The main reason I'm on this site is because I'm looking for a relationship like this. Not really: I just like that episode.
You'll probably get tired of links by the end of my profile. Sorry about that. Also, I don't expect anybody to read my whole profile. Kudos and I'm flattered if you find it interesting enough to finish.

My personality tab makes it look like I'm screaming, "Corrupt me, please." I'm referring to the pure, moral, trusting, and inexperienced traits it gave me. I'm cool with that, I guess. I don't know what criteria OKC uses for those honestly, though. Good luck if you get off on corrupting people; maybe I already have a dark side different than what OKC picks up on. Dunno.

Related to that: I guess I have the potential to be more of a designated driver, because the times I've been around alcohol and drug use I've pretty much just watched other people get drunk and/or high. I'm cool with it, but doing drugs and drinking are really not for me. I've never been asked to be a designated driver, though. I'm not in alcohol/drug use situations often, but I'm not adverse to them. I've pretty much just seen soft drug use like marijuana in person, but I have met a few people in the past couple of years in their 20's and 30's that messed up their minds and/or bodies on acid, cocaine, or whatever but I'm not in contact with them now. They were being rehabilitated.

I've never tried drugs myself, but I don't want to either, really. If I want to expand my mind or get high or something, I'll figure out some other way.

One thing that's different about my life: I'm adopted and I've been sought out by my birth father. Being sought out is rare and being sought out by your father is even more rare according to a book I read some of. The book is called Birthright by Jean Strauss. We've met in person and through the release of information by the courts and talking to him I now know my birth mother's name. He told me the first name, and my name at birth (which was generic) had her last name. I'd say I have two families because of this.

FML

"I have a tough mind, and I'm a good observer "- James Cole

I've been doing a lot of chronicling recently with trying to place a bunch of memories on timelines and stuff, I guess. It resulted a comment on me mentioned in the "What People First Notice About Me" section.

On some monkeys, time is linear. Get out of here. I've had delusions centered around my 21st birthday where I have had doubts. Sometimes it's good to be wrong about things and learn from corrections... even with basic things. Isn't time relative, too?

I've felt like Alice.

Also, I think I made a pretty okay wiki for r/schizophrenia , personally. (Also, the moderator who invited me to help spent $4 and bought me a month of reddit gold for my work saying my work hasn't gone unnoticed so he must have thought so too.) If you look at the mod bios, I've mentioned what I've done there. You should probably be able to figure out which moderator I am.

I believe I made a pretty good model of what a forum for a specific illness should look like, but that's just my own egotistical opinion. I don't like saying those types of things. If there were more pages like that, I think the specific symptoms in the wiki should be linked cross-illness/disorder.

You should know, I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia betore and experienced all kinds of hallucinations. People still go places with it and succeed. They don't usually announce it, unless it's relevant to their field or something. TBH I don't think I'm going places, but I just wanted to point out the degrees of severity and disability. John Nash has it and there's a movie about his life. I don't know a whole lot about him other than that he's credited for the "Nash Equilibrium" and Game Theory.

Also, when I worked on a farm I mention briefly in one of the essays below, somebody said I was good at splitting logs with a hydraulic splitter. I found that job fun. Some of the other farm work was interesting and mentally stimulating. Putting up electric fencing helped me grasp the Physics of electricity better.

Also, I made this thing for OKC when I was bored(That's public, so if you have excel you may want to save it to your hard drive. You can still mess around if you're fine with sharing numbers, though.) If you haven't read how matches are calculated, and don't get the numbers, you should so you know what I'm talking about and/or watch this youtube video that explains the math. I was more interested in the numbers and the match questions process than using it for something creepy.

I realize how it looks, the creepy part, but I'm not that way. I don't think I'm that way. Some people don't think it be like it is but it do.

Personality-wise: I have no idea. Both a therapist and what I guess is a social worker I've started seeing told me I should write a book about my life upon interviewing me in my respective first sessions with them. I really don't know what to take away from that. I'm not a writer!

Looks-wise: It used to be my hair because it was long. (Shoulder length.) Now it's probably the goatee. The last family dinner I was at when I wrote this, Passover, everybody was commenting on it. That's family, though, so of course they'd notice a change in appearance like that.

Books:
Jonathan Livingston Seagull, The Hatchet series, Sphere, Into the Wild, Fight Club, Harry Potter series, Lord of the Flies, The Old Man and the Sea, Birthright, Alice in Wonderland

(I only read the first bit of Alice in Wonderland, but loved what I read. I plan on reading the whole thing soon.)

Movies:
Paranormal Activity, Fight Club, Pulp Fiction, The Mask, V For Vendetta, Office Space, Clerks, Star Wars series, 12 Monkeys, Men In Black, Snakes on a Plane, District 9, Jurassic Park, The Matrix series, Dumb and Dumber, Air Force One, Finding Nemo, Lord of War

Shows:
The Joy of Painting,The Daily Show, Colbert Report, Shark Tank, Survivorman, C.O.P.S., Human Weapon, Dragon Ball Z, Yu Yu Hakusho, Dragonball, Full Metal Panic!, Beavis and Butthead, Clone High, Aqua Teen Hunger Force, Sealab 2021, Home Movies, Robot Chicken,Space Ghost: Coast to Coast, Cartoon Planet

Music:
Skrillex, System of a Down, Nirvana, Disturbed, , Red Hot Chili Peppers, Black Sabbath,Prodigy, Drowning Pool, Ke$ha, Godsmack, The Offspring, Serj Tankian, Violent Femmes, Rammstein, Lady Gaga, Rob Zombie, Bruce Faulconer, Nine Inch Nails, Jimi Hendrix,Nero, Black Eyed Peas, Emalkay

Food:
I'm not a picky eater so long as it's kosher to the degree I keep. I do like kale, cherry tomatoes, a simple salmon croquette recipe I made up based off of my mom's recipe, and some other stuff.

I can not remember appointments for the life of me without my phone's calendar alarm. The phone is also good for, you know, calls and text messages. I also have a GPS, not a part of the phone, which is pretty handy. I guess since these things are handy I should break them so I don't become dependent on them and retain my dignity and autonomy rather than learn to use them in moderation. Point being to create and maintain an ability to do without them.

The guy who suggested throwing technology out entirely had an IQ of 167? He also tried to letter bomb people he thought were propagating technological "progress".

Eh... things I literally could never do without, like air and etcetera, are too obvious so I figured I'd use this space to alert people about what the Unabomber thinks of depending on things with a link. I like to keep that in mind. What is that? Militant Buddhist detachment? Kind of an oxymoron. It could be what Fred Durst was on about in "Break Stuff", too, if you read the full Unabomber essay. He did mention over-socialization... No, I don't think so; Fred Durst has nothing to do with it. I remember liking the read even though I disagree with it. The guy did terrible things.

I did without those things when I lived and worked in a residential therapeutic farm community for a year. There was no cell service, scheduling was rigid, and I wasn't allowed to have a car. It's different living. Necessity depends on the situation.

I might've listed people, but people aren't things. My adoptive father died when I was in 5th grade. Due to death and breaking relationships people have to learn how to do without certain specific individuals in times of separation and hardship. Attachment is still okay as long as it's not crippling.

Note: I have broken things for other reasons like boards in martial arts. Dojos are like systemized throttling wood-chippers.

Lately gravity and magnetism...

Dragonball, Psychosis, Physics, Theology, my past, ideas for r/schizophrenia... other stuff, and bananas? That guy's dressed like a banana. I'm not sure I'd say "a lot" currently, but they are major topics I've thought about in the past even if the first one isn't serious.

If our fathers are our models for God, what does it mean if you're adopted at birth, your adoptive father dies of cancer when you're 11, and then a decade later your birth father seeks you out?

I don't really have issues with my fathers or resentment toward them, but I found that proposition interesting. Same applies for mothers.

I don't know? Shabbat? I don't really do anything for that. I had an Econ professor once who mentioned the 7 day week was inefficient according to an article he read. Ironically, his name was Jay Corrigan. I mentioned religious people wouldn't know the day of the sabbath. After I dropped out of that college, I stumbled upon the wiki article in the link. Mythological stuff I had never heard of. There's a part about Korrigans not being able to recite the days of the week because of holiness or something. Also, they had this thing called the Gates of Hell at the college. Maybe the professors are demons, fairies, and etcetera? NO. It kind of reminds me of how some people were aliens in Men in Black. Coincidence, and a true story.

Profs are probably more like slug people or something. If you get that, I love you. It's a reference to a parody of one of my favorite shows where a character thought his people were demons.

Mythological stuff doesn't exist. I know this.

Seriously, though, it doesn't.

The first time I saw somebody with pectus excavatum was before I ever heard of the birth defect, and my mind immediately went to Men in Black. Then, I learned.

Fanciful ideation is just that: fanciful ideation.

I'm trying to learn to count and do math in a different way. I split the concept of zero into negative and positives. For imaginary numbers, i=sqrt(-0). 0 is void. _ is a placeholder which means nothing. 1+0=1; 1*0=0; 1+_=1; 1*_=1. _ only exists in the ones place. It has bearing in the way i think about Physics.

Also, this isn't very private but whatever: in my driver's license picture I have my hair down to my shoulders. I got it cut off sometime in the early fall 2011. If you read the "first thing people notice" essay, you already know about how I used to look.

Also, I took around 4 years of martial arts. I quit during the 07/08 school year. I made it to red belt, when you start counting classes until the black belt test, and quit before the black tip you get halfway through the belt. I thought after dedicating all of that time to it, "I don't want to know how to hurt people." I just started training as a white belt with a new sensie in the same style this year. So much for that. The first dojo taught TKD and Bujinkan. I took private boxing lessons at Boxing4Fitness back then, too. Now, I'm just doing TKD. I have a voucher for a month of boxing somewhere, but the teacher isn't returning calls. Bad business.

I wouldn't say I'm a fighter or a martial artist, really. I think I only sparred once at Boxing4Fitness, only did foam weapons type stuff at my first dojo, and I've had only had a few violent non-sport encounters outside of the dojo or gym. I'm also don't think of myself as big, buff, and intimidating.

Oh, yeah, and I started browsing 4chan in 2004 and was a heavy user for a while. I realize that site has a bad rep... I don't really browse any more.

Furthermore, I hallucinated, probably in 2010 when a lot of my world was strange, a black and white photo of my adoptive father morph into this photograph. I don't know what it means, if non drug induced visual hallucinations mean anything. I have have nothing to do with Manson!

You're not put off by anything and you're interested. I'd prefer people within 60 miles or so if you ever want to meet. Keep in mind that's about an hour driving at around 60mph on the highway. Who I'm looking for is already stated above.

I'm open to some other things, too, though: like friends for instance.

Also, I'm not desperate, but I happen to also be on POF putting myself out there. My initial reason for creating another profile had to do with somebody's recommendation.