I am lying, in the gutter, and looking at the stars.
My Self-Summary
My respect for
Nudie Cohen is boundless. I'm
synaesthetic... I like to call myself a
synaesthete but
that's an affectation, not the technical term. I'm always surprised
by what I get excited by. I like the finer things in life - like
fur stoles and Godiva chocolates and really really expensive
tattoos - but I can and will wrestle flatpacks AND WIN.
I like being made to laugh, and making people laugh. That's pretty
top-notch. And drawing tiny pictures, and being at the top of very
high trees, and kissing in places where I'm not strictly meant to
be.
I seem to be going through some very extravagant high-femme phase,
which I LOVE, although it's a bit baffling. My ideas about gender -
hmmm. In relation to myself, I'm quite happy to use "femme" as an
adjective, but never a noun. That's not me. As a label I find it a)
limiting and b)
far too much to live up to. As long as you
don't turn up with any preconceived notions about my tree-climbing
abilities/creepy-crawly fear threshhold/sexual role, we'll be cool.
What I’m doing with my life
I'm pretty pleased with my life really - although v surprised to
find myself in the 3rd year of my degree. If you know where all the
time has gone, please pat it on the head and send it back to me,
yes? I adore my course. It makes me very, very happy. My
wankfodder right now is a great big stack of postgrad prospectuses.
Prospecti.
On the side, I set up a magazine with my best friend. It folded (ah
ha ha ha, industry joke, lovey), but it was fun. Now I run a
kunst-und-wunderkammer in my home. Oh, and I run a Very Good gay
night at Shoosh on wednesday nights - if you're ever in norwich,
you should come! I'm learning to DJ...
I’m really good at
being mindblowingly thick (despite really being quite intelligent).
Witness my first encounter with a camera phone: "Wha-? It's me! but
how did...? Is it a mirror? I don't understand!"
Buying books. Oh,
it's nice to be given them, but to my mind there is no greater
pleasure than wandering through Waterstones with a fistful of
book tokens and deciding on what I'm going to learn today.
(I'd rather go to some used bookshop, but they don't do vouchers do
they? More's the pity.)
The first things people usually notice about me
I'm not people. You'll probably have to find that one out for
yourself.
My favorite books, movies, music, and food
Books
The following is not meant to be some sort of definitive rundown of
my Best Evers; I read way too much for that. I'll just tell you
what I'm reading at the moment, k?
11 Kinds of Loneliness - Richard Yates
Alias Grace - Margaret Atwood
Persepolis - Marjane Satrapi
... but I'm mostly swamped by dissertation research - which is
fortunate, because I really enjoy it. I like Danger and
Purity (Douglas); Female Masculinity by Halberstam;
The Social Life of Things by Appadurai; Gell's Art and
Agency. Yes yes yes yes yes. I rather enjoy that my academic
stuff necessitates my reading loads of Califia and erotica, and
pawing through the Drag King book.
Movies
My housemate is a film buff, but I make my own little forays into
that side of things. I liked that Black Cat, White Cat thing
- and Casablanca, Moulin Rouge, Withnail & I, If..., Secretary,
Edward Scissorhands. And there are moments when all I want is
Clueless.
Music
I used to be a music buff, but I'm not any more. I never
thought I'd say this - but I just no longer feel that an in-depth
knowledge of every B-side and demo tape some musician made with
their other band is necessary to appreciate a random pop track.
After years of teenage fanaticism, I'm pretty cool with just
enjoying a song for what it is. Here are some tracks I like. Read
into them what you will.
Asobi Seksu - Thursday
Bat For Lashes - I'm on Fire. It's sex on legs, and I do
like anything that gives a nod to Springsteen. Some of his early
stuff moves me so so deeply, and I think this cover is
extraordinary.
Os Mutantes - A Minha Menina - reminds me of this summer,
skiving work en mass to drive around Williamsburg.
The Postal Service - Such Great Heights - an
end-of-the-evening track from my first glorious year at uni. When
the party's gone home and you're all in a heap with your stoned,
sleepy, cosy best friends, and you've forgotten that tomorrow
morning there'll be a world out there again.
Joe's Head - Kings of Leon. The whole of Youth and Young
Manhood was a truly perfect album. I thought so at 16 and I still
think it now. Santogold's album is the same. Just top-notch,
flawless, delicious, perfection.
I like almost everything on Robyn's most recent album
too.
I like Prince, David Bowie, Laura Marling, T.Rex, Kitty
Daisy and Lewis... obviously much of Bob Dylan's work is knitted
into my soul (everyone has to have that phase sometime,
right? And it never leaves you.), Transformer-era Lou Reed feels
like a really good friend of mine. I love the Mystery Jet's version
of Young Love. Love. It.
This is some, not all. It's probably not even that representative.
If you don't spot your favourite band on here, don't give up
hope.
Food
Oh, anything I cook myself. Or have cooked for me. But I'm big on
the cooking - it's something I think is important. Not in any
particular highbrow way, but knowing how to cook really lovely
stuff with really decent ingredients is a bit of a good skill to
have.
At this moment in time, I'm going to say my favourite food is
minestrone. I just made a vat of it for me and my poor sore,
hungover housemates, to apologise to our bodies for all the abuse
we've subjected them to... it's heaving with red onion, red pepper,
leek, cabbage, kidney beans, mushrooms, and squirly pasta. Made
with vegetable stock, with pesto and cheese and crispy bacon served
separately, so it can be vegan if people feel that way. It tastes
like GOD.
My blood sugar levels are absolutely shitey, so I'm also
experimenting with how best to manage that... so far, the answer
seems to be baked beans. Although I do like my chocolate.
I spend a lot of time thinking about
Anything and everything. Boredom is the enemy. I am a hoarder, not
only of physical things (oh yes, Boyzone annuals 1996-2001) but of
information as well. The most important thing right now is to
collect as much knowledge as possible - I'll decide what to do with
it later.
To this end, I spend a lot of time thinking about bog people,
maritime art, the Gaelic presence in 19th-century Quebec, great
Regency actresses, Grinling Gibbons, the Greek myths, knitting,
tattoos, Oscar Wilde, how to get money, and new Snood strategies.
The most private thing I’m willing to admit here
In times of stress, I've been known to write emotional letters to
dead celebrities.
You should message me if
you don't find that weird.