The history really comes in circles. But, I always wanted to know one thing - is it possible to jump the circles?

It seems that every girl that I can talk to easily commits a virtual suicide after that.

Should I take it personally?

1. listen to your wife. and do everything she tells you.

2. enjoy your job. and try to put it as an explanation why your income is so poor even though you spend most of the day working.

3. point out that most of the people of your age didn't really achieve anything.

4. buy a saab and claim it as an act of independence on modern society.

5. don't argue. ever. if you are forced into the argument, remain silent.

6. ask for directions. than do it your way.

7. do things just for the simple pleasure of doing it.

8. be always ready to go. then ask innocently: who are we waiting for?

9. drive fast.

10. be yourself. not the one she wants you to be.

It took only two days from writing a description of my "ideal partner" to actually find one. The bad thing is that we'll probably never be partners.

But is it really the bad thing?

I don't think so. It is good to know that people like her actually exist.

But it makes me sad |:

Yes, I did it.

She�s gone.

I�ll miss her.

I Hate Makeup Sex.

Yes, I do.

I was thinking about that in the last night. I guess it is because of the way I think about sex. And how it differs from love. Love, for me, is pure state of mind. It is the emotion which is incomprehensible, unrepeatible and overwhelming. It is not anyhow depending on the object of love - even if unrequited, it remains the same. It sometimes brings happiness and always ends in frustration. For me, it is digital feeling - to love or not to love. Simple.

Sex, on the other hand, is the product of understanding and agreement. Whether it's a one-night stand or long-term relationship, sex is always matter of communication. I want it, you want it. We understand the needs of the other and sex is the result (I am leaving out the non-standard situations on purpose).

The makeup sex is denial of these principles. We make sex not because we understand each other, but because we don't. We do it because we don't get along together and instead of finding a solution, we decide to forget about it.

But it will come up later.

Are all the girls the same? And boys, too?

It is usually never very difficult to communicate with people. Or, it never was. Lately, I experience such a strange feeling that not very many people can surprise me by something special. Maybe it is due the fact that it has been quite a few days since I made some new friends. And my old, or "old" friends are fine, thanks for asking, but many of them are so predictable, that they are almost *boring*. I have many kinds of friends and every one of them has something special, but is is always *the same* special.

For example - I have a friend who is a poet. A poet of questionable qualities, but I don't dare judge her, because I know I cannot understand poetry. Talking with her is always refreshing, but the topic remains the same for all the time we know each other.

I am not saing that this is neccessary the bad thing - I assume that most people behave this way. But the question is:

Is there anyone who can keep themselves original through some long-term realitonship? And by "original" I mean not only keeping their style, but also ajusting it just to make everyday surprises to people around them. Does someone like this even exist? And could it be a girl?

To be honest - I don't know. But I do believe.

In response to Ladies' Pants by superevilduck:

In my time of internetting, I've been asked more times than I can count whether or not I am wearing or do wear thongs. Let's not even look at this as the inappropriate ice breaker that it is. Let's look at it from the point of view of personal comfort.

Now that is interesting. When I woke up today, I thought about women wearing thongs. And as this is one question that really interests me, how to ask and don�t be considered rude. And what happened - I log into OKCupid and see this journal entry.

First of all - I don�t like thongs. Not only I consider them uncomfortable, I also believe that they are unsexy. I love underwear with an Idea, that is comfortable, sporty and possible to wear by itself (at home for example). I hate laces, though... (:

And if you, women, are concerned of how it looks under your clothes, consider wearing no panties at all (:

This is strange. Everything around seems to be weird. And most of all - this.

I tried to fly without wings today, it was almost overwhelming after three months or so. But I managed it just okay. Sometimes I wonder if there will be some life after this all ends.

I have started to read 1984. Did someone notice how some books can hold you by few sentences? I was reading some Norwegian book, it was - is - okay, but half a page from 1984 forced me to put the other book aside. It is dark and it is what is going on here...

I fly. Bleifrei.