I won't bore you with phony catch phrases or wordiness, and I'll get right down to it so I won't be wasting your time.
I'm boldly unique.
The Most Interesting Man On OkCupid, or at least a runner up.
This profile will offer you a little bit of an insight into my mind unlike, say, oh, Every Other Guy's Profile you'll ever read. It is necessary in order to avoid prejudgment. Yes, I am That complex an individual. Misunderstood and misinterpreted. Especially in today's age of conformity, outgoing pretentiousness, and show-all/show-off principles. I don't fit in. I never will fit in. I refuse to fit in. I am my own man through and through.
The question is: can you handle frank opinions?
Or must everything be wrapped in a rainbow and be
"totally fucking awesome" to you?
Answer Yes to the first question and you many proceed.
Also if you don't like to read (or Can't read) then you'd best skip my profile, too. It stops illiterates dead in their tracks. That's intentional, too.
There's lots of food for thought here.
If you're closed-minded and walk around bright-sided with an Everything is Wonderful attitude, chances are you won't like me. I'm a guy who faces harsh reality and accepts it because it's Real; it's Truth. And I don't close my eyes to poverty, inequality, injustice, misery, or other undesirable factors; much less say it's in the hands of God. Lately, believe it or not, I'm Told--by OKCupid's most popular ladies--that these things exist only in my mind--and to think otherwise is...Wrong!
So many people can't face real people or reality. That goes double for women these days. I got an e-mail from jeterznurse with this simple line: "I can't take you or your profile seriously." That's funny, because I'm dead serious.
It was followed by accusation after accusation, beginning with my profile picture (more of that later). She was also the typical OKCupid girl--that is, of the "nice" variety who wouldn't either ignore my initial e-mail or return it with a threatening and final one-liner befitting a child.
==>Here's the Important Stuff you might wanna read first:
I don't smoke, I don't drink, I don't take drugs (but I won't discriminate against you if you do!).
I don't even curse (much).
I'm hyper-rational, stable, and don't get into fights (physical or otherwise).
I'm a homebody.
I'm financially secure.
I've never been married and I don't have kids.
I've never been arrested nor spent time in jail.
I'm a lover not a fighter.
==>If any of this turns you off, just quit reading now!
Presenting the thinking woman's man. More or less.
With all the stops removed.
I'm a non-conformist and a minimalist so some may call me an oddball.
I, however, consider myself to be the most rational man on here.
And that's as far as I go for bragging.
If you want to hear me out you may read further. Most will not.
Then again most will not so much as answer a simple e-mail either. So allow me to elaborate on where I'm coming from and Why...
Here's me in a nutshell on four fingers:
Retro - Because everything good was in The Past!
Music, movies, prices, women. People even dressed and behaved much better back then (not like today's Freaks). Nothing is left today but cheap ripoffs and exploitation. The only reason Rap took off was that too many people felt sorry for talentless blacks; while the other half were afraid to speak up and call it Trash, out of fear of being called Racists! Now we're rather stuck with it in a permanent sort of way. The Past had All the great thinkers; All the great speakers. Hell, just compare some of Bush's or Reagan's speeches to those of Lincoln or FDR and you'll see my point. This isn't rocket science, speaking of which... The great inventors of New ideas and things died out last century. What we have today are guys who hack old ideas and make them their own (Virtual Realty, wow! That's another name for 3-D Simulator with interaction chucked in. 3-D's been around for a century, and all they do now is refine it a little bit and call it New. Computers get smaller, wow, that's also just refinement. Ditto for all portable conveniences.) In the realm of literature all we see today are recycled ideas and copycat storylines. I prefer real books to "e-books" because I can feel them and carry them around and store them--and don't need a Reader nor will they be lost when the power dies. Everything today are cheap hacks of the past, dollied up with CGI and bright shiny colors. There will still be no substitute for the originals like Arkanoid, Tetris, and even Galaga, regardless of how much glitter and greater resolution they throw into the 3-D craze today. And whatever happened to Pinball? The best stores and places to hangout were in the past. Today we have a distilled down, yuppie-ized remaking of everything with piss-poor selections and outrageously inflated prices. When I tell people today that back in the 70s and 80s department stores had multiple floors and full aisles dedicated to ___...they think I'm delusional.
It's also an obvious reflection on society when a country keeps building more banks and churches than anything else! It shows what the people really care about. Much of "anything else" now consists of Starbucks and those Asian-run sweatshops where yuppie women go to get their nails done or backs massaged! Jewelry stores are also popping up everywhere, while news/magazine/book stores--all Practical stores--are facing extinction. How women are brainwashed into going nuts over a piece of crystallized carbon that has a ridiculously high price tag attached to it...is beyond me. Plastic, follow-the-herd, conditioned people. This nation is sick. There is no Originality left; no effort to even Try to be different or go against the grain. Everyone wants cheap and fast sales of Established names, styles, and goods. On top of this, change is rarely for the best. I'm talking about everyday change you may encounter in your own neighborhood. I don't adapt well to change, mainly because change is usually (statistically) for the worst. Sometimes it's initiated just for the sake of change. In most cases it's just to line some selfish bastard's pockets. In fact, that's probably the case 99% of the time. Like cutting down row upon row of trees to put a sidewalk in which nobody uses nor ever needed or wanted. Some contractor got $$$$$ from that deal. Oh, but they do have their excuses: "To better serve you!" or variants on that line. Invariably it's got nothing to do with Your welfare but Their own which is why it's implemented in the first place. I question all new developments and I always see how it's to cut their costs along the line or rake in more profits. Usually it's done to screw the consumer, too, and s/he ends up paying More which is, of course, the whole point of the so-called upgrade! I am always asking "Why is this being done instead of that?" "Why is this being done At All?" I inevitably receive the same old unpleasant answers, whether they come tomorrow or years down the line. Then there's the media... What I find outrageous is how many kids today Refuse To Watch Black & White Movies! If you want real, quality acting and talent you look for it Back There not Here and Now. Yet Hollywood today keeps raping my childhood. The Originals are always the best. The new movies are rollercoaster ride 3-D kiddie thrills, lacking acting, directing, and anything of substance. You see them Once (usually at the Imax Theater) and that's it. Like a Disneyworld attraction. But the franchise has got your dough opening weekend, and that's all they want. They're not interested in contributing to a time-honored legacy of quality that will be cherished generations from now. They just want to make a fast, fucking buck. I don't go to the movies anymore. They're now remaking "The Terminator" believe it or not! As if remaking "Total Recall" wasn't enough, or "Solaris" or "The Day The Earth Stood Still" or...
It leads to the next category:
Neo-Luddite - Because Simple is superior to Technical!
Your vocabulary term of the day is: "Planned Obsolescence."
Look it up. New is Trash. Old Lasts. Quality manufacturing is Gone in this country. You don't get what you pay for anymore. Above all: Keep It Simple Stupid. I've a 50-year-old can opener that still works. It cost under a dollar then. Buy one today for $11 and the plastic piece-of-shit won't last a month, assuming it works at all! I shelled out nearly $1,000 for a top-of-the-line snowblower at Sears some years ago and after 5 years I've got a useless lump of plastic sitting in my cellar. It won't start. That was the turning point for me. I've got a 40-year-old lawnmower from Sears which still runs. I've learned to appreciate the utter simplicity of certain technological designs: there is just no comparison when it comes to the very straightforward and easily-serviceable engine of an old car compared to the jammed-to-the-max nightmare under the hood of a modern one. The old one, properly maintained, will easily outlast the new one. Not just the big things either. A pair of sneakers would last me between 5 to 10 years (depending on how much foot-power I'd put into them!). Today, a pair are lucky to last One Year
before they start to literally disintegrate. And they're not only much poorer made but Cost More today too! Oh, if I could only have foreseen this, I would've purchased a hundred pairs back in 1980 for $5 or so each and kept then in storage for when I'd need them... Come to think of it, I'd have done the same for White Castle burgers, a thousand or so, when they were twenty-something cents and stored them in liquid nitrogen or something. They were Bigger back then, too, and tastier. Here I go again overlapping the Retro category. Planned Obsolescence is the wonderful driving force of cutthroat Capitalism and growing corporations and is wholeheartedly responsible for countless landfills and dumping everywhere of Junk. Polluting the seas and all that floating plastic and other non-bio-degradable products. Waste, Waste Everywhere until the planet can't take it anymore!
Consequently I've grown a great fondness for antiques. I am also something of a packrat--not a hoarder, per say; Not like those unbalanced people on certain shows! Don't get me started with DVD players that last One Year Or Less. I've tried them. I still find myself going back to my huge collection of VCR tapes. Funny how DVD players are so simple (they just spin a disc and beyond that they are virtually solid-state with nothing touching the media!) while the old VCRs (with their intricate gears, feeds, and tape paths which grab, move, and eat-into the scrolling media!) Outlast the newest gems on the market! But new is prettier, but prettier won't do you any good if it doesn't last, if it constantly breaks down, needs batteries, or takes longer to operate than a simpler, old fashioned alternative. And the more and more entrenched people become with online-whatevers (e-mailing, services, monitoring, billing, streaming, etc.), the more Vulnerable they become to hackers and other cyber-crooks. They're constantly getting worked up, buying new junk to stay "upgraded" and guard against hackers and evil-doers. The companies have them happily jumping through hoops, Upgrading! They don't even Know what they're upgrading only that it's "Newer" so it must be better (even if the upgrade is a weekly software "fix" which amounts to a font change!). The latest worry is being spied upon by their own webcams and cams in their cars, maybe even their toilets (or haven't they've gotten there yet?). But they call all this "convenience" for some reason.
Guess what? You can avoid all this BS by simply Not Starting and Not Playing the game! My computers are older and I've never owned a digital camera, web or otherwise. Everything here is Wired not Wireless. Ah, but play My game and you'll be nailed as technically backwards like me, and you can't possibly live with being ostracized by everyone. That's what it Really comes down to it though: peer-pressure and being Different.
Well, I can, just as I can for being an Atheist. But who's going to have the final laugh, I wonder? I am stronger than the masses, at least in mind.
They don't realize this. Or don't care. Both probably. They don't know they're forfeiting their Privacy. They don't know that their electronic toy is allowing others to Track them. Maybe they'll learn the hard way when their credit card is hacked and end up in a hole. Then they'll start All Over Again, making the Same Stupid Mistakes again! The more time you spend online, the more trouble you're asking for. The more Info you give out. People today are not only slaves to technology, but they're addicted to it. "I can't live without my phone" "I can't live without GPS" "I can't live without satellite TV" (Whenever I hear this, to me, it sounds like a baby whining "I can't live without my bottle!" "I can't live without my doll!" "I can't live without my Gameboy!") Fine. DON'T LIVE! Because I don't call that living. That's being selfish, arrogant, and living to show off your worth through your purchased products to further your own instant-gratification addiction (which, if you properly matured, you should have grown out of shortly beyond your teenage years). To sum this syndrome up: Work-Buy-Consume-Die.
In rich countries today, consumption consists of people spending money they don't have to buy goods they don't need to impress people they don't like.
Well, that's You all over--NOT ME! Now take a good look around you. There is something seriously wrong with people these days who cannot work--or even just walk across a parking lot--without being constantly Electronically Placated. If you ask me, anyone who has to spasticly type on a piece of plastic instead of looking where they're walking while maneuvering around speeding cars--deserves to die a slow and painful death. Because those degenerate genes should be eliminated from the possibility of being passed on to future generations ASAP. This is serious shit and it's accepted as The Norm because Big Business is making shitloads off of these kinds of people. If they were just teens, I'd understand; they need to grow up. But these are people of All ages. I see middle aged guys with these Spike-things sticking out of an ear that they refuse to remove as though it's a cork holding their liquified brains secure in their skulls or something!! This is only the beginning and it's going to get worse. And, again, the tech won't last! But you'll just keep peeing away your earnings and then cry when you really Need money someday but don't have it because you're living from paycheck to paycheck in the materialistic game most people play in this country. Maybe if you'd quit talking your head off all day long or typing all day, your mind might start working, thus the next category. But before I go there, a simple health warning from me about what's generally called Electropollution and perhaps the most important (as in life or death) reason for being a Neo-Luddite in today's society. How do you explain the explosion in cancer cases all around us? It's the new medical franchise; that's what it is! Microwaves everywhere = Cancer everywhere. It's very simple and it comes from wireless up everyone's ass. Not just cell phones but WiFi and 'smart' meters hooked up to monitor your electric and gas expenditures, and those wonderful Optimum 'hot spots' and any and all transmission masts in general. They are multiplying because people are spoiled and big business ("profit over people") Wants you to be spoiled. Radio frequency fields chop up DNA, given enough time (or as they say: time, duration, and distance). RF tags placed on wildlife often results with cancer cells Growing Around the tags on the animals; and that was years ago, long before microwave masts and WiFi routers were mounted everywhere. Just one of those inconvenient truths you'd best not know about. Just one of many observations. But you'll keep reading the same old bullshit stories about "we don't really have proof yet"--and They will keep pointing fingers at sugary drinks, lack of exercise, smokers, Non-vegans... Maybe they will be blaming Global Warming for it next? They've blamed everything else. There is such a thing as being fooled and such a thing as Being a Fool. I am neither, thank you very much. "But Everyone's doing it!" you can munch on, too. A couple centuries ago "everyone" had a slave, too, and a few thousand years before that "everyone" thought the Earth was flat. Doctors will just go about doing their business diagnosing and treating it NOT curing it or going to the Source.
"Oh, you're SUCH a nay-sayer, Retro. It's no wonder you're SO unpopular! I'm NOT giving up my iPad or Cell or GPS or...because of the things you say!" You don't have to. It's Your decision just as it's Your life not mine. This comes as nothing more than a warning to you and you can take it or leave it. Just please don't kill the messenger. I've certainly had my share of that. If anything you should be thanking me for Caring Enough to warn you! For this you may call me deranged or paranoid. Frankly, I don't care because I've had to live with this pigeonholing all my life; if not for this then for that. You see "Job: Science/Tech/Engineering" in the right side bar? Maybe if I were a dentist or janitor you would best ignore me, but I can only say that I do know a thing or two about what I am talking about because I have worked in this field all my life. If you develop brain cancer, don't say I didn't warn you.
Here's a nice little summary of the situation, read it if you dare:
Cancer is but One of the maladies associated with RF exposure. Just one of many which range from simple headaches and sleep disorders to Alzheimer's, Parkinson's, MS, and even ADD/ADHD. It's been a long-established proven fact that microwave fields open up the blood-brain barrier which filters poisonous blood and prevents it from entering the brain--when you're head's in a microwave field, heavy metals and impurities otherwise isolated from your brain cells go right through your brain, notably aluminum deposits in your body, thus Alzheimer's Disease. Otherwise it's fertile ground from brain cancer. You want to prevent 99% of future Alzheimer's and brain cancer cases? Turn Off the world's microwave emitters! Those masts, those wireless routers--all that shit!
I'm tired of the finger-pointing. Aluminum and other toxic build ups in the brain isn't because there's more going around in the environment, it's because the blood-brain barrier is Down and Allowing these toxins to enter the brain! It will only get worse, as has been plotted on graphs. Without existing in a microwave field, you could chew on an aluminum can all day and all year long and Never get Alzheimer's (you might get a build up of aluminum elsewhere in your body but Not Alzheimer's!) so long as your blood-brain barrier's intact. It's very simple really. It's also Big Wireless's Big Secret they don't want you to know.
This isn't my primary field of expertise either but this is but the tip of the iceberg of what RF does, because normal cellular growth alone is disrupted...Okay, I'll get out of geek mode now! Oh, yes, this "speed addiction" where nothing is ever Fast Enough and you have to get a million things done faster and better than everyone else is all inter-related to the microwaving of mankind: that's how your brain cells behave when they're under attack but Can't meaningfully communicate this fact with your Cognitive centers of your brain! Your ancestors Weren't like this; taking things slowly and coolly. It's great news though if you're employed in the medical field! Big Pharma's making dough on pills for anything and everything you've got, and then some (they keep making up New disorders!)--not Cures of course just Medication to keep you coming back for more and more pills. Now you can call me a kook for this and move on but if you get anything out of my profile, I hope it is this for your own sake.We would actually be better off without the Internet. Seriously. When you consider how the vast majority use/abuse/exploit it... An analogy would be like having the greatest compilation of books ever written and unleashing a classroom full of 5-year-olds there who would throw the books around the room, rip the pages out, chew on them, make paper airplanes, and ultimately destroy
and waste such resources.
Introvert - Because I'm a deep-thinking Intellectual!
Part-nerd, part-geek--but oddly enough, neither one.
I don't need attention nor do I seek it. Needless to say, I suck at flirting. I enjoy my own company (to a limit, of course, since I'm Here!). I'm an avid reader with thousands of books in my collection. My writing is for my eyes only, this webpage being the exception. I'm not into small talk but into intense talk. I hate loud, obnoxious, runaround people who chit chat constantly about absolutely nothing of any value and have to constantly be on the move somewhere, and in constant need of getting noticed.I see hyperactive twits running around everywhere going nowhere. They speed and showoff to no end. Furthermore, these busybodies have very little going on upstairs beyond instant gratification. Whenever two or more Extroverts get together it's a virtual Battle of the Assholes to see which one's the true Alpha Male--and who gets the Alpha Female! The so-called phone-heads annoy me and I leave them to their own fate. I am the Anti-Yuppie and the Non-Conformist. From my own personal experiences, I've found that the most Outgoing Extroverts are the most shallow and self-centered of people. They cannot exist without attention and without people telling them how great they are. They are also constantly over-compensating for this lack of an inner soul. These are the people who are constantly laughing, usually at things which aren't particularly funny or aren't worth laughing at. The most outrageous of these extroverted people have the least-developed consciences and, in my opinion, are probably destructive and/or dangerous individuals. I also don't give a shit whether you have a great sense of humor or
not. I read this crap in every other profile. Frankly, I find people with humor on their brains all the time to be super-shallow airheads, extremely insecure with themselves who use humor to compensate for their inability to carry on an intelligent conversation. Humor in another person is
about as valuable an asset to me as whether or not there's a little rust on the inner hubcap of the spare tire in the trunk of a new car I may consider buying.
And this is me all over:
Quiet is good. Try it sometime. You might like it. You might even Invent something or discover something new. You might even question some silly Stone Age bullshit, as in the next category:
Atheist - Because Science not Superstition is going to save Humanity! What do I have against religion? What's it done? Violence, Hatred, Discrimination and the Dark Ages. Mindless conformity and Fantasy substituted for the real world.
Take responsibility for your own actions and don't drag-in an imaginary friend or demons to justify your own so-called reality.
The belief that a cosmic Jewish Zombie who was his own father can make you live forever if you symbolically eat his flesh and telepathically tell him you accept him as your master, so he can remove an evil force from your soul that is present in humanity because a rib-woman was convinced by a talking snake to eat from a magical tree... Yeah, makes perfect sense.
And if you don't do what he says, you'll burn for all eternity in Hell. But we have free choice. And you Should Fear Him. But, you know, he Loves You! And he's conveniently 100% invisible except for the occasional appearance on a piece of burnt toast, tree, dirty toilet, rusted sign. Sure. And that so-called likeness is of course just a crude artist's conception since not one painting, drawing, or statue exists of the real guy since there never was a real guy since he's the culmination of thousands of years of metaphorical sun gods which preceded the religion and which the religion's stories and beliefs are cribbed from.
The older religions were either wiped out by Christians or the people simply grew up and dismissed them.
Don't get me started on Islam, thank you very much. They take peoples' Heads Off for so much as naming a teddy bear "Muhammad" since that's an obvious "insult" to "The Prophet."
And anything which disagrees with "The Prophet" is destroyed, including libraries and knowledge (they finished off the great Library of Alexandria centuries ago, using tens of thousands of scrolls and books to heat public baths because the knowledge went Against their religion!). The Great Pyramid and Sphinx will be next because that's "idoltry" to Islam and Cannot be tolerated. Of course when they're blasted to rubble, the apologists will simply say that a "radical" Islamic Faction did it, not the peace-loving Muslims of "The Religion of Peace." And life will go on, maybe with the Statue of Liberty being targeted next, who knows?
This stuff makes Scientology look almost respectable by comparison--and it's got a lower kill-count, too! These observations are all objective and verifiable but the overly-religious vilify me for stating them because they themselves do not want to face them because, well, it would be too much of a shock to come to terms with living a lie and having to face the fact that their parents and parents parents and parents parents parents...were living lies. And all that time and money and effort wasted on delusions. I have said many times in the past that the very future of our entire world could hinge upon the rejection or further propagation of religion. For the major religions of the world their “end game” would more or less require a complete annihilation of all humanity. It is honestly one of the most sickening and disgusting aspects of the major religions in my view. There are actually some people in the world that would see major atrocities as a welcomed sign that their “god” is at work. Most religions ultimately boil down to selfishness in the end. Saving your own immortal soul's ass, so to speak. Doing things not just for the sake of helping others but to light up the eyes of God because He dictates it must be so to enter Heaven; so they rack up greater frequent flier points with the Big Man... If you want to be a genuinely good person, be a selfLess person who does so not just to
earn a higher seat in the afterlife. Care about our Earth not fantasy Heaven.Try to improve the Human Condition of society around you for the Sake of society not because scripture commands it! So there's a mighty difference here between an Atheist and a Theist. That's why Atheists generally care more for the future of our environment and our planet, because we know we're grounded here as are our descendants. This world isn't just a brief stopoff "testing ground" (an Unfair one where some people are born rich, others are born poor, and still others are born crippled or handicapped) where the Lord probes us to see if we're Worthy of Heaven. In order for us to really be able to progress, for us to really move towards a better future and a better world it is necessary that we push religion aside, It is the only sensible choice. So I'll stick with sanity and my science books, thank you very much! Now if a person just wants to believe in an intelligent creator or universe, that's fine, but when a religion becomes huge and a "gang" with a leader and followers, then we've got the current insanity I speak of. A person believing in religion to be happy is no different than a drug addict taking dangerous drugs to be happy. Now many people would say that if someone wants to do that kind of thing they should be free and welcome to do it but I don’t know many people that would encourage drug addicts to continue to take more damaging and harmful drugs “as long as it makes them happy”. There is a very real and powerful harm that can come to the people that are impacted by the religious believer. The most religious are also responsible for the population explosion and therefore the using up of valuable resources faster than they can be replenished, to say nothing of poverty. They don't care because This World is just a temporary stop-over on their way to Heaven, and Jesus/Allah says to just keep having many, many kids (and Muhammad even says that poverty is to be Honored!). Compared to the overly-religious, Atheists have few if any children. Because we're Responsible. OK, I'll get off my soap box now. Religious people hate me for saying these things because they're true but, of course, They have the Right religion while everyone else does not. I'm also tired of "religious freedom"--it's all about doing what they want and denying other people of it. It's rather like "You don't get to eat ice cream because it's what I eat" crap. If you're a member of our "club" you get all these rights, but if you're Not, it's screw you!
If society were a little bit different: more Educated, more Open and Accepting...I would not have to Justify myself and type those above paragraphs for all four aspects. Yet here I must.
People are reactionaries; they no longer think, they make rash judgment calls and are fed by paranoia and hearsay. Ignorance breeds ignorance. The reason I must go into such nauseating Detail and Explain Myself is because of a sweeping
epidemic of Ignorance which originates right here in America.
People make stupid-ass ASSumptions and spontaneous prejudgments because they no longer want to
think. They condemn people before giving people a Chance to state their case. Well, I'm stating My case. Whether you wish to hear me out or prematurely condemn me is up to you.
So I feel that it's absolutely necessary to spell it all out for you and explain myself as to why I am the way I am.
So if I sound like a nay-saying idiot ranting and raving atop a soap box, it is FOR A PURPOSE. To Convey to you Who I am and WHY I AM THE WAY I AM. I can't emphasize this enough.
A simple example: I don't own a cell phone. Do you Know what kinds of responses I get to that? "You must be a total fucking Loser if you don't own a cell phone!" "How can you LIVE without a cell?!!!" "You haven't enough brain cells to Operate a cell?" Yeah, and plenty more. And to hear these things over and over And Over AGAIN. Let me put this one to you another way though. If you are an inner-city resident who uses public transportation and Does Not Own A Car, I am Not going to piss down your throat in a rage and say you're a backwards bimbo because you don't own a vehicle. Soon, one day, I also suspect that anyone who doesn't have a GPS in their car will get their ass fried ("How can you Drive WITHOUT a GPS??"). It's coming. One day, unfortunately.
Society Condemns people who go against the grain. Society is the way it is through Popularity which often has nothing at all to do with Reason or Practicality. It is often dictated from the top down (since Capitalism demands the higher-ups be Served by the "lower forms" within; Capitalism determines what you Consume to keep up with everyone else). You really don't "need" something; rather, you are Told that you "Need" something and your choice of that something is how you will be accepted by your peers. If you refuse to participate in this game, you are an outcast...and the name-calling game begins!
People need to be accepted So Badly in this society that they'll do virtually anything to remain a part of it. Including selling their souls. We see this when people convert to different religions just to be Accepted by the Majority. People who sellout their very own Principles can stay the hell away from me.
Add those four up and that makes me a Minority, in this country at least! I'm a has-been "reject" which nobody wants anything to do with.
(Until the electricity goes out, the communications satellites above fry, and everyone is left dealing with a bare-bones, low-tech survival situation. Holding useless plastic toys which don't respond. Then we shall see who lives and who dies! "I'm not Connected anymore! Help me! I can't read my e-books! I'm all Alone! Not even God is answering my prayers! Waaaah Waaaah Waaaaah!" Maybe under those conditions they would seek me out to help bail their own asses out. Maybe. Because then and only then will I be "useful" to them. Useful. That does seem to be the goal of every woman on here: find some guy to Support her; someone she can Use. This may sound somewhat nasty of me but that's the impression I get from the majority of women on here, especially by the questions they would ask from how I dress, what clubs I attend, what kind of car I drive... In a word Materialistic.)
It has led to me adapting a rather reclusive lifestyle, of which I had no choice in the matter. It is the way I am.
I don't expect my soul mate to perfectly mirror me in all four categories of course, but to merely accept me for what I am and where I stand. Because you're not going to change me and I'm not going to change you.
The first category makes me a no-go for women who expect me to "Keep up with the Kardashians"--and all the other latest sitcoms, movies, and Hollywood HYPE--all of which I haven't a care in the world about. Oh, I've given things a chance, an odd episode here and there--and I always come away from the stuff feeling cheated, having wasted my time, bored, having had my intelligence insulted and/or repulsed. So you would think that Older women would dig a young guy like me with old values and a lover of more Old than New. I've nothing against older women but they tend to have something against me: I generally look Young Enough To Be Their Son. They are Uncomfortable with this. Also, thanks to Conformity (via their friends and their children) they've already rejected much if not all of the past and embrace the modern and new. I can just see their kids brainwashing them into believing that the latest Disney piece-of-crap-animation-flick is Totally Awesome and the Greatest!
The second category is often misinterpreted as meaning I'm backwards or something. I've a degree in computers and electronics in fact, but that does not mean I must wallow in the latest and greatest. You'll note the prefix "Neo" in there. Again, technology is a Tool, not something to live by or for.
That third category puts me in the position of not only thinking things through conclusively but to research and investigate many aspects of life. I've spent my entire life doing so. And I'm now writing about it. I'm not hyper nor outgoing so don't mistake this for not being Fun or not liking you because I don't grovel at your feet and pour on the flattery. I'm deep and a deep talker. Small talk is not my thing. I also function best in small groups; ideally just me and you! I cannot emphasize this page enough: http://lonerwolf.com/15-myths-about-introverts/
And don't get me started on all the crap I've had to deal with from people who think an Introvert is a psycho, stalker, serial killer, school shooter, or something not to be trusted. Women can be very, very scared of guys like me. Especially when they're programmed by big-mouth extroverts who see them as rivals: "That guy reading a book over there is Queer! He's not for you! In fact, believe it or not, I'm convinced he's a pedophile and child molester, too!" Sweet.
Needless to say, the fourth category steers the overly-religious women well away from me, often out of sheer ignorance. It's the ultimate date-killer. Indeed, the more religious a person, the less likely s/he'll have anything to do with me...sometimes even to truly paranoid extremes of resentment.
Now let me get up close and Personal...because this fourth category is painfully important and due special attention.
You'd be blown away by how many times I didn't get the girl simply because I don't believe in Jesus (or Allah where applicable, for that matter), meaning, to them, that their association with me would bar their soul from reaching sanctuary in Heaven, because The Creator of the whole universe will frown down. Seriously! Those are the straightforward ladies. Usually it's their parents or family
members they hang it on, claiming they would not approve of a godless guy. Ultimately I find myself alone and never know whether to believe them or not. Then there's women with kids from a previous marriage: "I have my children to think about..." which Implies: "...and I can't trust them alone
with you!" Alright. That Hurts. Enough! Now try this shit on for size multiple times--it could drive you to drink. I don't drink or rely on cheap substance escapes. I simply embrace the kick in the balls and move on. Or try to. The hurt remains.
The power of propaganda, preached by people who on the other hand claim they are preaching Love. Okay. Well, it is best you reveal this stigma of yours here and now rather than later, I suppose. It is again pure discrimination, praise the Church!
I'm going to Hell and anyone who touches RetroActive2014 will share the trip! Do you truly believe this? Yup. The word you're looking for is Superstition. It stands in direct opposition to Science, which is where I stand. Non-belief is the ultimate date killer, and generally speaking Killer period. Today Atheists FACE THE DEATH PENALTY in 13 Nations, all of which are Islamic. You know, just for Not following a superstition and minding your own business you can literally lose your head. Nice. Very, very nice. Praise Allah and "The Religion of Peace." Holy shit is right. Guess, what? Most Americans are religious and take their religion Very seriously. I generally don't date Hispanics or Blacks for this very reason. I'm not prejudiced--rather, They Are! Hispanics and Blacks have that deeply rooted Jesus bug which steers them well clear of Non-Christians big-time. Of these few minorities who've tried to befriend me, they do so because Lord Jesus is instructing them to save my soul and, uh, Convert Me... No thanks. The remainder simply say that I'm demented, a lost cause, and I should seek professional help or guidance. Basically they give me a "get lost, loser!" push. I've come to accept this as The Christian Way (i.e. Join Us or F-O), but it's really no different for most other mainstream religions. Islam alone is pretty nasty in this regard! (Whenever 9/11 comes up, I want you to remember that Religion did it. Islam. No, If's, and's, or's, or but's about it. If you read the Kor'an and study what every baby Muslim is brought up on and forced to recite for the rest of his or her life, as they pray five times each day to Allah to have mercy on their pathetic souls to be allowed to enter Heaven one day, you'll know exactly what I mean. Unfortunately. What Christians don't want to hear though is about their own faction called Dominionism whch is just as bloody as Islam--If allowed to be unleashed--and with the same closed-minded mindset. For a hint of this watch the documentary called "Jesus Camp." As an Atheist I'm sitting on the sidelines watching these different factions going at one another in the name of fantasy deities. It's NOT entertaining. It's most distasteful and I had hoped that humanity would have matured beyond this shit by the 21st century.).
What we end up with is a nation of feel-good instant-gratification idiots who only see the bright sides of everything, shun and ignore the negative rather than daring to try to Acknowledge and Fix the undesirable components to make life a better place for future generations. "God and prayer will take care of the negative!" I've learned that Selfishness is the key behind this meme throughout religions. Confront a
Muslim or a super-conservative Christian and their reasoning comes down to caring about Your Own immortal soul and getting it into that next world, as opposed to caring about your fellow human beings Here And Now and Their Future on Earth. What little "caring" they do, however, is not dictated by the desire to really help others but because they'll Look Good in the eyes of God because The Bible (or Kuran) tells them to do such-and-such. They're basically trying to get a higher rating on their soul for when departure time comes so they get First Class seats in the afterlife! So it's a To-Hell-With-This-Planet attitude because Earth doesn't matter since they won't
be living here forever! And that is the key in understanding their attitudes towards conservation, climate change, and anything here-and-now Real and secular. You will get this to a somewhat lesser extent from the more moderate believers, but there it is sitting at the core of their beliefs: "I'M gonna make it to Heaven and I don't give a shit about anyone or anything else here!" So they can't comprehend Atheists. Without Immortality dangling before us they figure we're Evil
and have no motivation to want to do any Good because we can't be bought! All this, needless to say, goes hand-and-hand with Capitalism and, particularly, America's Republicans of the Catholic faith. Trust in God, do whatever you want, and if you do something bad say a dozen Hail Marys and you'll be forgiven. That last bit is the Mafia credo apparently.
Retro + Neo-luddite makes me something of an antiquarian--though selective, very selective! I can also appreciate steampunk, though I rarely use it myself. What I
consider "post-modern steampunk" includes such things as low-resolution monochrome screens (which are rather nifty for watching old B&W movies and shows on).
If you take all four of these qualities together, I'm a spectacularly unpopular guy. That goes not just for being among women but people in general. Americans were different in the 80s and 90s. They were less religious and more science-oriented. More flexible and accepting. Today they are a self-serving, paranoid, pretentious people; unwilling to think or accept anything outside of their own tiny, Hollywood-created realm. And anyone or anything that does fall outside of their parameters of perfection Gets It. You drive an old Chevy, you're a worthless bum. You drive a new Lexus, you're totally awesome! You enjoy your own company and don't shoot your mouth off, you're probably up to nefarious
devil-deeds, or just plain old retarded. You don't believe in God, you're Evil because you obviously worship Satan. You stand behind gay rights--you probably Are gay! You don't believe in Noah's Ark or Creationism? Hahahaha! I don't trust you, I don't like you: you should be Watched and you should see a psychiatrist! You're Not Normal! Conform or Die!
Oh, hell, why not just Blame Me if you've got a streak of bad luck and it's a rainy day, too! Ignorance has become unchained in this country. It's too much for me. It's very trying on my mind and body. Sometimes my heart feels like it's either going to explode or stop beating. That's why I'm on OKCupid. I have no other place to go. I am even hesitant to cyber-flirt here because I know all too well the kind of responses I would receive. I've been getting their tired, predictable, condescending messages all my life. I've really had it. You also don't have to tell me that nobody's going to date a "loser" who's not happy-happy 24/7, 8 days a week. Women
want some idiot with a fat wallet and a phony smile plastered all over his face. My curse is that I was born with a conscience in a state that wears a false conscience on the outside. I'm less materialistic when I should be wallowing in it because this is crying-out-loud Capitalism at it's most grandeur. I'm in this boat because I've removed myself from the Keep Up With The Jones' Game because, again, I'm an Introvert and feel no need to flaunt. So that alone gives me a unique perspective. Unfortunately. The thing is, I can't close my eyes to how
deceptive and manipulative my fellow men (and women) are. Everywhere. They're living to play a Last Man Standing/Stab Everyone In The Back Game. The guy with the most money or goods wins--and to be successful you have to hide behind a 100% bullshit smiling facade! You get there by hook or by crook, by lying, cheating, bribing, murdering, destroying the environment... But say a couple Hail Marys and God'll forgive you, and you can start all over again. America is becoming a Mafia state. But that's okay because "God Bless America" - God's chosen America as His state! (This BS line is relatively recent, incidentally, as it was put upon American money in the 1950s at the height of the Red Scare by, you guessed it, the holy Republicans. They have since flown with this as Justification that America was founded as a Christian State!)
So if you unify those four qualities up above, you also end up with a philosopher, whether you like it or not (because that darn brain won't turn itself off). You probably won't like it because, sad but true, truth is often painfully unpleasant. But do you want the truth or do you want to lie to yourself? Most people can't live
without lies. That's why religion is thriving: it's a crutch to distract from reality and to reinforce these competitive, backwards ways which will inevitably lead to Mankind's destruction. Having studied it in it's myriad of forms, new and old, it is unquestionably a form of mental illness. A very Dangerous one. But one that Capitalism simply cannot do without because it's So Very Profitable!
In addition to being a philosopher, if you put those four highlighted qualities about into one person, you can probably imagine all the Shit I've taken throughout my life. Discrimination. Bullying. You-name-it. Just because I refuse to Conform to the masses. And I face Reality, no matter how unpleasant that reality may be. It's real.
Now if you'd like to know details of my history, jobs, accomplishments, where I am and where I'm going, sexual thrills and chills, the names of all 36 of my ex-wives and hundred-odd babies...that's between you and me. To be divulged In person. Because too much personal crap is already being broadcast online, and I find it uncomfortable.
I also know darn well that in being so forthright and honest, I'm probably committing dating suicide here and now. So be it.
At least I'm not playing the role of a deceptive SOB. There are probably thousands of Them on here for you to choose from.
Unlike Them, I am a man of my principles and I live by them. I don't take bribes. I don't sell out. I don't kiss ass.
I don't date often and since coming aboard here that's truer now than ever! Think of me as that rare, Special Edition person.
I'm obviously not intended for your average, run-of-the-mill dance hall broad. Though all open-minded ladies are welcome to check me out. As a potential mate. Not as a freak of nature.