i'm a humanist, meaning i oppose religion for myself on the basis that it undermines the importance of the individual spirit. i think you should be able to congratulate yourself for a good deed, and not be able to blame anyone but yourself when you screw up. this has led me to a relatively unobtrusive outlook in life. i don't care what you do, as long as it doesn't doesn't harm either of us considerably. the only things i would stick my neck out to stop someone from doing are suicide, starting addicitve drug use, losing control to any addiction, self mutilation, things of that type of severity. even in those cases, i know that there's not a whole lot i can do to stop you, other than try to appeal to your sense of reason or your respect for me, if you have either of those things. on a lighter note, just think of it this way; you do you, and i'll do me.

i *love* the scent of patchouli, satya sai baba nag champa and super hit. i love to buy interesting new incense off the internet, like nippon kodo or baiedo, but i still prefer the old smell of nag, it's like a security blanket for me. it's a sentimentality thing. my room smells strongly like an edgy 'organic clothing and foods' store or something, which is ironic, because those kind of places seem cool but a little pretentious to me. fucked up, but true;if i could shoot nag champa smoke out of my ass, i would never wear pants. i'd walk around half naked whilst making the world smell like effing happiness.

i *need* to have music playing, whenever possible. i need a girl whom i am attracted to be be very passionate about music for things to progress. she doesn't have to like the same kinds of music, it helps but i honestly just love to see passion directed at music. speaking of being passionate about music, i am. i have very broad, eclectic tastes; hardcore punk, post-hardcore, emo, indie, DnB, singer-songwriter, etc. obviously there's a 'rock' bent to it, but i'll also listen to anything you throw at me, at least once. i really just like music that has a profound message, one i can identify with; i happen to be something of a hopeless romantic, so i tend to identify with the post-hardcore stuff that happens to be relatively 'pop' right now. but to be perfectly honest with you, i was listening to atreyu back in the days of visions and alkaline trio when they made goddammit. for some reason, that matters to a lot of people. if i started liking MCR or decided to start listening to limp bizkit again, i don't care if you think that's lame. i will be glad when i stop getting jaded eye-rolls from 'cool kids' for listening to what i happen to like, though. i can put any death cab for cutie album on repeat and listen to it all day, that goes for ben folds five, stars and postal service, too. i guess i would be really into a lot more bands you've never heard of if their were any kind of local music scene where i live, but there isn't one. as it is, i just get sneered at by snotty scenesters. life, right?

i love my friends like family, because i'm not particularly close to my real family. i think my mother is a hypochondriac, and my father is the most emotionally distant person i've ever met. my little brother is just like the combination of both of them, whereas i have instinctually become their opposites. i adamantly refuse even aspirin for fear of becoming like my mother, and i wear my heart on my sleeve for fear of acting like my father. the fact that i would tell all of you perfect strangers these things proves it. i would do anything for a friend, even though i know a lot of them would never even say the same for me. that's fine, it's not something you are allowed to expect, as far as i'm concerned.

i love to talk to people who will sit and read all the way through the crazy things i write about myself, so send me a message and i promise i'll be interesting for at least a couple of lines of chat.

at this point, i'm going to be honest with you, i don't know what the fuck i'm doing with my life, other than going to a shitty school, hating every minute of it, wishing i was writing for a living, and using swear words on the intarwebs.

most videogames, which is great since it helps me find *sooo* many nice girls. i'm not good at being sarcastic *at all* being a nice guy; i take pride in being that guy that notices that you cut or dyed your hair, or that you got new colored contacts. wasting half of a day writing something i'll never show to anyone else.

it used to be my hair, but i cut most of that off because i was tired of being reduced to 'that kid with long hair' the first thing i notice about you is your charming sense of humor - that's what sara tells me, lol. you stand out to me because you care about people, and you let them know and you show them, and it's not fake, you really mean it, even when you don't have a good reason to anymore - another sara i know a lot of sara/h's

(a) Starship Troopers, I Am Legend, The Giver, All My Sons (b) Garden State, Lost In Translation, White Oleander, 21 Grams, Closer, The 25th Hour, Boondock Saints, Battleship Potemkin, Reservoir Dogs, The Godfather (c) Thursday, Stars, Atreyu, Death Cab For Cutie, underOATH, Ben Folds Five, From First To Last, Postal Service, Senses Fail, Nirvana, The Bravery, Louis XIV, The Strokes, Dropkick Murphys, Creedence Clearwater Revival, Jimmy Eat World, Armor For Sleep, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Blink 182, Weezer, Get Up Kids, Thrice, Alkaline Trio, dieselboy, Pendulum. this is by no means a complete list, only 25 bands i like. (d) I adore italian food, like baked ziti, or lasagna with lots of fetta cheese; mostly pasta dishes. i also really like spicy food, but asian is the best. kung pao beef and general tso's chicken are the shit.

My friends. music. beautiful girls. air, water, etc. A PC or laptop. something to read, a shampoo bottle if necessary. triethylthala-what?

the well-being of the people i care about, but most of all one person in particular. Detroit Red Wings Hockey. Music, if it's not physically playing, i'm humming it or singing in my head. my self; as in my personality, my decisions, my beliefs, my desires, and the roots of all those things. the blacks and whites and greyish areas of life; love, anger, regret, faith, etc. i'm an armchair philosopher. minus the armchair.

if there's a wings game, i'm definitely watching that. after that i'm sitting with my drunk friends in someone's basement or backyard, sober as hell, until ~3am or so. if there were any clubs or bars or any other places to meet new people around here, i'd be doing that. but there aren't any, so i'm probably not.

i have VERY few secrets. i strive very hard to not do anything i wouldn't want to admit to, and to become more comfortable with the things that embarrass other people. i'll indulge you though...

i like to be bitten HARD, and to bite back when i have sex, or even just as foreplay. how's that for off the wall and surprising?

you've actually read any of this shit. if you like a band i listed above, or are insulted that i left agood band out of the list above. as long as you're not going to be a snobby scenester about it. you want to talk about the injustice of my being unable to watch Detroit hockey games in kansas. you are looking for someone to talk to on IMs. i'm always signed on, and i'll talk about anything, really. you're hot. what? i'm not gonna pretend i get no satisfaction from talking to a pretty girl.

you should message me with romantic intent if: you are sweet. you like to smile when you're happy, and you cry when you're really sad. you want to be loved as much as you can love. you like to hold hands and cuddle and watch sappy movies and all that other shit that sounds dumb when you're not with someone, but means the world when you are. you bite... hard.