I wonder where i am, this place all around me. Its hazy with the fog of self doubt and apathy. Its wonderous and frightening at the same time, swirling with subtle moods and dreams which blink in and out. Some pop into existance and some dissapear for ever.
It makes me wonder what comes next, im frightened, im scared of the change. I reach for the trailing streams of my lost dreams wailing as they dissapate. The coalesing vapors sifting through my fingertips.
What am i to do lost in this limbo of indesicion and insecurity. This gray waste of never was and might bes. Why am i here, what do i do to escape, do i wanna escape or is it just a passing storm fogging my veiw. Are my dreams tangible or are they idealistic delusions. Does any one share my doubt do they stand in this paradox of emotions, inches from me unseen and unseeing, tempted by the passing brightly colored vapors that flash out and then are gone insubstantial and fleeting. I  cant be the only lost, i need a guide  but can the lost lead the lost or are we doomed to tred the path of the blind leading the blind.
Why am i here, is it the folly of my own heart, the ficklness of my own emotions, the subtlety of my thoughts, do they lead me astray or is this the true path, a test in the grand scheme of life.

I dont know and i wonder....