A complete mess.... Run! I'm not sure what to really do with this
dating thing, let alone online dating. It took a lot of battles to
make it as far as I have. My mom got pregnant with me at 15 as a
runaway. Had me at 16. Had two more kids with the same guy by 18.
Despite her best effort she was lost and for good reason. That
didn't make for a very stable childhood. I grew up fast. I remember
life down to about 3 years old. The saving grace through all that
was my mother loved The Lord and raised me to. That one twist in
the story is what gave me strength to hold on despite the
circumstances. I've lived life in extreme ways. I don't experience
fear like most people do. I walked on the outside of the freeway
overpass, hanging from the green fence... All the way across and I
was in the third or fourth grade. I would run across the freeway,
stopping on the lines if cars got to close (70mph can hurt if you
don't do everything exactly right!)... I did all that in elementary
school. I believed I had the mental power to control fear and make
my body act as I wanted it to, regardless of how much adrenaline
was pumping through my system. That lead to my twenties where I got
into tons of fist fights. I wasn't a bully.. I was the guy doing
the bully beat-down. I hated people who abused others. Gang
members, thugs, bullies, guys who hit girls, anyone being violent
or threatening violence towards someone would cause me to fight
them regardless of numbers. The same control over fear, allowed me
to think as I fought; allowing me to always win. I didnt believe
anyone or any number of people could stop me. My family and friends
were scared to go out with me becuase I could do anything. Then at
28 God broke me. He reached into my heart and crushed me. I wont
explain all the details of that on here, but It was a very
devistating. I believe it was the only way God could stop me. In
time my heart grew to seek God again, but that day no doubt marked
a turning point in my life. I still have the mind of a warrior, but
the gloves have been put up as I try to love in this next phase of
my life. God says if we love Him with everything and each other
like we do ourselves, then we've fulfilled all He commands of
us.
I'm very entrepreneural, but I can't get past Jesus telling people that if they store up their treasures on earth, that's where their treasure will be. This earth is empty! All of it. I've experienced easy money... Empty. I've experienced easy women... Empty. I was the toughest guy around, and not because I used weapons... I used my fist. Still all empty. At least that part of my life gave innocent people a little protection from the punks. But still, like Salomon said, it's all like chasing after the wind. Your house, the value of your cash in the bank, the car you drive... It can all be gone and what will you have left?
I'm not normal... I don't want normal. I want to pursue whatever God wants for me and hopefully find a women who can deal with the type of person I am. I'm not easy, but I'm worth it. My extreme up bringing has made me extreme.. In a mellow way (I hate drama). I will smuggle Bibles into China if that is where God calls me. I don't care as long as when I'm done, I get a hug from God! In some ways I'm completely broken and you should run... In other ways my brokenness is my strength. It's why I know how to love in a very real way. It's why, with my warrior spirit, I can humble my heart to my Creator.
I'm trying to be real about what you're getting with me. If you want a 9-5, groundhog's day, existence... Skip right past me. If you want a man you can love and nurture... I need that (didn't get a lot of affection growing up). You'll melt me and I'll do anything (within God's will) to make you happy. That's it! Ask if you wanna know more.
I'm very entrepreneural, but I can't get past Jesus telling people that if they store up their treasures on earth, that's where their treasure will be. This earth is empty! All of it. I've experienced easy money... Empty. I've experienced easy women... Empty. I was the toughest guy around, and not because I used weapons... I used my fist. Still all empty. At least that part of my life gave innocent people a little protection from the punks. But still, like Salomon said, it's all like chasing after the wind. Your house, the value of your cash in the bank, the car you drive... It can all be gone and what will you have left?
I'm not normal... I don't want normal. I want to pursue whatever God wants for me and hopefully find a women who can deal with the type of person I am. I'm not easy, but I'm worth it. My extreme up bringing has made me extreme.. In a mellow way (I hate drama). I will smuggle Bibles into China if that is where God calls me. I don't care as long as when I'm done, I get a hug from God! In some ways I'm completely broken and you should run... In other ways my brokenness is my strength. It's why I know how to love in a very real way. It's why, with my warrior spirit, I can humble my heart to my Creator.
I'm trying to be real about what you're getting with me. If you want a 9-5, groundhog's day, existence... Skip right past me. If you want a man you can love and nurture... I need that (didn't get a lot of affection growing up). You'll melt me and I'll do anything (within God's will) to make you happy. That's it! Ask if you wanna know more.
