"You met me at a very strange time in my life.."
It's difficult to convey much sense of self in a block of text (or ten). Nevertheless, I shall spend several paragraphs battling this conundrum For Your Entertainment, flying in the face of all those who would summarise themselves - apparently - with blithe apathy and little more than an oblique sideswipe at the whole OKCupid modus operandi. Yes, we're all unique and beautiful little snowflakes, but dodging the question doesn't really prove that point, does it?
My profile is quite long. There's a quiz at the end, and Staff Robot will be handing out bottles of water half way down. Feel free to skim-read/ignore/flee if that bothers you. Somehow I'm hoping you're here for the unabridged version, though: I love reading long profiles myself.
THE SHORT: I am a 28 year old writer who lives near London. I tend to focus on the things I am most passionate about: videogames, television and cultural output in general - occasionally I even get paid for it! I am affable and extremely open to new people, particularly for a good conversation about Stuff. If you are friendly, open-minded and expressive then we'll probably get on well. Or maybe not, but that's part of the fun, isn't it? :)
I used to say, "Well, I'm a student!" For one it was true, and somehow that was all that needed to be said. 'I'm studying', which somehow conveyed whatever people wanted it to; up til all hours finishing essays, sleeping too much, finding my footing - whatever. It's a comfortable catch-all. I've finished university, but I still embrace the student ethos, whatever that is. Perhaps a desire to learn something new, to be open-minded, and a passion for knowledge and discussion. The positives which people like to overlook.
I'm not someone who relished those piles of books, come essay week, apart from those rare books that managed to be readable and edifying. However, if anything sums up my attitude to life I guess it's a massive interest in almost everything. I entertain a wide-eyed awe at the world, universe, and so on, and I find it difficult to understand how some people don't. I try to sustain a balance between naivety and pragmatism. It's healthy to maintain an open, receptive mind, at the risk of asking one too many questions. I don't agree with cynicism. Ultimately I prefer people who wear their heart and their opinions on their sleeve, as long as they can debate them honestly. I have something of a vendetta against apathy. Passion is the order of the day.
Despite this star-gazing, I'd never dismiss the urbane and the everyday, which I enjoy with a passion. I spend a lot of time thinking about Stuff and talking about Things with friends. I love idiosyncrasies, foibles and cuddles, and I adore conversation. I thrive in small groups of four or five, usually getting upto hijinks, or becoming embroiled in deep discussion (which needn't be about anything deep itself!). I'm more anxious about larger gatherings or meeting lots of new people at once, but if I felt like using the word forté to describe anything it would probably be conversation. Language is amazing, and not enough people spend much time talking properly.
There's a practical application for all this (so-called) procrastination, and it's the world at large. I think sometimes you just need to 'take a moment', if only to avoid an early grave. We generally lack worldy power and influence. Not all of us are Obamas-in-the-making. This can be frustrating, but the world is all in the details; the urbane. How we might deal with each other. How one conversation can change a mood, start a relationship, or change a lifetime. The realisation that we're just biological organisms kicking around on a ball of rock needn't be a harsh reality - I think it's utterly compelling.
I am a devout consumer of many things, especially films, videogames and television, as well as the occasional play or novel (not as many as I would like) and good food and drink. I'd probably call myself a conscious consumer if that phrase hadn't been (a)trophied by various groups.
The quote up top is not just a nod to Fight Club: I think the strange is worth embracing. I love alternative culture and the niche. Geekdom, whether it be about films, games, literature, art, or whatever. It's Obsession and Passion hand in hand, down at the arcades, or in the back row of the cinema, or curled up in bed with a good book.
Particularly, videogames and films are involving, immersive, and brilliantly social, despite the usual stigmas. I am an evangelist. Ask me about Italian plumbers, or how to to beat Death at chess.
I think I'll stop writing here!
Thus endeth the open-essay. You're now free to return to friends and loved-ones, who have alerted the police as to your disappearance.