Once upon a time I was on match, I removed myself, and now I am here.... To put simply, it did not work out.
I am not sure what I am looking for. I trully wish I could say it was this or that, but to be honest, I do not know. I know that in the grand scheme of things, I want to be with someone, I want a relationship, I would like to be married.
I would like to try and date, take things slow, really get to know one another, and have either one of us be ok if we are not one anothers type. I do not want to interview you, and I dont want you to interview me, but I would rather we get to know one another by spending time together as friends, sure friends that like eachother, and want to know more.
Now I know physical is a part of it, so if you are not attracted to me thats ok, and you must be ok too if I am not attracted to you, people just like differnt things, and sadly, here on dating sites, you can only go by attraction first....
For me, its about the partnership, her and I against the world, I do not want someone to stand behind me, rather I want someone to stand next to me, and I will stand beside her as well. We should build eachother up, help one another achieve more, not knock one another down.
Most of all, I want to feel wanted. I will show you I want you, want to be next to you. Sometimes we can show it without saying it (words are nice too) let me bring you flowers for no reason, let me rub your leg while you watch tv with out asking me, let me make you breakfast before I go to work.
I also want something real. What do I mean by real? Simple, I am not going to try an impress you with anything, but rather I will show you who I am. I am someone who will open the car door for you on our first date, have you walk in the restaurant before me as I hold the door and on the second date, and even a year later I will still be doing the same. Yes, out of respect, but also because I want to. I will not take you to Taco Bell after we decide to be exclusive (unless you want too), I will continue tomorrow as it was yesterday.
I want someone who understands feels the same way I do, and treats her time, my time, and our time with respect. I want you to go out with your friends, I dont want you to give up who you are, as I am me, and I want us to support one another.
I want to share experiences, plays, musicals, movies, restaurants, martini bars, drives up the coast..... When I am at work or the drive home, and I am excited, I want to come home and share with you. I want you to share with me, share with me what excites you, what depresses you, what make you happy.
I can sit her and say I like moves, walks on the beach, candle lit dinners, breathing air, well these are the staples in life, I better like these things, you too I hope, so lets do them together!
I know I started out saying I dont know what I want, but who trully does? I want to find out, I want to try, not just sit and wish.
If I may say, I am tired of making excuses, justifying the life I live, the cars I drive. I am truly sorry if you feel I am less of a man because of what I have or do.
Well, if you made it this far, thank you for taking the time to read through a really long profile :)