and done again
as my life is done in watermelon sugar."
The kind of self reflection required to write a description
of myself is bringing up so many memories and also
questions and insights regarding the type of person
I am and why.
I suppose the greatest influences in my life have been
the books I’ve read; Thoreau's Civil Disobedience and
Plato’s Protagoras and The Death of Socrates being the
most important. The most beautifully written book I’ve
read is "The Painted Bird" to which Jerzy Kosinski claimed
authorship. I don’t mean to give the impression that I
am highly literate or well read as to give that false
impression may cause you to be greatly disappointed
in me, as I am in myself. To be direct, I mean simply
that I am entirely self-taught beyond high school; this
has been my biggest regret in life.
I read those books ages ago and can’t quote from them
now so please don’t expect too much. In a perfect world
I would have read all of the books I’ve collected over the
years, but, for now, they just sit neatly packed.
Writing this profile description caused me a great deal
of anxiety as I was very concerned that I might be
criticized or faulted for my shortcomings. I’m wondering,
which facet of my being can I present that would cause
me the least amount of pain and rejection? Should I talk
about my love of antiques, fine European bronzes, (of
which I have one), my lust for Chinese Imperial
porcelain, or of the years spent as a “Punk Rocker” in
Boston? Maybe I should talk about my appreciation for
fine French pastry and handmade Italian leather shoes
or should it be my love of Black Adder, Stephen Colbert,
Ernie Kovacs and Andy Kaufman? Btw, I did a radio show
at WZBC, Boston College, where I played electronic
music with live samples and care a great deal about
music as an art form.
Oh well, as I've said on many occasions, don’t allow your
life to be ruled by fear. Or to paraphrase Roy Batty, (one
of my all-time favorite film quotes), "To live in fear",
"that’s what is it to be a slave". I need to take my own
advice and so there it is, the good, the bad and the ugly.
I am obviously an eclectic person with many and varied
interests, (how cliché!). For instance, I dream of living
with some lovely gentleman, in a log cabin, off grid,
maybe somewhere in the Alaskan wilderness.
This would be the mythological land without bar codes
and micro chips. But then, in a log cabin where do you
hang the chandeliers? Is there time to go skydiving
after I’ve milked the goats? You should be thinking
"Green Acres" here.
Everything interests me, from repairing anything
mechanical, learning to play chess, obscure out of
print film, raw food, homesteading, Rife frequency
generators, current events, politics, to the machinations
of Wall Street.
I find peoples’ behavior, good or bad, to be fascinating,
(bad behavior at a distance thank you), and above all
other things value kind, gracious people who exhibit
thoughtful, RATIONAL, critical thinking. It should go
without saying that I would avoid anyone with anger
management issues, and yet I said it.
Like Elmore Silk I‘d like to “step off the edge of the map”
and like Thoreau I like to practice Civil Disobedience;
although, unlike Thoreau, I’d like to wear both my shoes,
especially the fine Italian shoes and also those "Boots
of Spanish Leather".
On the subject or religion, Protagoras, in his lost work,
"On the Gods", wrote: "Concerning the gods, I have no
means of knowing whether they exist or not or of what
sort they may be, because of the obscurity of the
subject, and the brevity of human life." That pretty much
expresses my view on the subject.
I realize now that it must be said that I am a very political animal; I am fascinated by the subject of politics and finance and could be described as an economic determinist "wanna be". That is to say that I'm not quite well versed enough on the subject to hold forth but am most certainly enthusiastic and interested in learning more. I can not be described as either "right" or "left" leaning nor am I interested in defending either political camp, I am only interested in truth seeking. That said, I absolutely can not stomach Hawks, or worse Chickenhawks, or staunch "Rash Limburger" style, ditto head Republicans. I can get quite exercised, nearly apoplectic in fact on the subjects of, politics and finance (a la Max Keiser - http://rt.com/programs/keiser-report/ ) If you appreciate Max Keiser's take on politics and finance, or read Zero Hedge, you might appreciate my viewpoint.
Phew~! Did you actually READ all of that..???
Well enough of all this nonsense, I’m off in my Yugo
to the country club to play polo with the Cabots and
the Lodges. So Tally Ho, Pip pip, and all that rot!
"I take my wife everywhere, but she keeps finding her way back."
Thank you Henny Youngman