It is my goal to find someone who will join me in total immersion for awhile. I no longer ask my relationships for the Forever card, but I do very much want to have one where the level of focus, love and attention I give is returned in full. I've still not experienced that. Perhaps when I do, forever will be the organic result.
The one I seek is exceptional.
If I had to select one word to describe him it would be Integrity.
He doesn't swim with the school or follow the herd.
He is kind and generous because it feels good to help others.
He whispers to animals of all kinds and talks to trees...oh wait, that's me.
He is a shapeshifter, a chameleon, able to float between realms and operate well in most situations.
He does not run in the face of danger but will stand next to me or at my back to stare it down, whatever the danger may be (or he's holding my hand tight because we've realized that this particular danger we face is going to eat us if we don't run NOW).
He's willing to put himself in dangerous positions in the first place.
He thinks for himself and has a burning curiosity that cannot be quelled by the Machine.
He resists the Machine, yet speaks Machine fluently.
He's most likely self taught but higher education may have happened.
He is hilarious and thinks everything I say is either funny, profound or full of shit.
He knows when I'm full of shit.
He is fit because it allows him to do all the fun stuff he likes to do, not just to look hot in the mirror.
He looks hot in the mirror. To me.
He loves dogs because he knows they are the true gods of the universe. (Whoever came up with the god idea was clearly dyslexic.)
He has been floating around on his own long enough to:
have healed his wounds,
refill whatever coffers were depleted after his last relationship,
have had enough casual sex to almost want to be celebate for awhile because the woman he's looking for still hasn't showed up and he's tired of the carousel of faces,
be ready to dive off the Cliffs of Insanity into the Sea of Love holding my hand.
And if this doesn't crack you up because you understand it from a personal perspective, you're too young... http://youtu.be/O8vCEg5k_d4
I am not an OMG Austin is SO Awesome person. It used to be a pretty little city with a bunch of smart privileged kids running around in burnt orange, a gaggle of super chill hippyfolk and a beautiful river turned into several lakes. It's still those things, but the recent additions (which I'm not talking about) are turning it ugly for me. Just because I live here right now doesn't mean I will forever. If you live elsewhere, you could tempt me to move. It really wouldn't be too hard if we can't resist each other. Smack into me like a magnet finding its opposite side and I'll have to move, won't I.
On the other hand, if you live anywhere in the dead zone (between urban and rural), your magnet won't work on me.
However, if you live in the midst of an urban world AND have/have access to a place in the middle of nowhere (or even better...the beach), or vice versa, you move to the top of the list immediately.
to be continued