"Well, art is art, isn't it? Still, on the other hand, water is water. And east is east and west is west, and if you take cranberries and stew them like applesauce, they taste much more like prunes than rhubarb does. Now, uh... Now you tell me what you know."

I'm constantly changing, or trying to change, I see things that work for people in their personalities and snatch those traits for myself... I'm really a very overt combination of my circle of friends.
I wish I could be a charisma hero, someone everyone knows and loves, but that's just not what I'm currently cut out for... in time I suppose.

I'm an art student drop out of Bradley university. I took the last few years off to adjust and re-screw my head on, my mind and heart just wasn't in that hell hole.
next year I will be headed back to school at either MATC or UW Madison for business management.

I'm looking for friends primarily and a better social life... I've met several very awesome people on here and hope to meet more.

I believe in Poly and open relationships, I think they work if the people involved can get past any jealousy and fairness issues, and if rules between partners are respected.

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I am in a somewhat open relationship with Regenesis because I am terrified of total commitment (and because he's awesome).

I am living in madison and I love it so far!

also, I updated my orientation to "bisexual", which is only sorta right... I would call myself heteroflexible sooner than bi as I'm more interested in females from the waist up.

as far as a career is concerned, currently, I have no idea. I am lacking in ambition, but I think when I get to go back to school again it might come around again.... so I content myself with kicking ass and taking names, phone numbers and people's time (especially people's time).
I'm looking for geeky, fun, nerdy people to hang out with.

being nerdy and going to anime conventions and making other people go too...
playing magic again, trying to teach myself (unsuccessfully) how to build decks.

I was at one point going to open my own photo studio and a graphic design place, but at this point I'd rather own my own bar/sex shop/game store/smoking shop... any of the world's vices, except the bad drugs that get people into trouble so often.

I'm going to go to europe, starting probably in ireland and I'm going to see the whole damn place. probably in 2012, give or take a few years (and no, I'm not worried that the world will end then).

riding the bus while standing, putting peanut butter on apple slices, rolling cigarettes, packing a hookah bowl and making things that I'm cooking/trying to cook explode (yes, I have a few pretty hilarious stories relating to exploding things).

photography. people who "don't look good in pictures" look good and really cool in mine. getting and staying in trouble...I don't have the experience to know when I am in trouble and when I am not and everything seems to relate back to bad childhood experiences... I'm getting better every day that I'm away from my family (sad but true).

thinking my way around "no", getting around the rules... lying. I'm really good at spinning, distorting and fabricating truth. politics may be the place for me... politics, lobbying or espionage.. I think those would be my ideal career paths..
(yeah, it's negative, but at least I'm honest enough to come out and call myself a liar.)

politely insulting people -- er... customer service.

changing

everyone says I have great eyes upon meeting me, also that I laugh at most anything... and that I get along with everyone.

I'm not shy at all... I've been called "gregariously social" and if someone looks at all interesting I will walk right up and start a conversation. people don't scare me one bit, loneliness does.

I am very open to everyone's thoughts and opinions. even if I have a very firm opinion on a subject, I will let you talk and I will try my very best to see your side of it. I consider myself one of the best conversationalists in the county.

I'm kind of an asshole... about a lot of things. tact is only to be used with parents, teachers and holy men.

American gods by Neil Gaiman, the first of the Sleeping beauty series by Anne Roqulier (aka. anne rice), Falling Up by Shel Silverstien, the Bourne series by Robert Ludlum, Utopia by sir Thomas Moore and

star wars (the actual star wars movies... fuck you george lucas. fuck you and give me my 9 hours back!), father goose, kiss. kiss. bang. bang., the boondock saints, the 300, the mummy, marx brothers movies, zombie movies, awful horror movies, awful softcore that pretends to have a plot, anime. coraline, the man in the iron mask (an old bbc version that they had at my library years and years ago) and

instead of going to a movie I would much rather go to a play...or a comedy show... I adore live entertainment (and now I'm in the city where at least 6 places in my immediate vicinity have live music <3)

1 cup Air, 1 cup The Faint (or other electronic artists), 1 1/2 cups MSI, a pinch of Outkast or Busta Rhymes, a dash of Modest Mouse, a level tablespoon of Chopin, a shake of KT Tunstall and/or Norah Jones, a whole bag of mixed Techno (best if the bag contains Darude, GiGi D'Agostino, DJ Shadow and anything "Jappy-Happy". Stir Gently, not too vigorously, best to have chunks of everything not quite mixed evenly. make at loud constantly, chill in the stereo, cut and serve to offended bystanders. no Country, fuck country, unless it's Avett Brothers or in their style... and no matter what you say Brandi Carlile (or however she spells it) is NOT country.

other artists that may be substituted on mood; Interpol, Gorillaz, gogol bordello, Katy Perry(I'll defend her only on the grounds that she's still finding her style), Chemical Brothers, Daft Punk, some random hip-hop artists (but I'm picky), Weezer, The Smashing Pumkins (older albums)... hmmz... more, but the brain is off...

I don't like indian food, it bothers my tongue and sweet and spicy things don't get along with my nose... also, the spices just don't work for me.

I love oatmeal made with milk and raisins, apples with peanut butter, especially honey crisp apples :D, I like most fruits and I'm warming up to weirder veggies like asparagus and cabbage... I like beets too.
onions and garlic are always welcome also.

I adore shellfish, crab and fish.

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1. good conversation
2. friends
3. thought
4. memories (though memento is a really interesting movie and I wouldn't mind seeing what it is like to live without memory for a few weeks)
5. dominant sadists
6. desires
7. people who answer this question literally - it's so funny and

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masochism, my goal in life, my lack of passion for things, polyamory, failed relationships, failure in general, quotes, driving stick shifts, nifty characters in good movies, stealing personality traits, apathy: "do I care if god exists? what about politics?", being funny, turbochargers, entertaining strangers, talking to strangers, my failed attempts at working out, being healthier, work, work, work... I even dream about work, drinking, gamer havens/communes, utopia, BDSM, stupid badly spelled names, my bad credit score, being irresponsible, having too much fun, changing my mind, adapting to new situations, dodging my parents, curly hair, kittens, European accents, Russian(s), good cigarettes, pool, beautiful/fast cars, comfortable bras and sexy shoes, body hair/lack thereof, honesty in relationships, fear of honesty and its repercussions.
improving my communication skills and my ability to hold my own in an argument.
why people constantly fear offending one another, arguments, how to get the last word without being an ass about it. why people constantly follow a playful/joking statement with "haha! you know I'm kidding".

why the hell men 35+ always want to cheat on their wives with me, why the submissive ("my biggest fantasy is to have a woman tie me up, call me names, treat me cruelly and have her way with me") guys always come to me for that sort of thing... I'm so unhappy being a bedroom domme!! (which is not to say I won't talk to/be friends with subbie boys... I am just not the one you want to try to "bring out the switch" in.)

"typical" sounds boring, and my life is never boring.

I very much like going out, when monies are available. I like going to movies, plays, playing pool, bowling and all of the activities that can be even more fun when alcohol is involved.

right now I spend my friday night playing wow or some other geeky-type activity after a long morning/afternoon at work and the hour drive between there and home.

there's nothing really private with me. I'm really open, and as much as I hate seeing "if there's anything you want to know, just ask!" I feel like I can honestly say it here... though it's really over used.

the world is not enough.

I scare my co-workers sometimes.

you can carry on intelligent conversation over email, instant messenger AND face to face. (*see journal for the public posting of your failure if you do not meet the above condition... I will have a laugh at your expense if you're an idiot and think u, r u, and ur are words. trust me, they are not.*)

if you're looking for nifty people in Madison to hang out with... my interests are varied and my conversation interesting.

if you're a Dominant, (but not the asshole type who argues that their opinion is more important than my own and "always right") and looking for a fun sub to hang out with/get to know or play with.

I'm supposed to be finding submissive people to hang out with... but I feel that guy subs are really subby all the time (and that's rather annoying) and female subs aren't subby enough and tend to monopolize conversation... if you think you can change my mind about these stereotypes, please try to!

if you like import cars and sport bikes (Ford/Chevy/Harley lovers need not apply)(though I do have an appreciation for an opposing point of view to my own)

if you're cool or interesting in one way or another.

if you're shy: just do it.... it'll come easier after you try it a few times...(which is what she said)

if you're alive.

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