I am smart, like, smart smart, smart in a way that is generally regarded as highly egotistical. I don't acknowledge it frequently because that's an asshole thing to do. Instead I will make obscure references and metaphors to things that you have probably never heard of, but I will act as if you do because I don't want to think that I know more than you necessarily.
I hate myself. It's a hatred borne of an alchemical mixture of upbringing, shit luck with girls (ahem), and a need to remain humble (not exactly good at it). And this hatred leads to a very important thing about me.
I am utterly ruthful, overly empathic and selfless to a fault.
And I consider those all to be detrimental traits.
Some people do the whole "I care too much" as a backhanded weakness, for me it is a genuine weakness, I care too much and I try too hard, and consequently I alienate a lot of people by my overbearing kindness and intense personality. There is no mystery to me, which is of course, for whatever reason completely a turn off.
I am not epically attractive, that isn't to say i'm not attractive, but I'm not attractive to warrant attention on here.
I am a FEMINIST, for sure, I believe in gender equality and evening out of gender roles in modern societies. On a more general note I believe that people should be judged by the contents of their characters, but it would be racist for me to deny the histories associated with dominated subgroups.
I consider myself Hindu (Hinjew, technically) and take it seriously, I do not believe I am right and I respect every belief system and path, but if you think you're path is the only one there will be problems. Every person's journey should be treated with respect.
I indulge in arts endlessly, I want to be an artist, I want to write like James Joyce and make music as shatteringly beautiful as Nick Drakes, I want to make movies with cinematographic and emotional Nuance of Andrei tarkovsky and I am working my way to that point. I am ambitious to a fault and I make no apology for it.
So where does that leave you?
Well, you can visit my profile, be turned off by my self assessment and never the twain shall meet, the majority of my viewers are people I message. I am not going to be upset by rejection, I'm too used to it to give it credence.
Or you can visit my profile and develop an interest on some level in me, get taken into a world that is intense, polite, and constantly spontaneously moving. I know who I am and I accept it freely, I don't know you, but I accept you whoever you are, because that is my belief, one I stick firmly to.
I am not being humorous for once, because even though humor is important to me, it is not helping my cause. And honestly, probably neither does this, but whatever.
Few more notes: I am a chatty cathy, if you start talking to me I willl talk back to you a lot, it doesn't mean I'm necessarily super into you, it just means I talk a lot and like making friends.
I am deeply self deprecating and extraordinarily sensitive, I will take what you say seriously and I will adjust accordingly or get deeply embarrassed if I make an ass out of myself.
My proclivities are anti-thetical to attractive (I smile a lot, i'm not sullen, i'm not mysterious) but I am not going to adjust them so I can make somebody like me.
That was a lot, why not read the rest of my profile? Or skip this all and read it, or something else.