I am unemployed, frustrated, and penniless.
My Self-Summary
"Day after day, alone on a hill, the man with the foolish grin is
keeping perfectly still. But nobody wants to know him, they can see
that he's just a fool. And he never gives an answer, but the fool
on the hill sees the sun going down and the eyes in his head see
the world spinning round. Well on the way, his head in a cloud, the
man of a thousand voices talking perfectly loud. But nobody ever
hears him, or the sound he appears to make. And he never seems to
notice. But the fool on the hill sees the sun going down and the
eyes in his head see the world spinning round."
John Lennon/Paul McCartney
What I’m doing with my life
"I wanna live, I wanna give. I've been a miner for a heart of gold.
It's these expressions, that never give. Keeps me searching for a
heart of gold, and I'm gettin' old. I've been to Hollywood, I've
been to Redwood. I've crossed the ocean for a heart of gold. I've
been in my mind, it's such a fine line, that keeps me searching for
a heart of gold, and i'm gettin' old."
Neil Young
I’m really good at
"Well I started out down a dirty road. Started out, all alone. And
the sun went down, as I crossed the hill. And the town lit up, the
world got still. I'm learning to fly, but I ain't got wings. Coming
down is the hardest thing. Well the good ol' days, may not return.
And the rocks might melt and the sea may burn. I'm learning to fly,
but i ain't got wings. Coming down is the hardest thing. Well some
say life will beat you down. Break your heart, steal your crown. So
I've started out, for god knows where. I guess I'll know, when I
get there. I'm learning to fly, but I ain't got wings. I'm learning
to fly, around the clouds, but what goes up must come down."
Tom Petty
The first things people usually notice about me
"I'm only five foot one. I got a pain in my neck. I'm looking up in
the city. what the hell, what the heck. I stare at the concrete.
The girders eye high. The steel's above me. There's love in my
eyes. And I'm doing the things, a five foot one man can do. I'm
only five foot one. I got a pain in my heart. All the night I'm
working in the amusement park. With a bottle of aspirin, a sack
full of jokes. I wish i could go home with all the big folks. And I
wish life could be Swedish magazines, I wish life could be Swedish
magazines, I wish life could be anything. I'm only five foot one,
I'm only five foot one, I'm five foot one."
Iggy Pop
My favorite books, movies, music, and food
"Old friends, old friends, sat on their park bench like bookends. a
newspaper blown through the grass, falls on the round toes, of the
high shoes, of the old friends. Old friends, winter companions, the
old men. Lost in their overcoats. Waiting for the sunset. The
sounds of the city sifting through trees, settle like dust, on the
shoulders, of the old friends. Can you imagine us years from today,
sharing a park bench quietly? How terribly strange to be seventy.
Memory brushes the same years. Silently sharing the same
fear."
Simon and Garfunkel
The six things I could never do without
"Some people seem so obsessed with the morning, get up early just
to watch the sunrise. Some people like it more when there's fire in
the sky, worship the sun when it's high. Some people go for those
sultry evenings, sipping cocktails in the blue, red, and gray. But
I like every minute of the day. I like every second. So long as you
are on my mind. Every moment has it's special charm. It's alright
when you're around rain or shine. I know a crowd who only lives
after midnight. Their faces always seem so pale. And then there's
friends of mine who must have sunlight. They say a suntan never
fails. I know a man who works the night shift, he's lucky to get a
job and some pay. And I like every minute of the day. I dig every
second. I can laugh in the snow and rain. I get a buzz from being
cold and wet. The pleasure seems to balance out the pain. And so
you see that I'm completely crazy. I even shun the south of France.
The people on my hill they say I'm lazy. But when they sleep I sing
and dance. Some people have to have the sultry evenings. Sipping
cocktails in the blue, red, and gray. But I like every minute of
the day. I like every minute of the day."
The Who
I spend a lot of time thinking about
"Bows and flows of angel hair. And ice cream castles in the air.
And feather canyons everywhere. I've looked at clouds that way. But
now they only block the sun. They rain and snow on everyone. So
many things I would have done. But clouds got in my way. I've
looked at clouds from both sides now. From up and down, and still
somehow, It's clouds illusions I recall. I really don't know clouds
at all. Moons and Junes and ferris wheels. The dizzy dancing way
you feel, when every fairy tale comes real. I've looked at love
that way. But now it's just another show. You leave em laughin'
when you go. And if you care don't let them know. Don't give
yourself away. I've looked at love from both sides now. From win
and lose and still somehow. It's love's illusions I recall. I
really don't know love at all. Tears and fears, and feeling proud.
To say 'I love you" right out loud. Dreams and schemes and circus
crowds. I've looked at life that way. But now old friends are
acting strange. They shake their heads, they say I've changed. But
something's lost but something's gained In living every day. I've
looked at life from both sides now. From give and take and still
somehow. It's life's illusions I recall. I really don't know life
at all."
Judy Collins
On a typical Friday night I am
"He deals the cards as a meditation. And those he plays never
suspect. He doesn't play for the money he wins. He doesn't play for
respect. He deals the cards to find the answer. The sacred geometry
of chance. The hidden law of a probable outcome. The numbers lead a
dance. I know that the spades are the swords of a soldier. I know
that the clubs are weapons of war. I know that diamonds mean money
for his art. But that's not the shape of my heart. He may play the
jack of diamonds. He may lay the queen of spades. He may conceal a
king in his hand. While the memory of it fades. I know that the
spades are the swords of a soldier. I know that the clubs are
weapons of war. I know that diamonds mean money for his art. But
that's not the shape of my heart. And if I told you that I loved
you. You'd maybe think there's something wrong. I'm not a man of
too many faces. The mask I wear is one. Those who speak know
nothing. And find out to their cost. Like those who curse their
luck in too many places. And those who fear are lost. I know that
the spades are the swords of a soldier. i know that the clubs are
weapons of war. I know that diamonds mean money for his art. But
that's not the shape of my heart. That's not the shape of my heart.
That's not the shape, shape of my heart."
Sting
The most private thing I’m willing to admit here
"Every year is the same, and I feel it again. I'm a loser-no chance
to win. Leaves start falling. Comedown is calling. Loneliness
starts sinking in. But I'm one, I am one. And I can see that this
is me. And I will be, you'll all see. I'm the one. Where do you get
those blue blue jeans? Faded, patched secret so tight. Where do you
get, that walk oh-so lean. Your shoes and shirt all just right. But
I'm one. I am one. And I can see that this is me. and I will be,
you'll all see I'm the one. I got a gibson without a case. But I
can't get that even tanned look on my face. Ill fitting clothes.
And I blend in the crowd. Fingers so clumsy. Voice to loud. But I'm
one. I am one. And I can see that this is me. And I will be, you'll
all see I'm the one. I am the one. I am the one."
The Who
You should message me if
"I look at you all. See the love there that's sleeping. While my
guitar gently weeps. I look at the floor and I see it needs
sweeping. Still my guitar gently weeps. I don't know why nobody
told you how to unfold your love. I don't know how someone
controlled you. They bought and sold you. I look at the world and I
notice it's turning. While my guitar gently weeps. With every
mistake we must surely be learning. Still my guitar gently weeps. I
don't know how you were diverted. You were perverted too. I don't
know how you were inverted. No one alerted you. I look at you all.
See the love there that's sleeping. While my guitar gently weeps. I
look at you all. Still my guitar gently weeps."
George Harrison