I am kind of esoteric freelance goth kid who is being forced to grow up. I have been told I have an old soul, or a poetic soul, or some times even a beautiful soul. All I know is that I have spent so much time trying to find myself that I don't recognize myself anymore. I have no great passions in my life except that of the Goddess. The Goddess is my mother, she is your mother too; The Goddess is my reason to continue on in life. I feel great sadness some days and others a great overwhelming feeling to fly and accomplish all my goals, I just try to make the Debby Downer days turn into Star shine let the sunshine in Aquarius days. I am very possibly an Indigo Child or a Homo noeticus. I moved around my whole life, I was born in Italy and traveled over most of Europe, but I don't remember any of it. My first taste of America was a bilingual school in Sunny Southern California. I never quite fit in and the only thing I was really any good at was hurting myself, mostly on accidents. I experienced most of the lower 48 and even a few months in Hawaii. If there is any place in my life that I feel home at it would be Panama City, Florida. Until the day that I return on a more permanent scale I will keep all of the residents of the Emerald Coast in my heart and when I travel they travel with me.

I am currently living life as free as it can be and hoping another big adventure waits a couple moments for me to finish some meaningless tasks.

Giving advice, helping people with dreams and giving a tarot reading every now and then. Despite how hard I try to hide inside my shell I am really good and dragging other people out of theirs.

A great smile, deep blue eyes and my ability to be comfortable with myself and smile despite how dark the world around me has gotten.

(a)Bony Boon, Jitterbug Perfume, Behold a Pale Horse, Italian for Dummies, The Golden Bough, What if God Where one of Us?, The Egyptian Book of the Dead, Myths and Folk Tales of Ireland, Kitchen Witch's Cookbook, Book of Lies, Harry Potter, Sword of Truth, The Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy, Wicked, The Last Unicorn, the Clockwork Orange, The Wonderful Wizard of OZ, At the Mountains of Madness, The Tao of Pooh, Who Built the Moon, The Spiral dance, The Upanishads, Drawing Down the Moon

(b)What the bleep do we know, The Last Unicorn, Labyrinth, Rocky Horror Picture Show, Petter Pan, The Adventures of Baron Munchausen, The Dark Crystal, Mirror Mask, Grease, Adam and Steve, Crazy in Alabama, Hercules, Steamboy, Always, Resident Evil (all 3), The Darjeeling Limited, Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium, Interview with the Vampire, The Fifth Element, Heavy Metal, Mannequin, Mannequin 2: on the move, Queen of the Damned, AeonFlux, Smokin' Aces, ID4, V for Vendetta, Identity?(I did not know I owned this movie), The Mothman Prophecies, Carrie, The Fountain, The Golden Compass, Hedwig and the Angry Inch, Running with Scissors, Gypsy83, Camp, edge of seventeen, Latter Days, Ellen Degeneres here and now, Lady and the Tramp, The Celestine Prophecy, Love Actually, Barefoot in the Park, Stardust, Dracula, Frankenstein, Rent, Across the Universe, The Wiz, The Mists of Avalon, the Covenant, The Skeleton key, The Wicker Man (both versions), Molotov (1 and 2), August Rush, Freedom Writers, Stand and Deliver, The Science of Sleep, A Series of Unfortunate Events, breakfast at Tiffany's, Roman Holiday, Sabrina, A Scanner Darkly, UltraViolet, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, TransAmerica, Young Frankenstein, Fight Club, Dumbo, Advent Children, Shortbus, The Little Mermaid, Children of Men, Maurice, Party Monster, The Adventures of Priscilla Queen of the Desert, Wizards, an inconvenient Truth, beaches, The Birdcage, Benders Big Score, Hairspay, Moulin Rouge, Tommy, Pink Floyd the Wall, The Concert for the Bangladesh, Hair, Supernova, the Lost Boys, 10.5 Apocalypse, Corporation, Tin Man, Zachariah, Cats, The Wizard of Oz, The Goonies, Willy Wonka (the original), The Craft, Daywatch, Shikoku, I am Legend, Evita, The Point, Chicago, The Phantom of the Opera, Sweeney Todd, House on Haunted Hill (the original), The Human Monster, Indestructible Man, Invisible Ghost, The Last Man on Earth, The Phantom Creeps, Nightmare Castle, Unntaural, The Little Shop of Horrors, Carnival of Souls.

(c) I like the natural sounds of a drum and the woodwinds, as well as the fast beats of the vibrant electronic melodies of a synthesizer. I would love to be able to mix the soft sounds of the renaissance with the harsh wail of the guitar. There are many genres on my iPOD and the iBeastlist grows everyday. I started my musical jurney through life by Fleetwood Mac and Stevie Nicks. From the combine might of music and magic I have found such awesome bands like Cranberries and the Gathering. I like to think I followed my emotional side through my ears and because of that I own many soundtracks and love a good Andrew Lloyd Webber song (musical genius that one is). Having performed as a drag queen and opened my musical tastes to the popular selection I understand and grove well to a great Diva and enjoy the wilds of some of the musicians I had not thought of before. Music is a drug and I am addicted.

(d) I like eating new foods, European, and Mediterranean foods remind me of home, pasta and a good salad, vegetarian lasagna is the best, root vegetables and vine fruits, granola, dark chocolate

Warmth, Food, Shelter, Family (and friends), my perfect body (as I see it and the way the world sees it too), the eternal mother within us all

The world as it is today, and how we are damaging it. How much better things would be if we just stopped all production of beef and cow's milk. How much we would save if we switched to hemp being our cash crop so that we could make paper and oils and get twice as much a year from the harvest than we would by cutting down our forests. Maybe we could even look into alternate sources of energy, I did not learn how to drive because at 16 I refused to be a part of the oil industry.

Out at a bar or some hangout anywhere except at my house. There is no such thing as typical and as for Friday, from the root of the word Frey's Day or his sister Freya's Day either way to me we should be going out and spreading light and love and acting like the sun god or a golden goddess, so I think we should be trying to do this on Fridays, but goodness forbid if we do something logical.

I am pagan not that it is private, but it seems like I am stuck in the world of somebody else's god.
I cry at night because I am a stranger in a strange land, because I am all alone in a world I don't understand and that does not understand me.
I am in love with the Goddess I see in the Moon.

if you have ever had a religious experience with a feminine deity, I want to compare notes or maybe you are just another radical faerie looking for a like mind to sit and chill and feel home with another.