I'm working on some social issues. I can be very awkward, especially around big groups of people, and all too often I find that I have no idea how to respond to things people say. I have very few friends, and even fewer that I feel comfortable really opening up with, which is something I seriously want to change. I think I'm stuck in a vicious cycle of "I have no friends so I don't do anything, I don't do anything so I have nothing to talk about, I have nothing to talk about so I can't make friends". It wasn't always this way, so I'm trying my damnedest to get back to something resembling a life. So basically I mostly want someone who can provide support and inspiration while I build myself back up.

If you haven't caught on yet, I can be pretty... shall we say... pessimistic sometimes. Neurotic too. So if you're looking for "no complications" or "no strings attached," I'm probably not your guy.

I'm a writer (sort of), a nerd and a stoner.

I try to be very open-minded, but I'll be honest, I despise people that I think are closed-minded (conservatives, bigots). Other than that, I won't judge because I'm no better. That doesn't mean I won't make fun of you, but I won't honestly look down on you for being weird or degenerate or just having different opinions. Unless you're just a dick, and even then I may still like or respect you.

I've got a significant feminine side to me, occasionally (rarely) to the point where I feel more like a woman than a man. My favorite color (aside from black) is pink. It comes out the most in some of the music I listen to (see below). Despite all that most people don't even realize I'm gay because I'm not really fruity or cliche about it (something I'm sort of proud of). I don't have an annoying gay accent like some of the guys I've met.

I used to call myself a LaVeyan Satanist (not a devil worshiper, look it up) but over the last few years I've fallen into a slump that's made me forget all about being cunning and egotistical and all that good stuff.

Well, I *was* planning on saving up money to move away from my family, going to college to study psychology and creative writing, and trying to become a professional writer. I'd love to make movies but writing novels seems a lot less resource-intensive if not necessarily easier. That was when I was smart and creative and motivated. I was also a much bigger asshole, so I guess that's an improvement....

But in reality, I've spent the last few years smoking weed, watching bad horror movies (horror is my life) and playing collectable miniature games, working my dead-end joke of a job, getting fatter and dumber as each day passes. But now I'm inspired (again) to turn that all around! Wooo! Let's see if it sticks this time.

Learning game rules.
Rolling dice.
Unintentionally looking angry and intimidating.
I used to be good at writing (or so I was told, but hey, we're all our own harshest critics) but I had writer's block for a long time and I haven't really tried to write anything since.

Probably the way I dress, my sick and sarcastic sense of humor or my social ineptitude.

Music - Marilyn Manson, Garbage, Nine Inch Nails, t.A.T.u., Smashing Pumpkins, No Doubt, Metric, The Cardigans, Bauhaus, Mindless Self Indulgence, Metallica, Depeche Mode, CompulsorySkin, VNV Nation, Velvet Acid Christ, That 1 Guy, Sex Pistols, Slipknot, Electric Six, Apoptygma Berzerk, Queen, System of a Down, She Wants Revenge, Dethklok

The only music I absolutely 100% cannot fucking stand is Insane Clown Posse and Eminem.

Books - Satan Burger, Punk Land, Razor Wire Pubic Hair, Mister B. Gone, manga, horror comics, The Satanic Bible, A Clockwork Orange, Age of Consent, psychology books. Anything by Clive Barker or Carlton Mellick III is amazing.

Movies - Rocky Horror Picture Show and Tenacious D in The Pick of Destiny are the most amazing movies of all time. Other good ones include Eraserhead, A Nightmare on Elm Street and all of its sequels, the Hannibal Lector series (especially Hannibal Rising, Gaspard Ulliel is amazing and incredibly hot), Joshua, Hellraiser, Little Nicky, Johnny Sunshine, Poltergeist, Evil Dead, The Texas Chainsaw Massacre (original), Little Miss Sunshine, Donnie Darko, Ab-Normal Beauty. Wes Anderson movies. Altered States changed my life.

1. Cell phone.
2. PC.
3. Paper.
4. A pencil.
5. Internet connection.

Being watched by an evil secret society / cult.

Either working or playing games. Most likely high. Often bored. I don't get out enough.

People sometimes think I'm shallow, but it's only because I tried dating someone I didn't find that attractive and that just led to awkwardness and unintentional hurt feelings.

~ You have read a Nightmare on Elm Street comic.
~ You know the full name of Ed from Cowboy Bebop
~ You have been to an alternate universe.