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My self-summary Propose an edit

I'm ambivalent. I hate it when I miss people I can't forgive. It pits me against myself.

Anyway, I'm not spending much time here anymore. Got tired of people thinking you have to be like them or view things from their POV to be considered acceptable. There's a difference between morality and perspective, but some people like to think that a difference in perspective means other people are immoral, and I am a little sick of that kind of dogma.

Some people think that if they are different from the mainstream culture, then they can't be conformists, but there is such a thing as subculture conformity. As the Japanese saying goes, the nail that sticks out gets hammered.

So why do I miss the person I can't forgive? Because up until the end anyway, it was a person who had been willing to consider different points of view. A person I was quite different from and yet felt 110% comfortable being myself with.

It's funny how you can surround yourself in people who you think are so much like you, but then feel an outsider because they demand conformity and loyalty to their opinions, whereas you can feel the same with someone who is quite different because the person is willing to at least consider other viewpoints. To just talk and explore what makes others think the way they do.

You would think the people who are like you would be easier to get along with, and sometimes that is true, but that is not always true. It depends entirely on the person.

The bottom line is that open mindedness is not ideological. It's just a decision people make and probably comes from emotional security as much as anything. How much do you need to believe something and whether you are sure enough to not need reassurance from everyone else.

I don't know why I am writing this. I think to just explain why I am no longer posting here much.

I feel safe with certain people from this site, but on the whole I don't feel emotionally safe here anymore.

What I'm doing with my life Propose an edit

Nothing real. I'm collecting points on neopets playing games, so I can paint my unicorn brown. It may be meaningless, but I am enjoying it.

I'm really good at Propose an edit

demanding attention and eating fried shrimp. And seeing things from a different point of view from a lot of people, it would seem.

I'm good with poetry and lyrics. With the kind help of Major Zed and Charlie at the Interrobang Cartel, there's a new song inspired by this site called Online Dating. It's meant to be funny in a snarky sort of way,

And the peace song I wrote before the war in Iraq: The Pied Piper of Crawford

Here are some of my poems I have written: Why Don't They Love Me Bitchy Girl Rant, Hostage, Don't Chat Me Up Online Dating, Insanity Confession, and It's All About Depth.

And art: Link to my art (or perhaps pseudo-art in some cases)

Otherwise I am only good at making dumb puns. And playing let's pretend.

The first thing(s) people usually notice about me Propose an edit

On OK Cupid, you probably first noticed my Self Summary.

OK, they probably notice I'm a space cadet on Cloud 9.

My favorite books, movies, music, and food Propose an edit

(a) Favorite Books: The Mouse That Roared by Leonard Wibberley, The Wit & Wisdom of Oscar Wilde (just another Oscar Wilde quote book), Lenchens Geheimnis, The Stranger, The Plague, The Lord of the Rings (to the point of refusing to see the movies lest they ruin my memories of the books), All Quiet On the Western Front, The Mouse on the Moon, Rebecca, Giant John, and anything by Michael Ende (in the original german--the translations mostly suck, except the ones I did)

(b) Favorite Movies: See My Flixster Page for a more complete list.

Comedies (mostly dry humor/ dry humour : Educating Rita, Shirley Valentine, The Distinguished Gentleman, Green Card, Antz, Romancing the Stone, Paper Moon, First Monday In October, Office Space, Galaxy Quest,About A Boy, The Ladykillers, Bye Bye Birdie, I Love You Again, My Man Godfrey, Libeled Lady, Trouble in Paradise, Coming To America, The Importance of Being Earnest, An Ideal Husband, Emma, Tootsie, Ferris Buellar's Day Off, Oh, God!, Ghostbusters, Kind Hearts and Coronets, The Duchess and the Dirtwater Fox, Bob & Carol & Ted & Alice, The Shop Around the Corner, The Nasty Girl

Mysteries: Strong Poison

Dramas: Dead Poets Society, Kolya, Eat Drink Man Woman, Ordinary People, Life Is Beautiful, The Defiant Ones, The White Balloon, Gallipoli, Hotel Rwanda, The Red Violin, Cyrano de Bergerac (french version), Amistad, Bang the Drum Slowly, Tess, Farewell My Concubine, The Winslow Boy, Not One Less, Water

Adrenaline Films: The Untouchables, The Scarlet Pimpernel (Anthony Andrews version), The Mask of Zorro, Excaliber, Romancing the Stone

(c) Favorite Music: http://www.last.fm/listen/user/szettner/playlist

DDT (particularly the songs Это все (Eto Vse), Метель (Metel), Актриса Весна (Aktrisa Vesna), Осенняя (Osennyaya), Белая ночь (Belaya Noch), Сказка (Skazka), В последнюю осень (V Poslednyuyu Osen), and Пацаны (Pacany),Beatles, New Wave, Gilbert & Sullivan (more specifically their musicals "Patience" and "Princess Ida"), Austin Lounge Lizards (their new album "The Drugs I Need" is brilliant), Tom Lehrer, The Arrogant Worms, Chumbawamba (you have to hear their "On Ebay" song), die Ärzte(specifically "Zu Spät" and "Männer Sind Schweine" are quite funny), Moody Blues, Men Without Hats, Mark Russell, Men At Work, Leinemann, Rush (specifically the Moving Pictures and Signals albums), Weird Al, Napolean Boulevard, Ewan MacColl (specifically "The Ballad of Accounting" and "Nuclear Means Jobs"), Hugh Blumenfeld ("The Long Haired Radical Socialist Jew" and "George the III"), Lemon Demon, Herman's Hermits, The Byrds, Enya, John D. Loudermilk, and The Bangles

(d) Favorite Food: Lasagna, Lamb Korma (कोरमा), Tikka Masala, Pad Thai, Chili Cheese burger (The way they make them in San Antonio), Fried Shrimp or Mussels, Meatball Sandwiches, Turkey with cornbread dressing (The way Mom makes it!!), Wienerschnitzel (with pork loin--I may be a carnivore, but veal is unnecessary), Bratwurst (No sauerkraut, please!), Fried Calamari, Falafel, Kibbeh Maklieh, Sri Lankan Rolls, Egusi Stew, Taromasalata (when it's a good batch and not too greasy), and when I am really being naughty I like spreading Kaukana port wine cheese on a croissant, and how about hungarian langos with cheese on top....Mmmmmmm....

I almost never eat candy, but when I do, I really like Reeces Peanut Butter Cups or a Hershey's chocolate bar with almonds. I also like really dark chocolate, particularly if it's soft chocolate and not too sweet. (How about Green and Black's Bittersweet Dark Chocolate? Wish it came with almonds in it.)

(e) Favorite Proverb: "At the end of the game, the pawn and the king go back in the same box."

(f) Favorite TV Shows: Dr. Who (particularly the Tom Baker regeneration), The Avengers (With Diana Rigg), Remington Steele, Star Trek (original series), Ironside.

(g) Favorite Cartoon Strip: Calvin and Hobbes

(h) Favorite TV Cartoon: The Simpsons

(i) Favorite Writers: Michael Ende, Albert Camus, J.R.R. Tolkien

(j) Favorite Artists: Jean-Paul Avisse (particularly Erupting Forces, Inner Reflections, and Fortitude), Jean Baptiste Simeon Chardin (particularly Soap Bubbles, Boy Playing Cards, and A Game of Billiards), Francesco Hayez (specifically The Kiss), Michelangelo Caravaggio (specifically Narcissus)

(k) Favorite Beers: Shiner Bock, Kirin Ichiban, Monteith's Golden Lager, Mac's Gold, Ayinger Bräu-Weisse, and Fat Tire Amber Ale

(l) Favorite Activities For A Fun Evening or Day: Kareoke, Pool and Snooker (although I suck),Ping Pong, Video Game Arcades (that have things like Pacman, Tetris, Air Hockey, Target Shooting, and Pinball), and Dancing (to 80s music), playing card games (like Hearts, enjoyed Bridge and Euchre the few times I got to try them. Canasta is ok), multicultural festivals, kite flying, playing sports with someone who is extremely tolerant for how terrible I am at them, canoeing, water parks, recording music (or other forms of creativity), and activities I haven't tried before are usually cool. I don't seek danger though. Eating out at a restaurant I haven't tried is always fun; I adore eating out.

(m) Favorite Season: Summer

(n) Favorite Color: Slutty metallic scarlet red

The six things I could never do without Propose an edit

Six things I could never do without: 1) the ability to express myself 2) access to decent transportation 3) humor 4) personal space 5) creativity and 6) My mom (I'm going to be so fucked up when she dies some day.)

Six things I could never do without IN A PARTNER: 1) Openness and Honesty 2) Sense of Humor that is similar to mine 3) Accessibility and Friendship 4) Intelligence 5) Empathy, Compassion, and Emotional Maturity 6) Equality and Respect

I spend a lot of time thinking about Propose an edit

how people do and think things assuming they are right, when they are not right, but they never figure it out. And even if they do, they inevitably figure it out too late. But they fuck up good things in the process and half the time other people end up paying for their sins.

And how they rationalize EVERYTHING and assume they are infallible. But then people like that usually hedge their bets, so I suppose from their point of view they can't possibly lose.

On a typical Friday night I am Propose an edit

watching Jay Leno. It's the only tv I watch these days, and mainly just the beginning.

The most private thing I'm willing to admit here Propose an edit

I care more about people understanding me than they usually care to understand me. The word privacy doesn't mean much to me. Secrets don't mean much to me. Except lately...having your trust betrayed kind of shuts you down a bit.

But usually my excessive openness limits who wants to understand me to either people who can't understand me or those who find honesty refreshing.

Also, I have no interest in Casablanca, the Coen Brothers, Amelie, Tom Hanks, The Princess Bride or how far Lola can run. I rarely watch TV, but I do like experimenting with movies based on recommendations or trying things out that people with similar tastes enjoy, which is easier said than done. I can enjoy adult cartoons, but animation does not compensate for a bad script or a lack of plot. In other words, I'm fussy, fussy, fussy!

I like what I like, and if I don't like it, then I don't like it. And I don't hold much stock in "acquired tastes."

You should message me if Propose an edit

Let me eliminate some people first. I don't think much of right wing lunatics (in other words, anyone who can still be a Republican after 8 years with Bush), left wing single issue moral purists (in other words, people who love to think they are morally more pure than everyone else for usually trivial reasons)[Definition of a fanatic: someone who can't change their mind and won't change the subject], someone who is proud of their sarcasm (to them I say bite it), and people who don't believe in relationship equality.

I do think well of people who opposed the war in Iraq, who consider being creative and artistic important, who value the individualism of people, who think diversity is usually cool, who enjoy ironic humor, and who are either optimistic or are struggling against their cynicism.

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