Her journal posts
Feb 27, 2009
I have to come out and say it: I both love and hate my job.
Lately, however, it's tipping more towards hate, so I am happy to
say I won't go back to work for another five days!
I am going to San Francisco until next Wednesday, and I am not
going to think about anything related to hospitals, mental illness
or psychotropic medications until I'm dragged back to my job next
Thursday. This calls for celebration!
Feb 21, 2009
Just got home from a party at a bar, and I am painfully realizing
that my social skills have grown rusty...I used to be able to make
conversation with anyone, but a few months of being a sort-of shut
in have rendered me slightly crippled. Boy that's an embarrassing
thing to post publicly, but there you have it. Making drunken
conversation doesn't seem as easy as it used to be!
Feb 19, 2009
Anyone else a fan of Top Chef? I love it. I don't normally like
reality shows, but Top Chef is a delightful exception.
Unfortunately, the past season has been introducing slightly more
of the typical reality show douchbaggery that we've come to expect
of lesser shows like "The Apprentice" or "Big Brother." That said,
nothing is better for foodies than seeing a group of passionate
professionals facing inordinate challenges week after week under
the scrutiny of some of this country's finest chefs. And a finale
in New Orleans? I'm in heaven. I love lots of different kinds of
food-Indian, Japanese, Indonesian-but Creole is one of my absolute
favorites. I could eat mudbugs and grits all day long (bad news for
my circulatory system).
Feb 17, 2009
I just got some bad news, namely it's going to be a while before I
can sit for my licensing exam for private practice (despite working
in the field for more than two years, I have not obtained the right
number of hours of supervision required by the state). I am
disappointed, as I have planned a lot around getting this license.
However, it's a bit freeing--I feel like I have more opportunities
for growth now, strangely enough. Still, it's a bit of a kick in
Feb 16, 2009
I'm sure many of you have experienced unrequited love. It happens
to everyone. But what about unrequited hate? I've never been told
that I was hated by anyone (although I am sure there have been some
people who simply chose not to say one way or the other). Today,
however, someone (specifically, someone I broke up with a while ago
and, therefore, someone who has good reason to dislike me) told me
that he hated me. It didn't phase me one bit, mostly because I do
not hate him. I actually like him--I just don't want to be with
him. No nasty words were ever exchanged, no nasty fights, just the
end of an era. It's a case of unrequited hate. Again, I think we've
all been there. I've felt hatred that was not returned, and I have
realized that, like unrequited love, it is a waste of energy and a
tragic feeling to have. After all, if you hate someone and that
person doesn't mind, the hate is a complete waste of emotional
resources. It doesn't hurt my feelings (after all, his anger is
natural and understandable)--it just is. So if you hate someone who
doesn't hate you back, don't let that hatred consume you. After
all, what purpose does it serve?
Feb 14, 2009
I'm watching the original "Bedazzled" from 1967 starring Dudley
Moore and Peter Cook. It features the Devil as a rather colorful
character, as many films do, and it got me to thinking: why is the
Devil so easy for people to see in film, but God is so much
trickier? Perhaps it is because we all relate to the Devil because
he/she just seems so much more human. Or maybe because God is so
valued that he/she/it is just beyond depiction. For a human to
emulate the Devil makes sense, but for a human to emulate God?
Well, I guess we're just not as okay with that on some level. The
Devil is fun, sin is interesting...virtue is just a bit too boring.
And yes, I did see "Bruce Almighty," but I wasn't really a fan. In
Judeo-Christian faith, the Devil is not supposed to be God's equal,
and maybe that has something to do with it, too.
Feb 13, 2009
I just got home from work and now I am sitting at home, drinking a
beer and watching Guy Richie's latest flick, "Rocknrolla." I have
to say it's pretty good, considering the crap he put out while he
was married to Madonna. It's snowing again and I'm hoping that it
won't stick. Perhaps it would have been more appropriate for me to
go out and see the latest "Friday the 13th," but I'm a purist...I
don't understand why everything has to be remade these days. I miss
the good old days when an unknown post-coital Kevin Bacon got
stabbed through the neck in the counselor's cabin. I miss the days
when Starsky & Hutch was just a crappy TV show. Then again, I
love the new Battlestar Galactica so what do I know?
Feb 9, 2009
I'm re-watching Joel Schumacher's fabulous 80s teen vampire flick
and it still holds up. Sure, it's kind of angst-ridden and
Echo-and-The-Bunnymen-laden, but that's not necessarily a bad
thing. It doesn't make a huge contribution to vampire lore (except
for the whole half-vampire, head vampire thing) but the images of
Jason Patrick eating maggots and the two Coreys shoving vampires
into bathtubs full of holy water will forever set my heart aglow.
Jan 26, 2009
Fellow residents of Chicago and other frigid locales, I know you
know what I mean. I go out on my back porch, attempt to walk down
my stairs and face impending doom. The inches of snow we had some
weeks ago have melted and refrozen into a silent sheet of death.
It's making me even less likely to want to leave my apartment...I'm
not typically an agoraphobic person, but January is pushing me in
Jan 25, 2009
I have never posted a journal entry on this site, but here we
I am watching the original "Sabrina" from 1954, one of my all-time
favorite films, and I cannot get over how much I can relate to it,
even today. Looking back at history, it was a film considered for
numerous Academy Awards (best actress, costumes, director, and
more). It's not often that you see a romantic comedy up for awards
these days--maybe "Shakespeare In Love," but I thought that was
greatly overrated. And how often do you see romantic leads attempt
suicide in the first act of a romantic comedy? Not often. It might
be old, but this film has everything, including a great performance
by Audrey Hepburn. So if you're looking for something to do on this
frigid evening, take a gander at "Sabrina." You won't be