DarkestbeforDawn
30 Harrisburg, PA
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My self-summary
Some guys have all the luck and fail to appreciate it... Others can't buy it with their own blood, sweat and tears. This site begs the question of intent and I wonder how many on here are truthful in their answer. How many know what they want, what they are willing to do to get it, and are willing to do what is necessary to keep it? I, without a doubt, want a relationship with significant other who breaks the definition of beauty in my eyes as I cause her heart to skip beats, a partner to stand beside me through thick and thin, one I can have lengthy conversations with about anything from drama at work to the mysteries of human life, one who shares the same interests and finds joy in the same things I do, but at the same time offers her own perspective and perceptions, one that can handle intimacy beyond mere sex and isn't silenced by the baggage she carries. Sadly, though I have not been dealt those cards, even worse, I now find myself in a situation where my own survival in this society out trumps my want to discover my definition of love (I'll leave it at that, I don't wanna post what's going on for all the interwebs to see) and I just don't have the resources to commit the time and energy to search for you and give you my all right now, but I leave this profile, as my beacon of hope. Should you come across this while I'm taking care what I need to take care of, I apologize for pausing my search, but I rejoice in our introduction. Please write. It does not matter what it is, whether a mere "hello", or the preface to your life story, do not hesitate. At this time I cannot offer more than conversation, but to be denied the chance to learn about your existence during my time of struggle would be a scarring regret.

Some Basics to look forward to when the time is right:
1.) I'm a stark example of an introvert. I'm not antisocial, I do not hate the general public or being with people, etc. I have a sensitivity towards social stimulation. Places I haven't been before, large groups of people, small talk for the sake of small talk or filling the silence, loud/bright places for large periods of time will over stimulate me to the point of flaring up a form of anxiety. I am a great listener, and have no problem conversing/interacting with another human being as long as it's in the right setting.
2.) I have a LONG beard. It's not sexy stubble. It's not just a beard. It's a long beard. It's soft and well maintained. It can be braided/beaded. It blows in the wind. It can be stroked without touching my chin or lifting my arms. When I wake up it's every which direction until maintained for the day just like any other long hair. If you're into beards, but not long beards, I'm sorry, but it's my inner self personified on my outer shell and will not change.
3.) I am a well rounded nerd. Yes, Ive been known to play table top and video games; yes, I am willing to cosplay or go camping to a week long medieval festival; yes, I will watch adult cartoons and anime, yes, I have referred to myself as a dwarf, but I am also active in sports and try to exercise regularly. I play defenseman/back-up goal for a Ice Hockey Team in the local beer league, Go Dammers! I like to hunt, fish, hike, and other various outdoors activities. I craft, I have turned my garage into a shop for woodworking and leathercraft which has turned into a sorta 3rd job. I am a urban gardener and grow vegetables during the growing season. I'm artistic, I have a Bachelors of Fine Arts in Graphic Design/Illustration, I love to sketch, watercolor and create ink drawings. I enjoy a variety of beer, rums, I have/know how to make my own wine. I love history, science, philosophy, and the social sciences. I will admit reading fiction is a little hard for me (I'll explain later if it comes up) but I love listening to audio books while I'm working, on a long car ride, or a rainy day.
4.) I'm 5'6", I am well aware that the tall, dark, and handsome wish list still applies to this day. I'm afraid that unless you're 5'4" or shorter, the tall aspect of that wish list won't apply for me. I will say this though. I have had a relationship with a taller woman and I have no issues with the height difference. So really, the ball is in your court at this point.
5.) I am an understanding guy and believe in closure. I know this is not the norm nowadays. Much like submitting a resume, it has become the practice that instead of actually rejecting someone and communicating that to them, we just ignore them. I fell into that practice for a little while, but I assure you, if you write to me and you're not one that warms this cold starving heart, I will still respect you enough to give you a heads up and good luck message.
6.) Home is where you heart is. If your heart is in the clouds or off in some distant land and you must go searching for it, you must quench that thirst. That's great and I wish you the best of luck. Mine is not. I come from a large family, that is extremely close, maybe not always functional at times, but still close. I have a close circle of friends that I wouldn't trade anything in world for. If you are that "one", then you wont be looking to pull up the roots I have sown, but reach as I would towards yours, to entwine yours and mine so that they may grow together instead of pulling either apart.

Latest Edit 10/2015
What I’m doing with my life
Surviving, not very well at it either, but my life boat is still afloat while I battle the seas of life.
I’m really good at
This question is rather subjective. Depends on whose judging my life up to this point.

I like to think there's a number of things I'm good at. Mainly things that allow my creative juices to flow, which could be anything from artwork to cooking.
The first things people usually notice about me
The beard...
I'm short for a guy...
I have forearms that rival Pop-eyes...
I shave my head...
I'm always wearing some type of black shirt...
I have small ears apparently.
Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food
Books:
Anything by R. A. Salvatore and the Forgotten Realm books, Anything by J.R.R. Tolkien, The early Redwall series books by Brian Jacques, World War Z, The Tao of Pooh, and A Song of Fire and Ice Series just to name a few.

Movies:
This would be a long list so I'll say I enjoy anything, but horror films. Unless, it's B rated horror films that you can sit and laugh at.

TV Shows:
Cartoons: Retro Cartoons (Anything from LooneyToons to Space Ghost: Coast to Coast to Doug.) Venture Brothers, Family Guy, Futurama, Archer.
Live Action: Scrubs, House, How I Met Your Mother, American Pickers, Game of Thrones, Glee, The Big Bang Theory.
Anime: Ai Yori Aoshi series, Gatari Series, Chobits, Clannad, Elfen Lied, Ghost in the Shell, Kanon, New Dominion Tank Police, Record of Lodoss War, Shuffle!, School Days and Venus Wars.

Music:
I'm as eclectic with music as I am movies. It all depends on my mood and the setting. It may have been a hard day at work and I wanna come home and relax so I'll put on some instrumental piano music. I may be pumping up for a hockey game and throw on some alternative/metal. I may be driving around on a nice day with the windows down and through in some "top 40" from any generation (1950-2010s). Could be sitting outside grilling and enjoying a drink and put on some Frank. It all depends. I can tell you there are some things I don't really get/enjoy. There's a lot of Rap I just can't get into, "Dubstep" is bewildering and screamer metal where it's just some angry white kids yelling at the top of their lungs...

Food:
I'll try anything once. What I don't particularly care for is food that's made to replace/taste like other food. For instance: tofu. Don't particularly care for it. Turkey bacon? Why not just have regular bacon? Likewise, I tend to steer clear of imitation meals as much as possible. Only thing I might cook in my microwave is to heat/steam vegetables. With that said, anything else is fair game, doesn't matter the ethnicity or how weird it my be.
The six things I could never do without
Other than the essentials of life: food, water, shelter, love?

A steady paycheck, an automobile, my creative side, a little imagination, logic, purpose...
I spend a lot of time thinking about
I'm all about letting people into the inner workings that is my mind. I just don't know if I want to post it for a first impression. I'm an over thinker, and at times it's actually hard for me quiet my mind. If you're interested, just ask.
On a typical Friday night I am
I technically work two jobs, one full time as a supervisor for home improvement retailer, a part time bouncer for a bar and when not at either of those I'm building furniture or decor items for sale out of wood in my garage. Friday nights... hold no more significance than a Tuesday morning or a Sunday afternoon.
The most private thing I’m willing to admit
A question worth asking is a question worth answering... but there are times when the truth is not what one person deserves and some things are best left unsaid...

Or in other words, If want to know something about me or my opinion on something, I encourage you to ask. There are difficult questions/topics out there that warrant care and tact and should be saved for a face to face conversation, or when the time is right.
You should message me if
If you can actually open up and talk about your about yourself. I understand the importance of physical attraction, I really do, but all the icing on the outside means nothing to me if the cake on the inside is rotten, poorly baked, etc...

If you can describe yourself without using the phrases:
"I like to have fun...", (don't broad-brush, what exactly is fun for you)
"I love to party..." (I love to breathe???)
"I live my life to the fullest..." (not gonna touch this one right now)
any fake adjective that adds "icious" to it (self-explanatory)
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