In short: This is going to be a long read about who I am and what I want in life. Along with some things that are personal, however, I am putting myself out there in hopes to find someone who would want someone like me. I am not here on this website, or in this life to seek out a “Hook-up” or any one night stands. What I want, in truth, is quite the opposite. I want someone whom I can spend my life and come home to.. In time.
I guess we can begin that I was born and raised in Florida, I am a demisexual sapiosexual, which is a person who does not experience sexual attraction unless they form a strong emotional connection with someone. It's more commonly seen in but by no means confined to romantic relationships and one who finds intelligence the most sexually attractive feature; behavior of becoming attracted to or aroused by intelligence and its use.. (http://www.asexuality.org/wiki/index.php?title=Demisexual & http://www.collinsdictionary.com/submission/6304/Sapiosexual).
I am a jealous and overly protective person who will love with everything he has to give (even if I am in pieces and not whole.) I have been hurt in my past a lot. I have been cheated on, mentally fucked over and questioned my reality at times. However, I am a stronger person because of it. I know for a fact, that there is someone out there for me. Wither it be from fate, God, the unknown, by chance, I do not know. All I know is that she is out there... Somewhere. Who is my other half.
“According to Greek Mythology, humans were originally created with 4 arms, 4 legs and a head with two faces. Fearing their power, Zeus split them into two separate parts, condemning them to spend their lives in search of their other halves.” - Plato
I do my best not to lie and to always be honest. I am someone who will be bold and who's shell is hard to crack open. I have built a wall around myself to protect myself. No one has climbed inside yet and at times, I fear that I will never find “her” my other half. I am of the Cancer Zodiac, I do believe in most of what is written here http://zodiac-signs-astrology.com/zodiac-signs/cancer.htm . As, most of it describes me. I am someone who desire to care for, I am somewhat adaptable, responsive. I can and will be moody, clingy, oversensitive, and am in no way self-absorbed. I am someone who is full of contradictions when it comes to many things - I apparently over-think upon everything.. However, that is not the point I desire to make. I will approach people cautiously and slowly due to being hurt by many people before.
My family and what little friends I keep are very important to me. I always want to try out new things, for, I am a curious person, I want to know how things work or how things taste, etc. I do not explore or have experienced much of the outside world due to mainly bad experiences and personal choice... That and I am a computer nerd (and never had anyone to experience the “outside world” with), I enjoy playing video games on the PC as well as learning how to make them. I am currently going online to a school in Winter Park, Florida for Game Design. (Full Sail University).
In short, I am looking for someone who will understand Me. I have my demons as I am sure everyone has theirs as well. I want someone who will understand that I have Panic/Anxiety along with Depression. I get hurt easily, even though I enjoy joking around, I am unsure if I hurt someone's feelings or not. I want someone who will want to also play video games, for, they are a major part of my life and soon-to-be career choice. I want someone who will understand that they can come to me and I will drop everything I am doing to go over to her and be with her. To calm her down and to make sure she is alright before my own safety. She would be my world. I am also trying to lose the weight I gained over the years and to get in shape. As hard as it is, I want someone who will support me and might help me with it as well.