Awards I've Received before they were retired T_T
Wolve_Spirit gave me: Friends In Real Life
Awarded Aug 8, 2010

“When you need a good laugh or an ear. She's there for ya. She has a great sense of humor as well as great comebacks. She is a big kid at heart. So guys pay attention I would go talk to her. Ya never know she may be Mrs. Right!”

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luigi6942 gave me: Makes Me Laugh
Awarded Aug 10, 2010

“she's got a great sense of humor and can make ya laugh on even the worse days out there.”

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Docpunkfunk gave me: The Perfect Mix
Awarded Aug 29, 2010

“Perfect mix of sweetness, geekiness, humor and personality!”

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gave me: Brilliant Profile
Awarded Oct 8, 2010

“This girl is awesome. Kind, funny and one of the nicest people I've ever met online. I gave you this award so you wouldn't have any repeats. :) <3”

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Tampa330i gave me: Friends In Real Life
Awarded Jun 10

“Star is great! She's true to her word. She's the kind of person who is there for you when you need her. An awesome friend!”

For to long it feels that love has kept a cold shoulder upon me

Denying me its warmth and happiness

How I can remember a time where I was almost blinded by how deeply it had enveloped me

Now I am alone in a cold empty room

Missing the warmth and happiness of loves strong arms holding me close to it

What sin have I committed to continually receive loves cold shoulder?

Love had left me with no reason

I have never turned my back to it, why is it doing so to me?

I have tried to reach for this most wanted sensation again but it pulls itself away from me

When will love turn to me once more with its warm smile and embrace me in its tender strong arms?

I understand I'm not everyone's type. Or have no interest to some, but you would like that manners would at least have someone reply to a message.

I've sent out several messages to several members on here this evening and out of maybe 5-7 I got one reply. Its just very disheartening and frustrating. And I'm sure anyone who reads this will more than likely just few this as a whine wanting attention. No, this is self expression so a tumor dosent grow in my head!

Just saw Heroes (hooray DVR) and all I can say is...

IF YOU WANT TO BE WITH SOMEONE I AM RIGHT HERE!!!! YOU DONT HAVE TO GET RID OF ANYTHING I WILL TAKE YOU COMPLETELY AS YOU ARE NOW!!!!! I even forgive you for killing all of those people, honest!

DONT DO IT!!!!! T_T

What are the writers thinking? I understand that Sylar I guess has some part of Nathan in him that is giving him some form of "humanity" now I guess but... ahhh!

My poor Sylar, and then to totally drive me nuts they have him kiss gone emo lately Claire. Grrrr!!

I really hope that dosn't go thru. I'll say this much though I dont recall being so anxious to see the next episode. And this past episode was one of the better ones they have had for a while.

This is Florida, a TROPICAL climate! WHY THE HELL IS IT COLD!!??? T_T

Well a few days before I was told about this site. I went to eHarmony... bite me.  Now I can understand that not everyone in the world, even on eHarmoney (which when i went thru that long as test gave me no matches at the end) but to have close to 8 people already have no interest in you at all????

For those of you who aren't eHarmony, when you are not a paying member you dont get to see the members pictures, even on a free weekend, so you really are judging them based on the information givin to you. So I dont know if its because im an open anime geek or what but no one has been interested and I know im a tough girl but it still hurst ya know?

Or is it that these ARE paying members so they can see my pics and they just aren't interested in a bigger girl?!

I dont know what the reason is i mean really, i live not even an hour away from Tampa and someone, who on their own profile says they live in Tampa, gave me a "close match" reply of "I think the distance between us is to great" (its one of those default options you can choose to send) ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME???? Its less than an hour away and you think the distance is to great?? What the flying fuck is wrong with you??? Are you that lazy or are you so dumb you chose that as an "easier" let down?!

Men are so fucking stupid, I swear i really debate why I'm NOT a lesbian, ugh What is it with you guys???????

And why is it, that a fair amount of guys think im "interesting" or "cool" etc but no one seems romantically interested?  ... that or half the time I'm not interested back.

Why? Is it my size? Am I not that pretty? What is it you men look for that is making me find a relationship so damn difficult??????

Ok.. Ok, just calm down, breath... :breaths in slowly, breaths out: I dont know, I dont want to view myself as becoming desperate but I'm 27, I know alot of people still few that as young, but a part of me really isnt feeling it. I want to be married, I want a family. And when i was 15 my dream at the time WAS to be married and have a child by the time I was 25.

Ugh I dont know anymore. I know I'm lonely and it sucks. My last relationship ended over 2 years ago. I'm ready for a new one already!

And dont you dare judge me by this, this is a vent/ rant I'm allowed to say what I want damn it!! lol

PS: (after reading some of the comments)

I thinks most of this is coming from my cousin is getting married in a few weeks and of course I'm invited to the wedding and just two months ago in October my other cousin, her sister, just got married. So I think I'm going thru that "girl marriage" thing phase ya know? Because that leaves me the last female in the family not married. They were the first two born followed by me and then its been all boys since. So I'm hoping my feelings lately of being lonely are stronger because of the weddings then what they normally would be you know?

Well happily I think im on the way to making some new friends. Have already meet some people im liking ^_^

Now where is that perfect/ awesome boyfriend????? :looks around: lol

Hopefully this year will bring some better fortune, some new adventures and friends ^_^

Ok I'm a geek what do you want from me?!

How many of you people have actually found love on this site? And I don't mean the one night stand kind... pervs.

This site was told to me by a friend. I'm new to it and am still learning my way around. I hope to find new friends and even love. Good luck to you all ^_^