I'm so superficial. I never bother looking past your profile; I ignore your pictures, your messages, your pleas, all of it. In the end I judge you on hastily scraped together words printed on a poorly designed medium meant to give maximum exposure to minimal effort.

I'm so shallow. You probably would have been fun, perhaps meaningful, and enjoyable. Maybe you would have liked my company too, who can say. When it comes down to it though, all I know about you is that you couldn't live without 'food' and that you're in school. Excuse me if I feel that knowledge is redundant and meaningless.

The world is so pastel~ mix it up a little.

To and from my dear Tulavont,

You are an aspect of my imagination. You're the color green and you don't fit in my spectrum. I don't think that this is random nor is it insane, merely a palette that shouldn't bleed onto my canvas. I find your face beautiful: your glitter is something of marvel, your eyes shaped wonderfully, the rhinestones and feathers accent you perfectly. Yet all the same, your story is boring and uninspired. When you have a tale worth spinning, come back and see me. You're a cheap rip off of Black, who also says hello. I want you to be your own person.

I like your cape -- you should be a super hero. Fly amongst the clouds and prance from building to building. You're creepy. A stalker. You don't follow conventional norms as you were built to be insane. Why do you need to be insane? Working with you day to day isn't enough. I guess this is goodbye then.

I'll see you next, next friday,

T.K. le bleu

So this comes to little surprise to most of you I'm sure but it took me awhile to realize: people are boring. People are uninteresting, unthinking, and uncaring balls of mistrust. Many will never even let you in to their life because they don't think you're capable of pulling not just your weight in a friendly relation but their weight as well. Those that do try to respond reveal how very little their life has amounted to, how little they know about their world and the world, and how little they really intend to.

When the most you can come up with for your life is that you('re) going to/went to school and that you have a job or will, it's a sure sign that you're an uninteresting person.

This is problematic. These boring people will infer their insecurities on you. They will juxtaposition everything that they see as wrong in their life on your every word, even these words. Rather than turning inward for reflection or outwards for empathy, they'll just blame you and storm off with a sense of righteous indignation.

People are boring. You are not your major. You are not your job. You are not how much you have in the bank. You are not how many places in the world you've been. You are not your hobbies. You are not a lot of things but you are a person. For this reason and solely this reason, I hope that you learn what it is to be interesting; to have interests. I hope you can learn your definition so that you stop blaming the world for your insecurities and start accepting it in. Smile and give a hug; love yourself before you try to love others.

Others are not your happiness, we just share it with you.

What is beautiful? Am I handsome? I don't mean that in a shallow manner or to goad someone to pander/attack my ego, I mean that in a very serious way. I don't know and I don't understand what beautiful is. I understand what facial features make someone more handsome, more rugged, more delicate, etc. and they're easily defined too: a square jaw, distance between the eyes, size of the eyes, size of the nose, forehead exposure, depth of the cheek, size of cheek bones, and the list goes on forever.

But all of that is moot in this question. What really boggles me is how our opinions can so dramatically shift in something that's so scientific. A person can have the same face for two days and yet be defined as ugly from one angle and hot from another. One can simply change their hair length or style and they're completely redefined on the beauty-scale. Regardless of whether they as a person have changed, their static features are the same as ever. Why do we label a girl who has her hair in a bun as prudish or possibly even ugly when she could have a wonderfully set face.

The same goes for me. Some times I'm handsome, some times I'm told by everyone that I look unapproachable and like a model. The next day, people will comment on how ugly I am, gawk and make fun of me behind my back. This is not unique, it happens to many people and I'm very sorry if you're one of them. For years it made me curious if people were just giving me pity, feeling sorry for the way I looked and patting me on my shoulder to make me feel better. As I entered the relationship world I found this to not be the case and yet it wasn't stimulated solely by underlying feelings towards a person or their appearance. People seem to hit the uncanny valley at different levels depending on their own self-perceptions and their views on what beautiful is.

We do not and can not agree on what beauty is. The way our mind perceives optical signals is different from the way anyone else does. Some people are still universally beautiful in our eyes but it's not for the same reasons. When asked to compare the same super model, people listed off the same aspects but for different reasons. Her eyes because they're so big. Her eyes because they're green. Her eyes because they're accented by the nose. It is logical to accept their answers that we see the same body part and identify it differently as inferring our own answer there would be bad science.

So then what is beauty? Can I be considered handsome?

4chan is back up, there are many smiles to be had.

So I recently got my hands on the Mutants and Masterminds book which allows you to run a paper and pencil game based around superheroes or high powered humans. It's an awesome book since Dungeons and Dragons really only covers fantasy and D20 Modern doesn't handle super humans very well. The makers of Mutants and Masterminds also came out with a splat book called Mecha and Manga which has all of the rules you'll ever need to convert a cliche anime into a game of paper and pencils. That said, I wrote out a setting for the Anime/Manga One Piece because I am just about as close to the pinnacle of absolute-loserish as you can get.

Converted Wealth points into Gold into Berri's, which are the currency of the one piece world. Broke the different skill users into four categories: Civilians, Specialists, Fighters, and Scientists. Roll 2d100, 1-60 gets you a PL 1 Civilian, 61-80 a PL 1 Specialist, 81-95 a PL 2 Fighter, 96-99 a PL 1 Scientist, and a flat 100 will get you a PL 3 fruit user. As you can see, you get two with the exception of fruit users, a fruit user must either forego their first/second roll or sell their devil fruit and lose the roll that earned them that fruit anyway. Under each category are different sub-classes that you pick. So even if you got civilian twice, you can take different aspects of that class. Civilians have: Inventors, Musicians, Patrons, Crafters, Rogues, and Marines. Specialists have: Engineers, Doctors, Chefs, Navigators, Cartographers, and Clergy. Fighters are more or less the same but may go into Swordsmen, Snipers, Macemen, Improvisionists, Axemen, or Hand to Hand. Scientists: Archeology, Devil Fruits, Chemistry, Medical, Mechanist, and Experimental. Each has its own skills and abilities but detailing that took way too many pages on paper so I won't bore you with that.

Anyway, back to the point, I'm stuck pondering devil fruit users still before I fluff out the world with pirates, marines, islands, cities, trade routes, etc.. Searched desperately high and low to get some maps on the One Piece world too as they're definitely hard to come by. So Logia users, Devil Fruit users who are a single element and can change into it or create it at will, were really easy to set up. They're traditionally invulnerable to all types of damage except ones that obviously counter it (Water counters Sand, Rubber counters Lit, etc. in the anime) so their 45 Power Points are forcibly put into powers that represent this giving them terrible starting stats and skills. Zoan were also pretty easy, and they're the fruit users that turn into animals, as their 45 PP are split into 20 points of Animal Transformation and 25 into physical stats to represent the animosity that their transformation gives them. Zoan types can choose to get a power that allows them to move their stats around too, as that would acceptably represent a Zoan type jumping through multiple forms and changing different aspects of their body.

The problem really only falls into Paramecia types as they can either change their body or create but not both. They have the most freedom to choose between stats and abilities and their powers are the most free to choose from. That being said, would it be more logical for me to go through each and every one of them and assign some sort of set ability to give a general sense? Or should I leave it as open as possible? I mean, the point of paramecia is also to be as ambiguous as possible. In the anime, Kuma who has the Paw Fruit uses it to reflect damage and repel pain and people. Moria uses his shadow fruit to make zombies out of bodies and peoples shadows. The Blossom fruit of Robin allows her to bloom any part of her own body anywhere. These are not what you would anticipate and could easily represent player freedom under the guidelines and restrictions of the MnM super powers. As a note, Logia and Zoan users by default will violate the guidelines by taking more points in powers than they should be allowed to, to represent the severe boost in abilities offered by their fruit. Paramecia are generally considered the weakest despite the fact that 5 of the 7 Warlords of the sea are Paramecia users and only 1 is a Logia type.

So.. do I leave paramecia with the lightest restriction, allowing them to distribute their PP as their see fit with a mere 10 of their 45 points being forced into powers, to represent a manifestation of their abilities. After all, the fruit powers only develop as how you choose to train them. I'm not sure but I kind of like the idea of now having to research, theory craft, and assign abilities 120 entries before even getting to fluff the world out with unique characters, events, and locations. Call me lazy if you'd like, haha.

If I could be a super hero I'd be the most arrogant, superficial super hero I could be. My cape would have a gold trim and my curly blue shoes diamond studs. I'd find a way to sell my image to males ages 13-27 just to brag that I had a demographic. I'd throw money to the masses and take interviews on TV. I'd sign a contract with a network to make a reality show just about myself and purposely make it flop so that I could boast that I know first hand that Hollywood has no artistic talent. When and if I stopped crime, it would have to be flashy. I'd purposely wait until the last minute, often planting a victim on the scene to be brutalized before I stepped in to claim justice. I'd compare myself with Odin and denounce Jesus just for kicks.

And when I was done and took my mask off for the day, you still wouldn't hate me as much as you loathe some of your neighbors. You wouldn't hold me at ire compared to your old friends. Your prejudice would find more value than your distaste for my actions.

So when I picked my mask back up, I'll smile my wicked smile. That my crimes come second to your petty grudges and jealousies and as long as you can hold them, my celebrity will always be worth its salt.