Hey Whomever,

Plus Sized, Ex-Vegetarian, Ex-Long time dread head, Slowly learning style....very slowly.
I have this weird tendency to be very formal when I'm dealing with someone fun and carefree and to be fun and carefree when dealing with someone formal.
I am also more formal online then I am in person so the switch over can be a little weird. The tradeoff however is that I'm more willing to talk about anything online as I find it easier to find the words.
I'm fairly shy in person and it takes me a while to be comfortable with someone

I'm working towards improving my life little by little. I used to think of my life as my job (or school at the time) and through some great friends I'm learning to take time out for the other things and people in my life. Having said that I do still love my field and put a lot of my time and myself into my job I just remind myself that it's just a job.

I work in the film and tv industry, and I can't imagine doing anything else. Currently I'm working on a Documentary for PBS as a Production Coordinator. As great as it is I've found that I really need to be creating my own films on the side. I'm wrapping up post for one now and just gearing up to start another.

- being a nerdy weirdo.
Not that that's necessarily a bad thing.
- Procrastinating like it's nobody business
- Pretending to be tough as the need arises
-getting 'er done as the need arises
-using terms like the above and then hating myself for it as the need arises
-Oh, and Self analysis and people watching. When i was a kid i really wanted to be a therapist so i feel like I've still got that inside me wanting to come out. i feel like i can connect with people well just as long as i can get past my initial awkward stage.

I'm a plus sized girl so that's likley number 1
They could notice the huge dent in my face but if they do they don't mention it to me, you know. being polite and all.

I'm shy but every once in a while i try to overcompensate for being shy in a brash attempt at talkativeness, it generally isn't totally well received and then i become awkward instead.
I'm awkward often.

1. Documentary Film
2. Realizing I can do something I didn't think I could (recently see: Creating Art, Starting Hot Yoga)
3. Being Scared; what life without fear
4. Watching Peoples mental and emotional struggles either in blatant pointed films and documentaries or in the subtle nuances of life. I remember watching a woman standing on the subway with tears silently streaming down her face while looking so strong outwardly. She didn't even wipe them away. It's one of the most powerful visual I've ever seen and I'll never forget it. I believe we need these reminder in whatever ways we find them to remain connected to each other no matter how varied everyone individual lives become.
5. The realization that the way things are is not necessarily the best way for them to be but that they are generally based in logic and can be worked around if the original logic is understood

I'm a little scared of boys.

You think you've been cheated out by how few of these little boxes I've actually filled out and you'd like to know more!

That or you'd like to chat. About This. About That.