraging folks who need it, and humbling those that need it. Being a friend. Having fun and being funny. Giving.

I'm fairly lousy at guitar, but that's one of those "stay fascinated" things I've only recently picked up. I'm occasionally good at improvised songs to my cats about things as mundane as cleaning their litter box.

My wit, charm, and stunning good looks.

I love Peter Greenaway films, zombie movies, non-fiction lately. I avoid chicken and beef but I'm not strict about my diet. Spicy curry and sushi are always welcome on my plate.

Disclaimer. I'm not really a fan of lists of pop culture choices as a way to identify yourself. I feel the same way about sport team allegiance. You'd think the folks in the stands had a kid on the team. Yeah, lots of way's to identify. That said, here is me being a hypocrite. This is good media though. You may want to check it out. (I'm secretly going to click on the hyperlinks and find people to identify with)

Loved And the Ass Saw the Angel --Nick Cave (he's a better author than a musician.) It has a Burgess like cadence to it. Also loved A Splendid Exchange: How Trade Shaped the World --William Bernstein. The Jungle --Sinclair. Don Juan --Lord Byron. Currently reading Dark Genius of Wall Street: The Misunderstood Life of Jay Gould, King of the Robber Barons --Edward J. Renehan Jr. (among other things)

My favourite musician is Michael Gira. I love the dark folky stuff he's been doing with the Angels of Light, but more than that, I love the trip he's taken musically. So many different sounds, but always dark. I love drama in art. I agree with the ancient Greeks that tragedy is the highest form of story telling. Also a fan of Cat Power, Au Revoir Simone, Taken by Trees, Joy Division, David Candy and many other things. But that's what I've been listening to most recently.

Have I mentioned The Belly of an Architect. Definitely relate to that pompous fat bastard lately.

My favourite short story is The Childhood of a Leader --Sartre. It's about a guy who grows up feeling awkward with his undescended testicle, and makes money by letting the other kids touch his half empty scrotum on the playground for a nickel. He has a couple of gay encounters in college with a jewish student, which only hastens an existential breakdown. To escape the identity crisis and let himself off the hook for his gayness, he becomes an evil fascist anti-semite and kills a jewish communist for no good reason. (I may have gotten some details wrong, could probably use a re-read.)

Ok, that's enough for now. Time to escape my own existential crisis by clicking on this crap and finding people to identify with.

EDIT: ROFLMAO Clicked on Angels of Light and the only person with the words in the right order referring to this band is a woman I had a 7 year LTR with. Damn OKC keeps suggesting we still have shit in common. (We do actually and are friends now. She has offered to pen a letter of recommendation for your consideration.)

breathing, eating, drinking, sleeping, a functional cardiovascular system, warmth.

Cerial... Devastating unimaginable tragedies happen every day, and there are people who arrive on the other side of them against all odds. I'm fairly certain that I'm a survivor. Though I don't plan on stripping my life down that far any time soon.

I'm actually rather terrified of being maimed (had a close call). But I've contemplated it enough to be pretty sure I could do without things I don't even want to imagine living without.

New topics. History, various scientific or mechanical things, current events, markets, subcultures. What motivates people, what makes them tick. Group dynamics. How that damned guitar is suppose to work. Myself of course.

I'm usually thinking, OMG! It's Friday?!?! Where did the week go?

Then thinking about if I want to do anything. Then realising maybe I should have made plans. Occasionally, I'm embarrassed to say, I then check OKC and considering finding a spontaneous distraction. So please locals, if you find yourself being a pathetic Internet dweller on a Friday because you plan as well as I do, message me and we'll do anything other than be on the Internets together. _Anything_ Hell, men are welcome too. Really, meeting anyone and doing anything is better than capping off a week of IT work with some habitual unrewarding Internet time.

For the near term, I don't want an LTR. Friends, sure. Maybe even growing to as much as mutually attracted friends that spend a lot of time together. Maybe even Limited Term Special Friends? I'm taking some time for myself before I let anything move beyond that.

Eventually, I probably will drift into some LTR. I am loyal, honest, emotionally available, don't take issue with commitment and find them rewarding. Just not right now. For now, I'm my own steady.

I would like to enjoy lots of meals and entertainment with different interesting people and make friends along the way.

You just want to spend some time with someone, develop a friendship and have some fun.