i make great effort to be kind to everyone. i sometimes fail
miserably... but most of the time i succeed. i love to be young
hearted, silly, and playful... but i am also very mindful,
insightful, and serious. i like having conversations about people
and behavior and life and existence... because i am in a constant
state of attempting to make sense of it all. It still doesn't make
sense to me. i have what i think is a great sense of humor... it
can be peculiar and odd at times, but of course i think i am
hilarious. I am pretty much a homebody, but will go out to certain
events if I feel up to it.
What I’m doing with my life
As for my daily job, playing my part in the "system," I am a psychometrist in the psychology department of a hospital. I mainly do Autism evaluations.
What I am working toward doing in my life, is breaking out of the emotional mold and constructs and unfulfilling traditions and expectations of the society In which I have been raised.
I’m really good at
i have been playing guitar for 20 years. i am into photography and have a decent camera that i am wanting to explore the art more with. i am good at listening... i am good at making people feel very welcome and comfortable around me. i am good at analyzing just about anything and everything.
The first things people usually notice about me
my ability to make you feel comfortable around me... my shyness that is disguised as extroversion. I have come to the understanding that I am an introvert and am frequently worn out by certain social interactions and situations. I suppose you wouldn't notice that right away, only if you got to know me in more depth.
Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food
i am very passionate about the movies and music i am into. i am into dark, serious, intellectual movies usually. There Will Be Blood is one of my all time favorites if that gives you an idea. Tree of Life, Melancholia, Take Shelter, Another Earth, The Master, are some of my recent favorites. I will forever love Signs, The Village, Shawshank Redemption, The Green Mile, and American Beauty.
Lost and Breaking Bad are two of my all time favorite tv shows. The Leftovers is my new favorite, it is absolutely beautiful and brilliant. Derek on Netflix is also super deep and amazing. I also love shows like The Office and Its Always Sunny in Philadelphia.
food... definitely boiled crawfish and pizza are the top two. But I am actively eating more consistently healthy and attempting to learn more about cooking vegetarian and vegan meals.
as far as music... i am in to bands like the kills, white stripes, radiohead, arcade fire, foo fighters, them crooked vultures, weezer, nirvana, everclear, ray charles, pink floyd, queen, movie scores, classical, delta blues, and older music that you can actually slow dance to. Have been listening to St. Vincent's pandora station a lot lately. She is my new crush.
for reading... i dont really read much... trust me i know that sucks... i think me and reading have been on bad terms ever since i was in school and had to read a lot. we havent rekindled that flame. catcher in the rye was one that definitely made an impact on me in high school. in college... reading hamlet... forever changed me.
The six things I could never do without
laughing, caring, my dual ability to be so young hearted but so
serious, family and friends, my guitar, my camera.
I spend a lot of time thinking about
life... psychology... mortality... existence... behavior...
my deep need be more creative... experiment with photography, film, and musical instruments
what my next move is... where is life leading me... where am I leading life... And the perseverative thoughts go on and on.
How I wanna take the most contrived "spontaneous" road trip to the beach on any given evening
On a typical Friday night I am
Relaxing watching a movie on Netflix or from Redbox. Dancing in my kitchen to music on pandora while attempting to cook a half way decent healthy meal. Occasionally maybe hanging out with a small amount of friends. Not that any of these things are limited just to friday nights.
The most private thing I’m willing to admit
i have a weird fear of horses... i think they are beautiful... but i am scared to death of their size and scared of getting kicked by one.
I have this tendency to not text or call to congratulate friends when they have a baby
You should message me if
you want to message me.
if you are interested in something i wrote or some impression you get of me.
if you have any questions... and want to know anything more.
if you are seeking a mature healthy relationship that includes communication, trust, attraction, and tons of affection. please don't let that scare you away, it's the only thing that makes sense to me.