Well, let me just be honest with whomever is reading this, I'm mainly making a journal post for the 2% to my profile being complete. But I'm not gonna just not really talk about anything and fill up 1000 characters, I'll say something I'd actually put in a journal if I used them. So, on to the shit.

Today has been a totally fucking weird day. We were celebrating my dad's birthday today, so we ordered Thai food, which is always good, and I talked to this one girl with whom I am having problems, but sometimes when we talk there doesn't seem to be any problems, and this morning there didn't seem to be anything wrong, and she was going to be gone most of the day, and she said she might call me later, so that was good. And running around getting the food and cake for my dad was fun too, and that whole thing was fun, and then I had a match in TFC. We played a team that usually beats us, but we won, and it was awesome, and everything, but still no call from girl. Then I texted her saying I hope she was having a good time, and she said yeah, and asked if she should call later, and I of course said yes. But no call ever came, cause she came got home, and so I just said hi over x-fire, and she was being her usual not talkative self to me, but I tried talking to her anyway, and tried bringing up things that might spark an actual conversation, but of course, nothing. So I try to distract my self, doesn't really work, and the other people I'm talking to, aren't saying anything either, and it was really kind of frustrating, and sucked, I felt pretty unwanted and uninterested in. And it kept happening through out the night, to pretty much anyone I tried to talk to, until they all left. I'm sure there are real reasons for people not talking to me, like they were busy with something, or really tired, or just didn't see that I sent them a message, but it just kind of sucked that it all happened at once, and has happened several times lately. And ugh, I don't know, I've just been really kind of fucked up lately and I really don't like it, and I'm sick of being depressed all the time, I hate that it's my default feeling, and I want it to be done, and I just don't know what to do.

Well, thanks for listening everyone. And don't worry, I will be okay, I'm just kind of whining about shit that shouldn't be as bad as it is, and it'll just take some time to fix.