I'm always on a quest of self improvement, personal growth, and challenging my own belief systems. With hope that will benefit us both. I think men over 50 simply desire a lot less drama.
I'm sincerely, authentically accepting, and non-judgemental, while simultaneously preternaturally, absurdly passionate about what I believe in. It sometimes results in surprising shifts in my personality (as well as me interrupting, which I'm trying very hard to stop). I loathe injustice. Vervain is my Bach Flower Remedy. You'll need to really dig this about me, or I'll probably drive you crazy.
I've been told I'm a little weird, but in a good way. You'll need to think so if this is going to work. Tiffany described ME, in "Silver Linings Playbook": "There will always be a part of me that is dirty and sloppy, but I like that, just like all the other parts of myself."
I'm a Sapiosexual. My interests include the study of Buddhist philosophy; the attraction to the body instead of the spirit; the ego versus the heart; the biochemical and anthropological relationships between men and women; the release of oxytocin that presents itself as "falling in love," then several months into a relationship, the release of dopamine (more supportive and authentic, yet less passionate love) and how to keep the passion alive. How shame -- the feeling that there is something wrong with us -- gets in the way of speaking freely to our partners. How our attachment to the outcome of a relationship creates a fear which changes the energy of a relationship.
I'm interested in the differences between men and women. Spoiler alert -- men and women ARE different, and it helps to honor those differences. As David Deida says, women are not liars; our words are expressions of our feelings and the nuances of the present moment. What we say is like a cloud passing in the sky: well formed, coherent, and unrecognizable moments later. The feminine essence is emotion and love.
Are you exhausted yet? Then please, with all due respect, move on, because I may very well be too much for you. But, if you find yourself intrigued by the challenge, excited by the passion without the drama (well, most of the drama, I'm still a woman), then I hope you contact me.
I want, desire, and require a man masculine enough to hold me down, shut me up, and kiss me passionately as I succumb to my feminine energy (not an easy place for me because I've always been in charge of my own life, a rather masculine trait). Get me out of my head, tell me what you want, to tell me what to do to make you happy. I want to be in my feminine and to submit; and for you to be in your masculine, to take charge. If you do, you, my friend, will be the power that turns me to pure love, and I will release completely in your arms.