Even though I'm a big guy, I am used to my body, I accept my largeness and the societal pariah price to pay for being so. Which is doubly tragic as I am attracted to women who are totally not modest and like to take care of their bodies. I realize most people like fit people for the potential for maximum reproduction and long term commitments, I'm no spring chicken anymore - I want the here and now while I am still breathing, to try to enjoy life with someone cool and openminded and sexy and a lover of spectacular massages. I wear my heart on my sleeve and say exactly whatever is on my mind regardless of tact.
I have a job, I pay rent, I just got a car again after many a long time out of potential future necessity; my cat of 17 years died last spring so its more lonely than usual for me these days. I am so extremely difficult to match romantically I don't even know why I waste my time with this place as I am totally not husband or father archetype role model material. Not into drama, or high maintenance or anal retentive people.
I just want movie buddies, or friends with benefits. I've waited, or looked for loves of my life and I sincerely don't believe there is someone out there for me at all. So I just want some lunch/dinner movie or at home cuddle/kisses/massages or fooling around time, a creative muse who likes movies and writing and drawing, is quite the nerd/geek conversationalist like I am.
And to be honest here... I like to please with minimal to no reciprocation required. I am an oral fanatic, and I love to give all forms of massages, from scalp to toes and everything in between. And I don't give a rats ass about actual sex. It has never been satisfying to me.