i just wonder if i'm looking for a long term "boyfriend" or the "one and done" kind of encounter.  i've had more of the short term thing, leaves me feeling a bit unsatisfied, like i'm missing the best part of the involvement.  maybe i should re-evaluate what i'm hoping for, spell things out more specifically here.  i've very much enjoyed the experiences i've had through this site.  i've met some great men, but for the most part, things haven't lasted or been terribly regular.

so, now what?

i'm not very good at keeping a regular journal.  in fact, i've probably got several half ass attempts at journaling strewn over the net.  if i could find them all i'd probably have a decent history of my life over the years. 

so far i've had a great experience on this site, had a lot of great conversations with some interesting people.  it's quite the ego boost for me to feel so darn fuckable. 

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