Based on other people's profiles, I have a tremendous amount of text here, and I fully realize that most of you will not read it all. However, I urge you to read the results of my cacoethes scribendi. I've put a lot of energy and thought into my profile.
To attempt to synopsize, I'm a 29 year-old with a passion for words and education. I have an affinity for electronics. I am also very enthusiastic and open about sex. I love music, and usually have some playing whenever possible.
I am currently madly in love with JainDowe, and I'm lucky enough that she returns the feeling. We are nonmonogamous, and she consistently blows my mind with how amazing she is.
I have a lovable ball of black and white fur with boundless energy and a taste for feathers. Her name is Trixie - short for "venatrix," which is Latin for "huntress" - and she is the cutest kitten on the entire planet.
The more I watch her around other people, the more I realize that I am her human, as much as she is my cat. She deigns demand food from others or stand still for one or two pets. For me, she sits on my shoulders and purrs. She snuggles up near me in bed at night and follows me around during the day. She mewls piteously when I leave in the morning and greets me at the door when I return home. Truly, our meeting was fortuitous, and my life would be poorer without her.
A more in-depth description of various facets of my personality:
I am a writer. I think in words, and am fairly skilled in their use, written or spoken, to communicate ideas. I write various types of short fiction and essay. I post most of my writing to my personal website. In keeping with my love of words, I have a bit of a lexical fascination: I love obscure words, long words, and strange words.
Message idea: What's your favorite word?
I used to be libertarian, but then I grew out of my college-freshman arrogance and greed. I would now consider myself a social liberal and progressive, but favoring social capitalism as an economic policy. I used to be a strong laissez-faire capitalist until I realized that the American deification of capitalism is probably not wise or good in the long run. Fiduciary duties and duties of care do not go together in systemic providers such as health care and education.
I was, and am, ignostic. I feel that the impossible question of God's existence is preceded by an equally impossible question of God's identity. However, these questions notwithstanding, I consider myself atheist.
I am a rabid empiricist. Rational thought and the scientific method has advanced human endeavor in nearly innumerable ways. I am an enthusiastic naturalist, and identify as a Bright.
Philosophically, I am a physicalist, a naturalist, a monist, and a realist.
I am quite dominant, though I'm not particularly rude or domineering about getting my way in everyday social interactions. I'm moderately sadistic, though if one looks at my long-term relationships, one might conclude that I'm emotionally masochistic.
I'm extremely exhibitionist. I love to be watched, whether I'm being sexual, doing daily activities, or even sound asleep.
I used to be polyamorous, then I was a swinger, now I'm not sure what I am. I know that much of my life's search has been devoted to finding someone with whom I can partner, someone who is my complement. I am not sure that I will ever find such a person, should she or he even exist. In the mean-time, I seek a relationship that is open, honest, passionate, and joyful.
On the suggestion of zasu12, the shorter, less serious version of the above is: I am not polyamorous. Nor am I monamorous. I do not tend towards any style of relationship inherently. What I am is happyamorous. I seek relationships that are happy, and make all participants happy. So, be happy. Or be trying, anyway. I am.
I have been down the relationship path a few times now. There are a few commonalities:
• When I love, I love completely. I overlook flaws or personality incompatibilities, no matter how egregious.
• Once I have fallen in love with someone, I do not stop loving them, ever. I could name every woman I have truly loved, and still say with perfect honesty that I love them.
• I do not tend to fall love quickly. This is not to say that I am not passionate at the beginning of a relationship; only that it takes a while for passion to develop into what I would call love.
• I tend to fall in love with people who are unavailable to me, for one reason or another. I recognize this is a bad thing, and I'm working on it.
• When I say, "I love you," for the first time, it will always be in person.
I am a highly sexual person, and this is another field in which I've been down the path quite a few times. I've had numerous partners, and pretty much every fantasy I can realistically expect to fulfill, I've fulfilled. Curiously enough, this has resulted in a very laid-back attitude towards sex, in general. If it happens, I enjoy it immensely, but I'm not nearly as focused on it as one might think, given my history. Whether or not we can sleep next to each other and feel rested in the morning is much more indicative of compatibility and trust than the expertise with which we can trade orgasms.
The more I have explored, the more I think I may be bisexual, but it's an avenue I have not felt compelled to explore, yet. Maybe heteroflexible is the best word to use here?
Since being out of college and underemployed, I've been experimenting with body-building. The more I work at it, the more I understand that real career bodybuilders are another manifestation (perhaps a more masculine, testosterone-fueled one?) of anorexia nervosa. All the really "successful" ones say the same things: that no matter how much they work on their body, no matter how massive and ripped they get, there are always imperfections, and they train for basically their entire waking life to remove these tiny imperfections. Now that I'm employed full-time again, I've cut back on the working out, mostly happy with how I look.
I am myopic and esophoric, meaning I can not function effectively without my glasses. While either eye surgery or contact lenses could correct the myopia, the esophoria is a neuromuscular condition and must be externally corrected. The progress of the disorder appears to have been arrested by the prismatic lenses I wear, but it may resume degenerating at any time. I savor every second I can see clearly.
I am transhumanist. Having mitigated natural selection's influence on our species to nearly zero, we must now replace it with our own actions if we wish to advance. Feel free to ask me about it.
I am passionate and informed about the growing global energy crisis. Fossil fuel production is peaking, but renewable sources of energy are not being implemented in sufficient quantities or at sufficient speeds to meet current demand for energy, let alone the rapidly growing hunger we currently exhibit. The future of technological civilization is at risk, and no one seems willing to discuss it. Global climate change is obviously a huge part of this. Ask me more.
I am likewise very passionate about intellectual property law. Copyright and patents are broken in fundamental (though different) ways in our legal system, and it stifles innovation and art in ways both subtle and gross. I support movements like copyleft and open-source. I donate to the EFF. And yes, I use linux wherever possible. Ask me more.
I understand generative grammars.
I do not really like riddles. They generally revolve around hiding one or more crucial pieces of information by either leaving it out completely or using obtuse language, and are thus fairly boring. A good problem, on the other hand, can captivate me for hours. Examples of those include the Hundred Prisoner Problem and the Green-Eyed Guru. Ask me more, or propose another problem.
I've been told by various people in my life that I can be abrasive in my interpersonal interactions. I'm working on it, but you have fair warning.
One way this manifests is sarcasm. I am very frequently sarcastic. I have a very dry, cynical, and snarky sense of humor. With friends and family, I will frequently engage in a social game I call "sarcasm chicken."
I have a fairly good memory for conversations; I can often repeat conversations nearly verbatim from weeks or months ago. However, I am absolutely terrible at matching faces with names at first. I attach names as signifiers to personalities, not to appearances. Until I get to know you, I will forget your name. Frequently. Sorry.
I love Diet Coke.
I value honesty and bravery highly, and correspondingly, I despise deceit and cowardice. If you want to impress me, stand up for your principles, keep your promises, and tell hard truths. If you habitually dissemble or equivocate, I'm really not interested.
My journal can be found here. It is a very good way to get to know about me, other than, well, talking to me. You will need to register (and request access) to see much of the "juicy stuff." Please note, this is not my OkCupid journal, which I use mainly to kvetch about OkCupid's attempt to break each and every feature I like or about a particular match questions's meaninglessness, in the Ayersian sense.
Above all, I believe that happiness is something you make, not something you have. Despite the hurts I have been given, earned or unearned, I make an effort every minute of every day to be happy.
I am sardonic, concupiscent, and callipygian.